Life Is Fair
Chapter one. General Thoughts
Core of bravery
From a wish to a reality
Change your professor
Who I am
The Homeless Theory
The powerful love
What do you believe in?
A soul tale.
What is your different language?
The poor business
Where is the promise
Chapter two. Gorgeous Robots
p((. It’s hard
Death is not that bad
What men can do
Different imaginations, different directions
Batty: Love is magic
Flower, a colorful one
No one is normal
My so far image
Where’s the stage?
Batty: Still don’t know :(
Victory of evil
Chapter three. Chapter Three
p((. Death is not that bad
Batty: The last message
I like to write, every time I feel just writing, nothing else. I got the feeling that I should write. Write, write, write, write, that what goes in my mind when I don’t have anything to do. I will make this book only about what I write, whatever I want to write, I will post it here in this file. I write poetry sometimes, I used to hate it, but I don’t know why now I like it. Anyway, I really don’t want to make this book look like a diary. So I’m just going to write anything helpful.
I was born in Yemen, but I live in Saudi Arabia since I was a baby. You can call me an Arab if you want. I’ve always been good in English, however, I took English courses in Malaysia. So be easy on me, I’m not an expert in English writing, however, I also attended to the Canadian International Matriculation Program there in Malaysia, but I dropped it. Now, I’m in Jordan and my major is marketing.
However, people think I love my self, but I swear to God I’m the one who hate me the most. At the same time, people always say ‘’why? Your handsome, tall, smart…” but all this doesn’t mean anything to me, seriously. I care the most about the thing that make me special, not special from any one, just special, something I could share it with people, because this is what mostly I care about, sharing
I care about the world, but the world doesn’t care about me. They don’t understand me, every time I try to express that, they tell me to get a life. Should I be sorry for them, or feel sorry for myself? But I will still be sweet to them, because this is me.
Passion, caring, adoring, sex, satisfaction or we can just say love. What is love? Is there a specific definition for love? I believe not, love is something no one can explain. In fact, love is indefinable, because we all have our own definition for love, and we can’t judge the meaning that others give to the word love. I consider love as a waste of time. It’s hard to find and hard to hold. Am sure when I reach the age of 30, I’ll know exactly what love means and what it takes to deserve it. But right now, am too young to fall in love. Its freedom, how can I fall in love if I still feel that I am not free yet, love also means responsibility. I can only imagine what love is, as I haven’t been in love. Am talking about love between a man and a woman, not other kind of love. Everyone has experienced some kind of love, best friend, parents, children, people or a country. I want to be sure of my love for a woman. I want to love my neighbors before her, my brother’s wife or my sister’s husband before her, or even my cat before her. Only then, I can be ready for her. Although, I like having a girlfriend, but I prefer to be alone or with my friends than being on a date with a beautiful girl. It doesn’t mean I would always feel this way; it just means that I don’t think that I’m ready for love. I’m having a good time with her and I don’t want her to be away from me. I love her smile, her hair and her lips. Am I in love with her?
When I was young, I had many goals, many goals that I start to think I’m aimless, because I didn’t have a particular goal to focus on and direct myself into. Funny, it was too late then, I found out that I’m 18 years old, and I have 6 months break before I go to college, my father told me to choose whatever I want, it has been my choice, he said.
When I was a kid, I wanted to be successful, entrepreneur, singer, a movie director and an inventor. So, what can I choose? I’ve never invented anything, my father isn’t rich, I can’t own a company. But I had one short movie by me but my family will never be happy about me being a movie director, I know them right, and I used to sing, in fact I had one album, but It was simple, I uploaded it up on the net but never had many listeners. I’m in the middle between all this and I have no idea what ahead of me and what the future would turn to be. If you were me, what would you do? I just had chosen to study business because I know how to lead things very well, and unfortunately business is the closest one to that. But, I spent one-year foundation in business at college, and I’ve never made it, I failed in all subjects, I wasn’t excited at all, although I was one of the good students in high school. Then, I knew that the only way to fix this, it’s to reconsider again, and give myself a break to clearly think again. I had to sit down with myself and tell what’s best for me, I wasn’t mad or desperate, I was very cooled, maybe I’ve wasted one year but I still have had the rest of my life.
However, one day, I found out that I can be whatever I want, if the institutions of the world couldn’t give me what I really wanted to be, then screw them. They don’t own me, they are not the only people I can rely on, I am a complete free person, I can live without them; I’m a strong man. Plus, I don’t have a wife or kids to worry about, just have to worry about myself, come on, I can’t even be responsible of myself? Anyway, everyone has something special about him, something he really good at. My advice, be whatever you want, you have a complete freedom of what you want, you just need to have a serious dream, and a serious well. When there is a well there is always a way, this is a low of life, not some luck, it’s a low of life. In another word, you decide your future, be optimistic in good things, the good things will come to you, and who said life is not fair? I disagree with him.
