By Jon Van Loon
Copyright 2016, Jon Van Loon
Shakespir Edition
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The poems were written in large part in praise of family and often in the memory of other special people that enriched my life. Mo, the name most frequently encountered is my wife of 55 years. The fact that she endured and loved me despite unpleasant fallout from my bipolarity and learning disability defines her better than any tribute I might write.
Throughout my 79 years I struggled with God and religion. A few discoveries during my career as a Professor occasioned me to have lived and worked in a variety of jurisdictions on 6 Continents. This broad exposure to life as it really is in most of the world has left me in my waning years if not an outright atheist at least a ponderous agnostic. A few of the poems reflect this transition.
I certainly do not claim anything near excellence as a poet yet I present this collection with the view that the reader might enjoy and perhaps relate to my ramblings on life and the lives of a few good people.
Selections of my favourite Photos are interspersed with the poems to allow the reader to enjoy views of nature as a respite to deliberation of the written word. These offerings depict tableaus that caught my eye from locations in The Greater Toronto area and the Gulf coast of Florida.
Success is mine
Entwined with thine
Our hopes aspire
With one desire
All troubles flow
To depths below
In sweet embrace
With joys replace
Though damns of woe
Would end the flow
This steadfast heart
With thee departs
In lasting bliss
From Heaven’s kiss
Together wend
Until the end.
Love is too vacuous a word to properly express
My true feelings for my family
In life I lost my way from time to time
And even my love must, to you.
Have seemed gone.
Yet in all my muddle I promise
This aurora was still all encompassing
Hopefully the overall picture was clear
And if I could I would invent
A stronger more powerful concept
To indicate the sweet fragrance I wanted
To envelope you in.
My incapacity to live a life
Free from deplorable errors
Many times, was my deep regret
But your love for me’
Even then was deeply felt
You cannot know how much
That really meant.
I can promise that I remained true
To you always and will endlessly
To die and leave so much of importance
Unsaid and undone
Is inexcusable and my greatest sin
Yet perhaps I did a little good
If this is so try to remember
This was my true goal
When I am physically gone
I hope my deficits will also dim
And as you scatter my dust in the welcoming
Microscopic molecules, containing the good in me
Will alight within you all
And you will feel an indefinable positive
Giving you strength
Forever!
Because of my family I am happy.
You see she is behind yon greening tree
Oh yes and in the tender budding rose
Within all realms of nature she doth repose
Fair heavenly thing she’s there for all to see.
With soothing words and tender phrases
Breathed softly when the lights are dim
She moves my heart to her so light and trim
And takes my thoughts from all the worldly masses.
Oh love which steals from me my very heart
Hold her forever in my yearning arms
Keep me fast within her many charms
And bind us Steadfast that we may never part.
She’s at the very root of nature’s beauty
Here’s where I found loves most precious booty.
For what is LOVE ?
Tis not an outward sign
Or Hope For Moments joy
But Flows like silver streams
From roots so deeply cloven
Within the corners of the soul
To pass beyond eternity
Up to the Holy realms of heaven
For what is FAITH?
It is the very root of love
Two souls entwined as one
Real faith is eternal trust
Prevailing against destruction
As sure as day and night
Shall follow morn and noon
So shall my faith be you.
For what is HAPPINESS?
Not merely love or faith
But wafts gently in the breezes
From the very source of these
In understanding so vast
That Life together becomes
As necessary as food and drink
For the survival of the entire self.
For what is age?
Tis but a state of outward body
Never noticed in the soul
Never shown in final role.
Should I die today, tomorrow
He was so young whoever knoweth
What matter what appearance showeth
The inner man is all that growth
And then in love tis not array
For time shall cut us to the core
But deeper love will inward pour
To find the inner self display
Six years between is but a day
As love has hid this far away.
New love embalms a tired soul
The twisted root of life refreshed
From former follies iron grasp
Released again from devils clasp.
We stand transfixed before the throne
Our evil selves asleep at last
Buried deep within the past
In the spirit of this hallowed hour.
How sad it seems that this must pass
Like heavy breath of summer air
That warms the sands on yonder beach
Retreats before the chilly blast.
So soon the symbols disappear
And minds return to worldly cares
For bitter combat man prepares
As Satan’s venom spurs him on.
What matter if the course of life
Leads to and fro from peace to war
True love will rise above the strife
And stitch our hearts with firmer bonds.
