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The Beginning

The Beginning

by Coyotes Publishing

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Shakespir Edition

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The Way Out

Mostly I feel as if I need to release what’s on the inside.

To take a sharp object to my wrists and let my body dive.

To the ground in one lifeless thud.

Let me lay lifeless in the mud.

I don’t want to get up I don’t need to see the rest of my life.

It doesn’t matter to me how it goes because I took the way out with a knife.

It’s what I needed to do, it’s what I wanted.

Always walking with a fake smile is what is flaunted.

I never wanted to live another moment having to deal with any of that.
I would rather cock it load it and listen to my brains go splat.
It’s my way out, follow me if you want I won’t deny.

That the way I’m heading is down, always an forever never touching the sky.

All my life I just wanted something different I wanted to be someone.

But yet it never happens that way all I can do is be a nobody just a son.

Even that I don’t want to be, as it’s the life that I’m having to leave.

Since I know that when I leave is when I’ll finally succeed.

 

- Kennie Kayoz -

Pull The Trigger

 

 

The voices in my head are begging me to go ahead.

To take a deep breath and to commit myself to the dead.

Don’t let the people on the outside win.

Come continue your life of sin.

No matter what the case.

Just pull the trigger in any place.

It don’t matter if it’s in doors or out.

Just be sure to let the soul hang around to hear the women shout.

It doesn’t matter anymore.

My life is just a bore.

I couldn’t stand to live another day.

It’s not like the voices had to say much in order to sway.

Myself from doing something such as this.

But now as I lay dead everyone can start to reminess

 

- Kennie Kayoz -

 

Mitlom

 

 

The Hitler mother is always trying to run the show.

Trying to tell you which way to turn and where to go.

Wanting to run every aspect of your life even though hers fell apart.

It’s not like it really does mean anything since yours has been shitty from the start.

With her calling the shots and thinking that she knows whats best.

Is the truly wrong thing to think since she doesn’t let you rest.

Haunting your mind and the thoughts you think.

You could drown her out but that’ll make you have a drink.

Battery Acid & Windshield Wash is the only drink to do the trick.

Unless your the favorite son if thats the case then she’ll suck a dick.

 

Never thinking twice about her actions, but never thinking about you.

She’ll run her mouth and make you turn blue.

With sadness and depression which she’ll be the cause of.

She won’t give a fuck because your the outlet for all of her problems.

No mathematical equation can ever solve this riddle.

No matter what you do she always claims that you sit and twiddle.

Your thumbs on a constant rotation.

She will talk shit about you an she’ll think it’s motivation.

 

Be warned as you may have a Mitlom near.

 

- Kennie Kayoz -

 

Can’t Stand It

 

 

Everyday it’s the same fucking thing.

Bitching and crabbing from the moment you walk in the door till I goto bed.

If I go too early you’ll scream louder.

No matter what I do it’s like your looking over my shoulder.

I can’t stand it living my life like this having you attempt to run it.

I know life really does suck shit.

Why does mine have to continue to get worse.

Just leave me the fuck alone before I find myself in a Hurst.

I can no longer stand this I can’t take much more.

You better fucking believe I have been getting sore.

Trying to please you which isn’t fucking possible since all you do is find something else.

Something I have done since I never read your mind.

If I could I know I wouldn’t like what I would find.

Nothing but treat me like shit.

Abuse me so much I’d take a self inflicted hit.

Don’t give him a chance to speak.

Let him sit alone in the dark at his computer so you can call him a geek.

Tell him he has no life.

Tell him that he’ll never grow up an get a wife.

The girl who he dates won’t like him if he stays this way.

But what you don’t know is tomorrow maybe the fucking day.

 

- Kennie Kayoz -

The House Of Horrors

I never thought I would think this bout the house I grew up in.

Living in a house full of anger doin many things that’d be considered a sin.

Not knowing what else to do as I grow up just trying to have myself survive.