I admire the people who are brave, men or women, brave people has something unique about them, they are smart, have an appealing characteristic and most importantly they have something they stand for, which worth fighting and dying for. Unlike people who are controlled by fear and they’re empty from inside, they have nothing they stand for.
To be a complete person, a complete human, you have to have something to stand for and ready to die for it. If you continue live in fear, you will never reach your goals. All the successful people no matter what they stand for, eventually they got what they wanted. Take Israel for example, they believe in things no one else does, but look what they have done so far to reach their beliefs. All what matters for each person is to have a belief to stand for, and that what makes you a strong person through a strong faith. Only then, you can be fearless, smart, sharp and so brave. You will feel it from inside, you will feel so good that you will never go back to what you were before, no matter what happened to you after, because then you will know the truth, the only truth that our natures and souls are always agree with.
When you see brave people, you would want to be like them, intelligent and noticed among others, like me, I used to be a big fan of the joker in the Hollywood’s movie’ ‘the dark knight: Batman’‘, it was one of my favorite movies and still. Especially, the joker, he was so genius that made all the city became under his command and he wasn’t even a man with an authority, he was just a lonely person guy who though he discovered the truth and decided to face it, even if what he stand for was wrong and evil, but he made it ‘till the end. Maybe he dyed physically but he will still alive in our memories, and that’s what matter, and this is just a twisted example of many real brave heroes; men or woman who changed people’s life and still alive in their memories. Take a spot on the planet because there are many evil people who believe in things that against your beliefs, we are all responsible.
Family and dream are different words but have the same meaning. Family is a system, dream as well. I dream to leave my finger print on a rock, not on a sand, because the sand remove everything when the winds come. Unlike the rock. So people won’t forget. I don’t want to live and die and I didn’t do anything special. Special is unique, not something you can touch. As I said, dream is a system, how responsible can I be, how I can plan to achieve it or how to find the keys when I already found the doors. Family is exactly the same. It’s a plan and lasting affected strategy. Let me write about my family.
My father, how to start! He’s a great man. Good hearted person, he’s serious but I always see how pure he is. He just trying to teach us a lesson, nothing else. He knows one day we will be in our own. He cares too much, so as a man, I agree on being strict sometimes. He has a dream, I don’t know if he accomplished it, he has all what he wanted. But maybe that dream it’s so big, my dream it’s to accomplish it for him. Because we share the same dream. Me and him, like friends. We listen to each other, we discuss about many things. He’s an open minded. He works hard for us, my first man ever.
My mother, oh my mother. They say heaven is under mothers foots. That’s true. She’s holy to me, I can’t imagine my life without her. How can I? She took care of me. She prays for me, do the impossible for me, even fight for me. It’s too hard to put her in a second place, she has always been and always will be considered as the first person in each part of my body. She deserves my everything. Yeah, sometimes she’s in my nerve, but when she’s mad at me is because I did badly. I believe in her, mothers are always right. They are like stars. My mom is my shining star.
My brothers. Headache, problems and always ruin things for me. They snitch, beat and do all bad things to me. Every one of us has deep secretes from the other, if you tell my parents I’ll tell them as well. But all that when were young. Now, we all growing up, understand and help each other. My elder brother is my other hand and we share the same room. My elder sister is my respect and we have many commons. My younger sister is my sweet and we listen to each other. And I in the middle, asking myself, do they love me more than I do?
So I live in a dream. A plan that my parents worked hard for. I’m dreaming while am inside a dream. It’s a good thing to have a family one day, a beautiful wife and lovely children. However, family is an important level of gathering and caring.
Many and many are unhappy, and very less are, while there is a way to make everyone happy. It’s always have been there, but no one can see these days, it’s there, front of us, it’s everywhere. We can see it in the moon at night and we can see it in the sun at day. It’s in our nature, between us, in our foods and drinks, it’s in our hearts, and it’s very close to us.
But we have chosen another way and ignored it, or we don’t remember when we had ignored it, maybe it was a very long time to remember, or maybe we were too young to remember which moment we had decided the other way, the hard way. Since that time, we became unhappy people searching for happiness day after day, we work hard and harder to be so, but we’re still not happy. Having large houses, fancy cars, own many important lands, but we can’t buy happiness. Becoming a famous person, popular in town, promoted in job and becoming more successful in people’s eyes, still, there is something missing. Some people had given up, and denied happiness existence, at least they didn’t commit suicide.