Thus here at last our sweet retreat
Is cast against the normal course
Together mounting to the source
Of boundless hope and happiness.
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Today I fell from grace and all seems gone
A moment’s beauty lost within the throng
Another leaf is left without a song
And all about the world is wrong.
The darkest days of life enclose around
Misfortune mocks where welcome once was found
And hopes are few and petty pains abound
A troubled heart with deeper hurt is crowned.
With heavy heart from pleasures peak I fell
To take my turn with anguish wrought in Hell
Confined within a dismal deathly shell
Waiting long to hear sweet freedom’s bell
All this is past as darkness into light
For you my kin have helped to end my night.
Oh Lord what shall I do?
My mind from tangled hopeless goals
In full confusion seeks my role
That I may find the cherished Knoll
Of success.
Why am I not like others Lord?
Ne’er muddled but forever clear
That it is Thy voice I hear
In whispers saying not to fear
Bur travel on.
What must I do?
My restless mind weaves to and fro
Between vocations high and low
I seek to find a middle row
But travel on.
You must trust and wait
Some night when stars from darkness gleam
Your mind may fall upon the beam
And rest assured that in your dream
Your Answers found.
We sit as sojourners on the road of life
Where death as sure as sun shall rise
Exists like darkening shadows stalking from behind
Our lives like puppets are controlled
By powers above whose skilful hands
Exert diurnal actions.
The mind though free to think
Is bound by mortal matter to conform
Within the earthly scope of senses
Thoughts of abstract realms
Like youthful fantasies of imagination
Are pure conjecture.
Truth exists but is never ascertained
Like a bottomless pit we never find
The true foundation rooted firm
Until that spirit fills our very soul
Which flows like heavy mist or pungent odour
To the outermost corners of the heart
Meaning then like glowing dawn
Illuminates our lives with hope and truth
Our fettered limbs are free at last
To move beyond material bonds
Imprisoned souls like ripened seeds are cast
Upon the fertile soil of eternity.
Who hangs on yonder tree
Twas he who died for me
My careless labours cost
His life for me was lost
When worldly care enshrouds
And petty pain abounds
In shame his hands I see
Pierced deeply through for me
Forgiveness for the human race
Expressed upon his face
His message ringing clear
Rebounds for all to hear
The body fain must lie
But the soul shall never die
( Or why I became a Chemist)
Four months of ceaseless wanderings done
Through nature’s heartless wringer wrung
From here to there I’ve been and come
Within this spacious forest jail.
These boots with ragged soles or’ run
Draped round my feet, torn by the rock
From miles of useless pacing’s done
Mid seas of trees and rancid swamp.
And when at night I lay my head
Beneath yon granite cliff above
Upon that rock as cold as death
I hope with all my heart and soul.
O death come take this lifeless life
Come place thy icy finger strong
That fiery Hell my home so sure
Much better than this living death.
Oh those bright and early halcyon days
When carefree thoughts and deeds are the way
And married couples engage in light hearted play
But soon plans for family enter into the fray
Then comes the first baby with many surprises
Sleepless nights and hectic days are followed by endless reprise
Problems at school and children’s relationships unexpectedly arise
Complicated oft times by adult disorders replacing earlier prizes.
Teen years filled with foibles seem to descend from above
Yet at times mothers and children fit together as in a tightly fitted glove
Especially when teens write or vocalize unexpected parables of love
Then, oh my, independent thinking flutters in like a dove.
Even with all the dilemmas these times are best
For all too soon they end up with an empty nest.
Sweetly, surprisingly a gentle fragrance blew
And when we glimpsed, 2 lies grew
Between them suspended as a dream
A child appeared.
She meekly smiled and reaching out
Touched tenderly a willing cheek
As if to present assurance of a promise to fulfill
A life of contribution, creativity, compassion and excitement
But best of all, love and kindness.
Fittingly and thoughtfully the named her Maya
The essence of joyous vitality.
Our aging hearts extend
An indulgent and kindly salutation
With fervent hope that she
Will retain us always within her mind
And our hopes and loves for Maya and her eternal happiness.
(from Gram and Granddad Van loon)
Cathy P.
More gentle than recumbent summer wind
She whispers encouragement around us still
In this worldly garden she no longer tills
Yet her eternal presence much stronger is
Indeed she is much closer now
Because we need not wait for physical presence
Her sweet love it lingers in every corner
Of this temporary playpen in which we stay.