Thinking that things can’t get much worse but they did as I got older an more alive.

As I grew older things came down harder.

The distance between me an those around grew further.

Further apart as it seems that they couldn’t reach me.

When they looked into my eyes my dreams they couldn’t see.

 

I always kept things hidden from those around me never wanting to take part.

In anything that they wanted me to be involved in as I’ve always had dreams from the start.

I could never understand why they always try to be my friend.

As they’ve tried this till the end.

 

No longer shall they become that or be considered that.

As I keep my self hidden under my hood an hat.

Always have it turned to the back.

Never talking to anyone who was in the house of horrors.

One day I’ll get my revenge and I’ll be evening the scores.

 

- Kennie Kayoz -

 

No Escape

 

 

There’s no escape, never anywhere to run.

It began ever since we moved into the house.

Not knowing what my fate was as I always continued to be as silent as a mouse.

 

There’s no escape, never anywhere to run.

Close your eyes and rest in peace it’s soon be all done.

There’s no escape, never anywhere to run.

The emotional roller coaster is never any fun.

 

There never is any escape.

Living in a house surrounded by the police yellow tape.

I don’t know where to begin or where to end.

Growing up with nobody to be my friend.

The darkness was always kind.

In it is the compassion in which I would find.

 

There’s no escape, never anywhere to run.

Close your eyes and rest in peace it’s soon be all done.

There’s no escape, never anywhere to run.

The emotional roller coaster is never any fun.

 

I woke up one day thinking that my life has changed.

When the phone rang I was about to find out that my life was even more deranged.

I’ve became a mindless soul with a blank stare.

They have labeled it the death glare.

No emotion goes on my face.

No single movement shall go about the place.

It’s just like I want that person dead.

As the satanic thoughts would roam through out my head.

 

There’s no escape, never anywhere to run.

Close your eyes and rest in peace it’s soon be all done.

There’s no escape, never anywhere to run.

The emotional roller coaster is never any fun.

 

Everyone shall be terrorfied when my darkness comes.

 

- Kennie Kayoz -

 

Unwanted Feeling

 

 

The feeling of being unwanted is always around.

No matter if I’m out sluggin wood or if I’m just sitting on the ground.

Nobody wants me around this house.

Even though I’m the one who doesn’t even squeak like a mouse.

Sitting alone in his room, no lights on.

But that’s enough for them to find something to complain about and bitch on.

I could be dead and they would still complain to the ghostly image.

I can’t do any good, I’m worthless, I’m unwanted.

I just want to be alone.

Let me hide where the sun won’t be shown.

Just let me sit in the dark.

Or even be homeless in the park.

 

I’m just unwanted no matter where I go.

Unless I’m in her arms but that’s been ruin last time I go.

The phone rang an got bitched at till I came home.

Just to continue to get bitched at an hear it in my head when I’m alone.

 

This unwanted feeling seems to stick.

 

- Kennie Kayoz -

 

60 Minutes

 

 

The countdown is on.

Within 60 minutes the bitchfest shall commence.

Nothing I do is ever right.

You can’t even imagine what I go through while I write.

I try to explain it but words just won’t work.

When I was in school I was always labeled a dork.

Sitting near a computer or having my book opened at all times.

Writing down ideas from my mind including the odd rhyme.

None of that lasted till this very day.

Actually only one did, but the trouble it caused wouldn’t go away.

But the words I write, isn’t things that I can speak.

Since I’m shy an even though most call me a computer geek.

I could never speak my own mind with my voice, I would clam up.

Getting all quiet and tired of being told to shut the fuck up.

Always screaming louder than I can.

I do have two legs but on them I can not stand.

I always get pushed down.

Sitting on the ground always looking up with a frown.

Tears in my eyes as if you wouldn’t see.

Although the ones who pushed me down would be as happy as happy can be.

Within 60 minutes all this will happen.

Not to mention the verbal slappin.

I can no longer take this abuse.