Ever faithful, never far, she offers guidance
And sweet breeze of hope lets us communicate
In love our minds can still entwine
Much surer presence coming from within
From that great crossword puzzle of the mind
Her outstretched hand to us implores
Make thy important contribution there on earth
Then come and join me in God’s great tapestry of the soul.
(for Nels and the Patterson families)
You remind me of a tropical butterfly
With gorgeous wings
But unlike the butterfly
Your colours and movements
Become more stunning with age
The succulent and fragile flowers
Upon which you dine
Are mirrors of your
Genuine inner beauty
Bound up yet ever growing
Within.
A unique seed is planted in the ground
Where no useful garden could be found
Though initial worries and difficulties abound
Sweet flowers of promise soon will mound
Somerset is a timely garden of the mind
Where kindly tillers impart skills of a special kind
And tender shoots with knowledge soon shall twine.
So within these fertile fields a more satisfactory way will find
Our children are mankind’s most treasured hope
Unlike our generation they shall not uselessly grope
In finding new solutions to problems will better learn to cope
So through life’s twisted alleyways shall more quickly lope
Maureen and her staff will skilfully lead the way
The many obstacles toppling like new mown hay
In their special methodologies sweet promise plays
Bringing this world real hope for much better ways.
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Some years ago a unique garden was planted with love, solicitude and expertise
Through a diligent tilling and fertilizing of the soil
A culturing school arose tended by multidisciplinary experts
Here-in prospered a plethora of young people
Through stringent, expert, programming steeped in a caring atmosphere
Emerged graduates whose success in their education and vocations
Is a testament to the skills of the director and her team.
Notably many of these benefactors arrived with difficulties
Undiagnosed and untreated in other jurisdictions
Being beyond normal bounds of a conventional level of expertise
It could have been expected that a lower level of success might be forecast
But through testing, unique caring, help and fortification of esteem
Many of these special students achieved at expected or better levels.
Upon retirement Maureen can look back with pride at these unusual achievements
With a satisfaction, the level of which is often fortified by unexpected and enthusiastic
Visits of her benefactors many of whom are now in prominent positions
But retirement is not just a retro viewing phenomenon
A future unfolds still within and outside this jurisdiction
In which her carefully honed talents can continue to guide her successors
Providing not only a groundwork for a new and continuing flourishing era at Somerset
But also continued, personal, nourishing interaction with young people
Whom she continues to love and respect and to provide expert guidance.
(Friend and patient, Cummer Lodge)
So Many exemplary attitudes he had
About whose life we can find little sad
Inspirational and intellectual in so many ways
Always smiling and positive throughout his days
Nurses workers and friends he loved in kind
But his family he held highest within his mind
Deeply missing his wife he had difficult times
He talked of their fragrant love producing life’s rhymes.
Humorous and forgiving despite deepening pain
His generous and forthright attitude became our cane
He held us loftily way above ourselves
Despite his importance mostly mute about himself
Ben has left us behind much bereaved by his loss
But he would be angry if long we mournfully tossed
So let’s celebrate and assimilate his wonderful gifts
Thus making it easier through life’s problems to sift.
The beauty of a fragrant rose
May be discerned even in darkness
Thus achievement arises
On its own merits
Divorced from misconceptions of disability.
“Invisible” celestial objects
Are detectable from radiation
Of other wavelengths
Ultimate ability is indiscernible both
Through visual and biochemical means
Success is the property of
Human endeavour driven by
Strength of desire, resourcefulness, perseverance
Denial of handicap and physical boundaries
Ability and disability are not related.
A lingering scent of flowers
From a native Melbourne garden
Still embraces our souls
Like the fragrant memory
Of the accomplished gardener
Another testament an esteemed family
Tenderly cultivated bearing fruit
Engendered by the husband and loving wife
Through their formative years
Ensuring a delightful immortality
Beyond us now a man uniquely gifted
With many stellar abilities in Research Science
Most importantly he could evoke optimism
Enveloped in humour and hope
Uniquely exuded during most dire circumstances
To envelope the hearts of his fortunate intimates
For those yet struggling here behind
His memory remains a guiding star
A paradigm of courage through tormented time
For us this challenge to attempt to emulate
Such an imposing monument shall never crumble
Peter, your life made our world a finer place.