For this there really is no excuse.

 

- Kennie Kayoz -

Confusion

 

 

Everything at times makes me confused, never know what to do.

I never know if I feel grey or if I really feel blue.

Always had a tough time making up my mind.

Just like times I have trouble finding the right words to write a rhyme.

It never is easy being me.

All alone in the cold dark world, to much bullshit to topple down on me.

If I could I would change my life for the better.

Change my life from looking like a block of swiss, to looking like a block of gold.

Half the time I don’t know if what I do is really right.

Most of my emotions I can’t let out verbally so I just write.

I never know who I am or where I’m coming from when I speak.

At times I just wonder if I’m just a computer geek.
To have hopes and dreams that’ll always fade away.

Always having to go against the grain and have to pave my own way.

Sometimes I wish I could deal with this confusion on a better level.

Instead of always looking down into a grave while holding a shovel.

Wondering if my idea that I just released shall be buried with the rest or rise up.

All through my 25 years I’ve always been a total fuck up.

 

- Kennie Kayoz -

Scared

I don’t know what the fuck I’m going to do.
Part of me is panicking because I could have a kid on the way, if signs are true.
25 years old, no father an no job I got allot to learn.
My life went from bad to worse over night and it looks like it’s no stopping.
No matter how much I try it doesn’t seem to matter that things have progressed.
To the point of more trouble an allot less success.

I’m so scared right now I don’t know how to react.
Tryin to do stuff without giving anything away.
I’m hoping that things will have enough sway.
To pull the test from positive to negative.
The days count down as if it’s my last day on earth.
Pulling me back to the point of having to go through my rebirth.
Coming into this world not knowing what is ahead of me.
Not knowing what’s going on or what lays ahead.

I’m scared as I feel like everybody already knows the results.

Even though the test has yet to be done.
I don’t think that it really matters as all signs point to yes.
Which really means that I have to find another way to be a success.
Something to get money and get it quick.
Be sure to keep both hands on my dick.
Can’t be busting anymore don’t need another kid on the way.
I’m so fucking scared that I don’t know what else to say.

- Kennie Kayoz -

 

Out In The Cold

When I see the results of this test it means I’m out.
Out in the cold with the rest of the homeless.
Abandon by all who brought me into this world.
No Christmas, Not even a birthday.
Nothing in this fucking world could possibly save me.
Once I see the test that reads positive.
I know that I’m out in the cold with no love that is.

The baby is most definitely mine, nobody else has been in this girl.
She’s the greatest girl in the world and I feel like I’ve ruined her world.
To have everything going so up come down with a huge crash.
Now she’s going to be having my baby, an here I am with no cash.
The only thing that I will be getting is a cold shoulder and a tongue lashing.
From everybody who finds out and by anyone who steps forth in my presence.
I never know what the fuck are we going to do.
We have little to no time and nothing is working out for you know who.

I can’t even imagine what I could do to sway the test.
This girl an that baby truly do deserve the best.
Unfortunately I can not provide.
The only thing I can do right now is ride.
Myself on down deeper to the depths below.
Since I don’t even want to think about me being homeless with no where to go.

I’m out and I’m trapped like a mouse without a house.
Not knowing where to turn, not needing to think bout the deep south.
I never knew how fucked up my life could have got.
I should have kept myself on out, instead of bustin that cum shot.

- Kennie Kayoz -

 

Cardboard City

To cardboard city is where I shall roam.
Always to wonder with no phone an no home.
Can’t call anyone I love because that all vanished.
Just like the ounce of slime that released up inside of her as she wished.
To always be a mother, to have a child of her own.
Not knowing how quickly my life could turn so fucking cold on it’s own.
The four walls in which I may have around me would crumble so quick.
As I hit myself I wonder why didn’t I put a rubber on my dick.
To prevent this from happening, to take a safety precausion.
I truly should have done so to have extra caution.
Now one false move and I’m falling through this ice.
Not knowing anything else other than no longer having a life.
All my hopes and dreams vanished in one single squirt.