(For Peter Larkins)
Sometimes bad dreams
Become reality
That’s when life seems
A banality
Sweet familie’s love
So badly used
Like storm blown dove
So badly bruised
Wounds heal in time
If success becomes mine
My love then entwines
Becoming Thine.
Move over neighbour here I come
I’m going to find salvation for the world
Get off the road neighbour
Can’t you hear me honking my impatient horn?
I really hate you, neighbour
You have all the weakness I abhor
Like dishonesty, selfishness, greed etc. Etc….
Oh I won’t say this in your presence
But behind your back I talk, Oh do I talk
I’m even friendly
When we meet across the fence or at a party
Face to face
Why are you not good like me?
I do many good things every day
For example I love my dog
In fact I often treat my dog better
Than my neighbour
Dogs are lucky animals
They are loved by me
Dogs expect very little from me
So it is easy to love my dog.
I love my wife, my children and my money
And especially I love myself
To get along with you, neighbour
I would have to deny myself a little
So I hate you neighbour
You and all your many problems
You know, neighbour
If you could change and act good like me
The world would improve very rapidly
It’s little day by day shortcomings like yours, neighbour
When accumulated
That result in major worldwide confrontations
Can’t you see this, neighbour?
Don’t you realize that we daily court disaster
And our children may be doomed
Just as surely as if you turned the Knife yourself
I’m good, neighbour
If everyone was good like me
What a world it would be
What is that distant rumbling I hear?
To Hell with you then neighbour
I still hate you with all your imperfections
That rumbling in my ears is it growing?
What is this sudden heat?
Help! Help! Neighbour
I guess I can’t do this all on my own
Please forgive my hate
What’s that you say?
It’s too late?
Oh no!
It never was too late before
How did it get to be too late, now?
Sweet prairie winds waft gently by
Between the pastures peaks and endless sky
In silver rows the pillows ply
As through the blue the blackbirds fly
The golden grain in endless gardens grow
As straight standing soldiers row on row
Luxuriant kernels burst before the blow
Of bronzen natives as they mow
Black gold seeps deep within the soil
While burley roughneck’s sweat and toil
Nature’s sandy sediment to foil
As tycoons bulging pockets boil
These stalwart western peoples live
This country hope and blood to give
(A town in Saskatchewan from which I worked)
Between horizon’s end and dusking sky
Where once Apache blood was rudely shed
Ten thousand Native Canadian feet across prairie plied
And obedient came before his echoing call
Once strong he stood before triumphant tribe
Proud feathers standing prone from shining head
He fearless fought in quest of glories bough
While shod in hope eternal grasped for victory
White waters gently pass before his grave
Wild winds whistle vociferously in the darkening bush
And shout his name above the approaching evening hush
Wawota, Wawota last vestige of Natives dying prairie hope
Vast seas of foreign grain wave boldly forth
Steel oxen ploughing rows of endless soil
Replace his silent world of long lasting peace
As progress plunges deep its deadly coil.
A lonely frog beneath my window sang
To inveigle female from amongst the gangue
His voice like a gigantic bell did clang
And I could not sleep while thus he rang.
The dawn was summoned by kookaburra’s laughing song
This awoke sulphur crested cockatoos who screamed like bongs
Next saucy Curawongs arrived to join the throng
All this cacophony was conducted by Noisy Miners amongst the Guangdongs
Amidst these screeching our days would unfold
Stumbling blindly and shivering because of the winters toe hold
We did out toilet lavishly using perfumes so bold
Then cruised down Boronia Grove bombarded by rays of Gold.
At a new Spectrograph I spent my Sabbatical days
With fellow scientists trying to unravel the spectral maze
Of poisonous metal compounds in samples that could cause malaise
The sub continent’s environmental conscience to raise.
Like the first caress of spring she blessed us
Through trial and tribulation she inspired us
Into the great matrix of life she led us
In hope and understanding she left us
When I erred in her handling she blessed me
Often in troubled times she soothed me
Her peace like precious jewels she bequeathed me
With her forever love she enwreathed me
Her multitudinous skills she dedicated to Thee
Particularly through her art work she glorified Thee
Each brush stroke carefully delivered for Thee
Through such devotion she lead many to Thee
Although her exemplary early pathway has ended
Her sweet perfume with life’s elixirs still is blended.
(In memory of Pat (Pansy) Briginshaw Cummer Lodge)
(Tribute to a respected colleague)
Butterflies flit more delicately in Spring
Harnessing fresh air currents with fragile wings
A riot of colour like the flowers to which they cling
But no butterfly more breathtaking or dainty than you
An eagle slingshots toward its prey
Fearlessly one on one in a loners way
He wards off all pretenders who would join the fray
But no eagle so diligent and independent as you
The wounded lioness defends her young
Hissing and spitting over bloodied tongue
Like this she fights till the last post has rung
But no lioness so single-minded and courageous as you.
Is your life without eternal hope?
T’is then a jumbled contradicting pause
In which one struggling strives to cope
With earthly matters mixed in worldly cause
Doubts and fears will frolic wild within
And answered queries now and yet unanswered still
Remain a ceaseless clog to free belief
And full acceptance of the makers will
You ask me why affliction must lay its stripes
Upon our flickering and ever fading flame
Of faith which is the gift of him
Whose solicitations we wish within our very selves to tame
My friend remember thousands struggle thus
And ply for truth upon the troubled sea
Of tangled worries fraught with untold fear
As looming round each obstacle another one appears
Why worry thus for is not God above?
With willingness to aid made manifest in love
He offers boundless hope to all his earthly sons
By trust in him received through flawless faith
He holds the key to every question asked
We need not ponder postulates of men
Naught but confusion is the end in this
Place doubts on God he gives eternal bliss.
Weep not for me when I shall die
For I am part of thee and much, much more
Touching you through every minute unlike before
My eternal love now comes from within
Open up your mind and let’s begin
Feel me in the enveloping breeze
As with clouds of petals I thee tease
Sun’s rays the warmth of my cares
I call you on the gentle spring rain
Such ethereal ambiance to thee impart
I pledge my love, its healing will never depart
See beyond earth’s lifeless visage
For I have gone to be with flowers
In a forever garden I shall kneel
Embracing tender buds with gentle hands
These delicate beauties reminding me of thee
Here we shall meet when you are come
And I have arrived to be with mom
As she works her wonders still
Might I be blessed enough to help?
Through grassy glades and sun drenched knolls
Hand in hand we float
I still feel your love as you can mine
Just imagine being in my arms to fill all needs
And listen for my voice from within thy soul
I pledge my deep devotion forevermore.
The crooked talon reaches
To choke the life of babes
Devils doctrine reaches
Everyone
True beauty alive within a rose
Is but a mirror of autumns death
As brown upon the lawn repose
The remnants
True meaning is expressed
Perhaps in death
All physical being is repressed
In living soul
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Each tiny flake of white descends
By gentle breath the scenery blends
Awakes a season twinkling bright
A silver cloth reflecting light
Yon barren poles of brown and white
Repose in nature’s glistening sheet
A guarded sleep from winter’s night
Until new life the sun entreats
Half wakened forms from peaceful nest
In quest of morsels strewn aside
Come wandering forth into the scene
To take their place among the rest
This rugged beauty pouring forth
Imparts to world celestial garb
Woven above by heavenly rhyme
God’s gifts to man at winter time.
When we have a rotten day
Everything seem to be in the way
Of life’s enjoyment
Yet sure as morning sun will rise
This day will pass with new surprise
Of great improvement
So family fear not that all seems black
If not tomorrow then soon will peak
Life’s further pleasures
Remember we love each other so
Thus no matter what the blow
We will remain steadfast together forever.
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When we have a rotten day
Everything gets in the way
Of life’s enjoyment
Yet sure as morning sun will rise
This day will pass with new surprise
Of great improvement
So Missy fear not that all seems black
If not tomorrow than soon shall peak
Life’s further pleasures
Remember your family loves you so
Thus no matter what the blow
We will be your friends forever
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Today the pulse of nature skipped a beat
And Algonquin’s majesty is temporarily dimmed
In reverence to a fallen mate.
Far away on Scotland’s hills
A sprig of heather suddenly rises
To stand proudly above the rest
It’s brilliant colours a silent salute
To a long ago but treasured ubiquity.
Who was this man we now salute? His
Honesty, diligence, kindness, friendship and love
While heralding his wife as best friend
Are only a few of his many special traits.
In work, he did not attempt to stand out within the crowd
Preferring quietly to toil and leave a deeper mark
A lasting testament to his special brand of competence
Within the hearts of those of us
Who caught his treasured approbation and respect
He remains a sustaining prototype
That reshapes our actions to better form.
Particularly we tarry bathed in humour
His special gift
Providing a source of uplifting distraction
Through toughest times upon which to cling.