Now here I am sitting here writing my final words.
In hopes of things working out for me and not loosing everything.
From everything to nothing and here I am trying to start over.
That won’t really go just because of the fact that I now have a child.
Everything shall change again in a moments notice and there is nothing I can do.
I can’t do a single thing other than cry over what has happened.
Not knowing how bad things are about to get.
Trying to keep things a secret and trying to get everything set.

- Kennie Kayoz -

 

Nothing Left

I have nothing left everything was taken from me in a moments notice.
I never know where the fuck my life is going to lead.
I never wanted to see the girl who is going to be my wife ever bleed.
To find out that the bleeding was caused by me.
Nothing violent started it, a act of love as I shot a million little soldiers.
Up forth into her as we’re starting to gain more and more confidence in her.
As she’s back to just starting to walk, an all this time feelin unloved as we talked.
Broken leg brought us closer together.
Brought us deeper into each others lives.
I never could understand why.
A girl could possible love me the way that she says she does.
Although now I know that I feel as if all that has changed.
Everything that I have ever wanted will be going up in a ball of flame.

 

- Kennie Kayoz -

Here I Sit

Writing these thoughts in my head.
Hoping that they will resolve themselves through this lead.
From the pencil that I write, unable to erase anything that is inside.
Just spellin mistakes but they come as time goes.
Watching things take shape as my poetry flows.

I never knew what things could have been.
I never know why I never did seen.
The future ahead of me and left the past where it was.
Not wanting to look ahead nor behind.
Always having to walk with the blind.
Don’t want to see the future.
To focused on the past and current.
Watching it take me away, making me something that I’m not.
Watching my soul an corpse begin to rot.

A shell is what I begin holding all the emotions that I can.
I never know where to look for help.
I never know where to turn when I seek it.
The ideas from my head rip me apart from the inside.
They tormented thoughts are only here to join the ride.

Here I sit looking down at the blank paper.
Never knowing which voice in my head to trust as they most seem lower than a whisper.
Do I, or should I leave it.
Would I or don’t I believe it.

- Kennie Kayoz -

 

What Shall I Do

I never know anymore about what I should do.
The girl who I’m determined to be with for the rest of my life is turning blue.
Blue with sadness, as she feels she can’t do anything that she wants.
Even though everyone can see the smile that her own mother flaunts.
Her own mother wanting her to not get better.

So she can be stuck in those four walls forever.

That isn’t the life for her, she needs to get out.
Even though at times she wants to scream, break shit and get the fuck out.
She doesn’t, she keeps herself calm.
Wanting for everything to be better.
When in her life nothing looked any wetter.
The rainy day as the cloud is stuck above her.
Knowing that she is stuck where she is.
But always wanting to go back to that bliss.
The life she enjoyed once before.
The life that never have gotten her so sore.
Never wanting to see the life that she never wanted.
Even though the smile on her mother becomes more clear as shes flaunted.
Around the house right in front of her own child knowing.
That the smile of her own child’s torment is showing.
But here I sit and I feel like I can’t do nothing for my wife.
Except to talk to her night after night.
Online as we can’t be together.
Since two separate houses with miles apart are keeping her from getting better.
Allot of weight has been put onto my shoulders.
Got a wife with a broken leg, an I’ve been fatherless for almost a year.
The one year anniversary of the crash is coming up, as I can feel a tear.
Wanting to run down my face but I have the notion needing to be strong.
Since there are so many people around me crumbling is what I’m doing wrong.
I never seem to know wrong from right. But 99.9% of my feelings cause me to want to write.