A perpetual legacy herewith he stands
Always there on a higher ground
Upon which we can climb to grasp
His lasting essence,
To help regain our flagging hopes.
Most importantly, he yet prevails
An indestructible balustrade
Against which to lean in times of need
To provide a source of timeless comfort
For his cherished and adoring kin.
The beauty of a fragrant lily
May be discerned even in darkness
Thus achievement arises
On Its own merits
Divorced from misconceptions of disability,
“Invisible” celestial objects
Are Detectable from Radiation
Of other wavelengths,
Ultimate ability is indiscernible both
Through visual and biochemical means,
Success is the property of
Human Endeavour driven by
Strength of desire, resourcefulness, perseverance
Denial of handicap and physical boundaries,
Ability and Disability are not related.
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For what is Love
Tis Not an outward sign
Or hope for moment’s joy
But flows like silver streams
From roots so deeply cloven
Within the corners of the soul
To pass beyond eternity.
For what is Faith
It is the very root of love
Two souls entwined as one
Real faith is eternal trust
Prevailing against destruction
As sure as day and night
Shall follow morn and noon
So shall my faith be you.
For what is Happiness
Not merely love or faith
But wafts gently as the breezes
From the very source of these
In understanding so vast
That life together becomes
As necessary as food and drink
For the survival of the entire self.
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Behold, 25 years ago a fertile field was first sown
By 2 young Lovers filled with joy and hope
Throughout the years a complex tapestry was grown
Resplendent in both dandelions and lovely flowers.
Above all else e orchids bloomed, dear Lisa, Melissa and Jon
These priceless gems much more than we deserved
Have brightened our lives with love completely.
Sweet and sour but mainly fragrant
Recollections now pervade our minds
To Wit
Endless joyous days of summer play
Mixed with eucalypts, wattles and brightly coloured birds
Enjoyed with generous kindly friends that is Australia
To Wit
Too many loved ones lost along the way
Sweet mothers, gommy, grand dad and Cliff
Beyond our reach but forever within our grasp
They are immortal.
To Wit
Times spent together enjoying
Children cottage boating driving and the dogs
It gives us everlasting strength.
To Wit
Pride in each other’s accomplishments
That piquant knowledge that an accomplish however small
Has been made.
Is this not adulation?
But reflection back must not eclipse
The challenge yet to come
Because yesterday is but the steppingstone into tomorrow
Our intricate fabric is far from completely done
What love s what sadness what joys yet await?
And to these further weavings
We pledge our love and boundless energy
To great the next 25 still hand in hand together.
Post Script
Now 26 years after this period
I can confirm that in our elderliness
Unbridled youthful infatuation still lives.
Beyond human understanding horrid events occur
As a mighty oak is felled by tornadic winds
So our dear friend was swept away
Leaving an eternal void impossible to fill.
Here in sadness those he loved and who loved him
Are left to try to cope with life now bereft of a cornerstone
After all he was unique, so quiet, yet skilled and clever
So full of life, gentle, thoughtful, loving and kind.
A wise man once said
Our task in life is to leave our territory in life a better place
Leave those we know and love
Better for he having lived amongst them
In this our dear friend you excelled
Spencer, you greatly enriched our lives forever and we miss you terribly.
In Loving Memory
Have you struggled with life’s commonplace issues and had intriguing and complex feelings about incidents family and friends? Do you love nature and have concerns for its preservation in the long term then this offering of poetry supplemented by photos is for you. The poems were written in large part in praise of family and often in the memory of other special people that enriched my life. Mo, the name most frequently encountered is my wife of 55 years. The fact that she endured and loved me despite unpleasant fallout from my bipolarity and learning disability defines her better than any tribute I might write. Throughout my 79 years I struggled with God and religion. A few discoveries during my career as a Professor occasioned me to have lived and worked in a variety of jurisdictions on 6 Continents. This broad exposure to life as it really is in most of the world has left me in my waning years if not an outright atheist at least a ponderous agnostic. A few of the poems reflect this transition. I certainly do not claim anything near excellence as a poet yet I present this collection with the view that the reader might enjoy and perhaps relate to my ramblings on life and the lives of a few good people. Selections of my favourite Photos are interspersed with the poems to allow the reader to enjoy views of nature as a respite to deliberation of the written word. These offerings depict tableaus that caught my eye from locations in The Greater Toronto area and the Gulf coast of Florida.