- Kennie Kayoz -

 

New Life

 

 

4E Inc is the site to beat

We won’t settle for defeat

Blood, sweat and tears,

Releasing truth, fantasy and fears

We will be a force to reckon with

And our former lives will be only a myth

Because here lies a new life and new times

A new name and some new rhymes

It’s all the same cause it’s still us

Tryin to break free from all the fuss

You can say we won’t make it

But in your face we will spit

We will rise to the top

And we won’t stop

Cause 4E Inc is the site to beat

And we won’t settle for defeat.

Puttin in our all to this site

So that everything will come out alright

Ain’t nothin gonna slow us down

Not family or this town

Cause we gonna be on top

And there is nothing that will makes us stop.

 

Crystal Kayoz

Gonna Be { Inspired by Fort Minors’ song “Be Somebody” }

 

 

Gonna be somebody that makes it in this life

Gonna be Kennies’ wife

Gonna live life the way it should be

We’re gonna do it, just Shane and me

Gonna find a way to make it right

Gonna turn all the darkness into light

Gonna be someone that you can be proud of

And be like your glove

Always there to keep you safe and warm

Gonna be there for you through every storm

Gonna give all that I can give

So that together happily we’ll live

Gonna be somebody who will stand tall

Gonna be somebody who won’t let you fall

Who will be there every step of the way

And hold you every night and day

Gonna make it, just you and I

Never lookin back and askin why

We’re gonna be strong, gonna succeed

We’re not gonna follow, we’re gonna lead

Crystal Kayoz

 

Deal With It

 

 

All ya do is bitch an crab

Makin my life so drab

Why can’t ya just let me be

I’m not happy here, why can’t ya see

Ya want control of my life

But I refuse to give up my knife

My knife is not real

But it shows how I feel

Like I’m trapped so I won’t give up without a fight

Cause deep down ya know I’m right

Ya make my life hell cause ya won’t let me live

So with my knife, my life I shall give

All ya do is bitch an crab

Makin my life so drab

Why can’t I just be me

Why can’t ya see

That my life is what I want to live

And I’m tired of ya always taking while all I do is give

That’s it,I’m tired of ya shit

I’m done, goodbye, deal with it.

Crystal Kayoz

Escape

 

 

When all is said and done

When there’s no more time for fun

I will find my way

I will seize the day

I will escape this life I hate so much

I will throw down life’s crutch

And there will be no more of me

Nothing left for you to see

You don’t know how I feel

You don’t know the deal

I made so long ago in the dead of night

To give up this brutal fight

To find my escape from you

And all the shit you do

I’m living for me not you

I’m tired of that shit you do

Tired of how you are

Tired of happiness being so far

From reach for me

So this is all you’ll see

When I’m gone

Read my words at dusk or dawn

Don’t matter to me

Cause this is my escape.

Crystal Kayoz

Time Has Come

 

 

Sittin here, nothin to do

Except spend hours, thinkin about you

How did we get here

Why am I now so consumed with fear

What does the future hold

And why do I always feel like I’m being told

What to do and who to love

Putting me below and them above

No more, I won’t have it

If that’s how life is, then I quit

I want my life to be mine

If this is wrong then show me a sign

Nothing comin my way

So today must be the day

That I start over again and live for me

Out in the open for all to see

I want to think about you

I want to be part of all you do

I’m tired of doin what they say

Tired of having to stay

In a world where I don’t belong

Tired of feeling weak when I should be strong

So this is it, there is no more

I found you, you’re the one that I adore

4E Inc is what we created

All this time we have waited

And now our time has come

To fly and show the world what we have become.

Crystal Kayoz

Baby To Be

 

 

I love you, my baby to be

Part of me can’t wait to see

How beautiful you are

Knowing that you’d be the star

Of my life and heart

And that this would just be the start

Of a beautiful life for us

All the feelings I wish I could express

To give you all the love I never had

And same with your dad

We’d love you until the end of time

Love you so much it’d be a crime

I love you, my baby to be

And I know your daddy will agree

You were created with love

You will be sent from heaven above

Something so precious and small

We’ll never let you fall

We love you baby to be

Mommy, Daddy and baby to make three.

Crystal Kayoz

Beautiful One

 

 

Here I am, look at me

What a wonderful sight to see

Precious angel that I am

Take my picture with that cam

How wonderful I will make your life become

No more feeling useless and dumb

I want to make you smile

And feel like all this was worthwhile

I want to laugh with you

To be part of all you do

So please take a picture of me

While I smile with glee

I’m happy cause you love me already

And our relationship is steady

I’m perfect for and to you

But that much you already knew

Look at me, I’m the beautiful one

Together, our life has just begun.

Crystal Kayoz

  • UNTITLED *

 

 

I’m sorry for everything I’ve done

Sorry that I’ve taken away all your fun

Made it so your life has no meaning

So all you do is your cleaning

‘Round the house you putter about

Your mind full of doubt

Thinkin about what could have been

And how you wish for once you could win

About how you could be happy

Instead of living a life that’s crappy

But that’s the life you lead

Everything rushing past you at warp speed

Yet you stay the same

And you’re the only one who’s to blame

You don’t want to change

You just want a different life in exchange

Well, sorry, but it don’t work like that honey

Least not unless you got a shit load of money

Which is something that you lack

So here you sit in your world so black

Feelin sorry for yourself day in and day out

Keeping silent, trying not to shout

So again I say I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done

Sorry for taking away your fun

But I won’t turn out like you

I won’t sit around with nothing to do

I will be happy and live my life the best I can

With the man I love, that’s my plan

So good-bye mother dear

Time to wipe your mind clear

Cause I’m no longer yours to hold

You left me out in the cold

So here I go to my wonderful life

Being happy and being Kennies’ wife.

Crystal Kayoz

 

No End

 

 

Change your life around

Wipe away that frown

Time for you to smile

And do something worthwhile

This is 4E Inc

The place that makes ya think

We post our thoughts for you

In hopes of bein true

To our company name

To make it last forever, that is our aim

Think of us what you will

Read until you’ve had your fill

There will be many books put out

So smile instead of pout

We want to spread the word about our name

In hopes of geeting a little fame

Cause we’re gonna be here ‘till the end

Just wait and see my friend

4E Inc is here to stay

Burning’ some bridges along the way

Thinkin’, rhymin’, sayin’ what’s on the mind

Walk in our shoes and this you’ll find

A life of crap turned into gold

Once love finally took hold

Now there’s no end to what we can do

But watch your back or the next rhyme may be about you!

Crystal Kayoz

 

  • UNTITLED *

 

 

Here I am, waiting to be seen

Lookin back at all the places I’ve been

Thinkin about where home is

And how 2006 was nothin but a fizz

Not much to tell

Wrapped up in 3 words; it was hell

Nothing went my way

Now I’m left with little to say

2 accidents, almost a third

My words never to be heard

By those I want to hear them

I feel like a rose, rather just the prickly stem

Never being seen

Just being stuck in between

The glass neck of your vase

Always being a disgrace

Always being the cause of your pain

Unless your my husband Shane

Then you see me as the beautiful thing I am

Sitting back thinkin ‘damn’

How you got yourself the perfect wife

And how 4E Inc is your life

Somebody to share everything with for all of time

Somebody who shares your interest in rhyme

So I may be sittin here waiting to be seen

And lookin at all the places that I have been

But my 2006 hell is my fuel

To do what I think is cool

To be part of something big

And know that you can’t break me like a twig

Cause I’m strong as can be

And soon enough you will see

Together we are a force to be recconed with

Cause 4E Inc ain’t a myth.

Crystal Kayoz

Insecure

 

 

I hurt and I cry for you

Wanting to be with you

Not knowing what tomorrow will bring

Just wanting to see that ring

To feel secure

To know that it’s for sure

Praying that you’re the one

And my search for love is finally done

I feel inadequate for you

Like everything I do

Is wrong in some way

And this may be my last day

To say that I care

That you’re my teddy bear

So why am I so sad

Why do I feel at me you’re mad

How do I not cry and not hurt

How do I not feel like dirt

How do I truly know that for you I am the one

And that all this time was not just for fun

What is wrong with me

In me, what is it that you see

Do you want to marry me for sure

Why am I so damn insecure?

Crystal Kayoz

Missing You

 

 

Why do I love you so

Why does it always hurt to see you go

Watching it bein to fade away

The happiness I felt today

Inside I die

Saying othewise is a lie

Feeling so very alone

Back to missery as I groan

Please don’t wake me

This is how I choose to be

In bed hiding from it all

‘Cause at least here I can’t fall

Safe with my thoughts of you

Knowing I have nothing else I’d rather do
Than see you in my mind

‘Cause there you’re easy to find

Back to reality I must go

The happiness you see is just for show

‘Cause how can it be true

I’m here instead of with you.

Crystal Kayoz

My Passion { Inspired by NAS’ song “I Can” }

 

I know that if I work hard I’ll be who I want to be

And then it will be up to you to see

That I have changed and I’m a different person than I once was

And 4E Inc will have all the buzz

‘Cause we are holdin on for life

Usin words as our knife

Being who we want to be

I’m livin life for nobody but me

I gotta work hard so I can be where I want in life

Bein happy usin words as my knife

I know I can do this

So don’t sit ‘round and diss

Me ‘cause I’m doin somethin with my life that you ain’t

You just sittin ‘round feelin faint

‘Cause I’m makin your world spin

Wonderin why it’s me and not you who’s gonna win

4E Inc is giving me the chance

To work on my passion, my romance

My words that express it all

Bein a pick me up when I fall

So I know that if I work hard I’ll be who I want to be

And then it will be up to you to see

That my life is gettin good

Perhaps this is somethin that should be understood

I ain’t nothin great

But this is my fate

Writing and lovin what I do

And if you don’t like it, then screw you!

Crystal Kayoz

So Down

 

 

Sittin here all alone

Wishin somebody would call me on the phone

‘Cause we had a little tiff

Now I sit and wonder what if

Things could have been different had I kept silent

But now I feel as though things have turned violent

Not with actions but with spoken word

And I feel as though I have not been heard

Never felt so all alone

So uncertain of the future and all that is known

Never felt so unloved

Never felt like I’ve been shoved

By merely words spoken

To be left feeling so utterly broken

To feel so down

To not know how to smile, only frown

I wish I knew what to do to change the past

To make my happiness last

And not disappear

And leave me so full of fear

How do I get you to see

Exactly what it’s like to be me

Right now when I’m feelin so down

To turn this around and turn my frown upside down

I want to spend forever with you by my side

To know that in you I confide

That goes both ways you know

I’m not sayin that just for show

You can lean on me as I lean on you

So that together we can make it through.

Crystal Kayoz

Flowers Of Blue

 

 

You tell me you have something for me

But I have to wait and see

Sitting there I wonder what it could be

What could you possibly have planned for me

You say you need to make a quick stop

As there’s something you need to shop

For that will make me cry

You’re right, not a word of a lie

I was crying inside

But on the outside tears I did hide

To my surprise, flowers of blue

I sat and wondered, could this be true

Could he really be this weet

My insides so full of heat

Passion for this man beside me

Who is my prince, here to set me free

These flowers of blue so full of life

Making me want to be his wife

‘Cause you make everything right

Even though I momentarily lost sight

Of that a few nights ago

But you’re my life, my beau

My world and my all

I know if ever I should fall

That I can fin comfort in your embrace
And find your love staring me in the face
Thank you for everything, for my flowers of blue

But most of all, thank you for just being you.

Crystal Kayoz


The Beginning

  • ISBN: 9781370886210
  • Author: Coyotes Publishing
  • Published: 2017-02-01 19:05:12
  • Words: 5974
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