However, happiness is there, we can’t be happy if we don’t know how to love, real love, not Romeo and Juliet, I mean a love between you and your mother, your neighbors, your friend and love with everyone in a good way, we can’t be happy if we don’t stop thinking only for ourselves, that’s selfishness, we’re not alone in this world, we’re all part of this world. You can’t be happy if you don’t know how to smile and say thanks, maybe you prefer to be a proud looking person, it’s impossible to be proud and happy at the same time, it’s impossible. Many people live in a dark side and they don’t realize it, they’ve chosen to be proud than smiley, envious than thankful, greedy than generous, negative than positive and fear than love, those people had tried and gave up, so they have chosen not to be happy, if you think being not thankful has nothing to do with happiness then that’s why you still not happy, and you decide to be happy or not.
But, before all this, you can’t be happy if you don’t know why you are existed in this world, you can’t, your heart asking you all the time but you keep ignoring it, until you decide to close the subject, which is why you feel empty sometimes. How do you think you can be happy if you don’t know the truth of yourself? And the perfect logic of you? If you are reading this now and you are not happy, I tell you, you don’t know the truth, how would you have a faith in anything if you don’t have a foundation of truth, and happiness always comes after faith, build your faith and get ready to be happy. Faith in what? A true faith, faith in yourself, faith that worth fighting and sacrificing for, faith that there is something who love you more than anyone else, faith that you got an incredible ability in this world, faith that there is someone wishes you the best more than you which it for yourself. So it’s your choice, it has have been and it will always be, why wouldn’t you give it a try.
A true wish is always for free, you can't find it in stores or in your bank account, and no one can give it to, maybe life is cruel. If you tell someone to ask whatever he or she wants, and you give three wishes, they would probably want: 1- money, 2- beautiful looking, 3- best wife or husband. Those are not real wishes, there are things that we can touch, a true wish is something we can't touch, but it's something we can feel.
For example, imagine the first day you bought a very nice house, that nice feeling comes only in the first days, but it comes with a true wish every day and forever, make the first day feeling comes to you every day, and it doesn’t stop there, it gets better and better every day with one true wish. Think deeply and you will find what you really want, don’t believe those fairy tales such as Aladdin and wish things that you don’t need, it’s on your true self. If everyone wants the same things, then this means we all are going to have the same exact wishes, imagine we all have huge houses, nice cars and bouts, etc. it will be so boring, and then everyone would want something new and more exciting. In a true wish, it’s very rare to have the same wish with others, because we all going to have our unique demands, we all going to see the true essence of life, and life is fair. Why the so much materialism and we can be very simpler, or more complicated, it depends in what you really want. For instant, someone wants to be, a movie director, a painter, a hero, living in the wild, a knight, going to the moon, heaven, help poor people, a leader, married someone you so in love with, become the best sailor or many other wishes, these are some of the examples but there are so many, I hope you got the idea of a true wish by now.
Life is cruel, we have to accept it, but this is the exciting part, we have to face many obstacles to reach our goals. Like a soccer game, the other team will do whatever it takes to prevent you to make a goal, but you will score the goal if you have the well. Life is exactly the same, life is a game, and only the smart patient one will win, and many people have won.
My true wish was to help people and show them what justice really means, I want to show the world that there is still hope, people have given up on their bosses these days, I wish if I show up to them and give them hope, real hope with a great wining. Now, I am going to face obstructions, and I have no idea what kind of obstructions, I guess this is why they say ‘‘be careful for what you wish for’‘, but this is what I want. Also, a true wish is not just for fun, it’s not going to be only a wish that came true, in fact it’s also going to be a duty. Once you realize that, you will know what you could offer to this world and what kind of responsibilities you are holding to, just like others. Only then, you’d find your destiny, congratulation my friend.
If people have patience today, they would be no problems. In many countries, fear is the ultimate tool to control the people in today’s life, in order to have an absolute control and make decisions that people don’t agree with. For example, they would recommend you not to go out of your home at night because you could be killed by thieves, other than to tell you to catch them instead, thieves are the most scared people, and it’s a shame for us to be scared more than them, that’s one example shows how we’re fearful.
My opinion, the opposite of fear is love, fear is a negative energy and love is positive. They don’t tell you about love and show how love is a good thing, because it could threat them so easily, this is why they ruin anyone’s reputation who spread love among people, such as Martin Luther, or Michael Jackson, by media of course. Love is a powerful tool, but no one knows that because love is so precious and not easy to get, it needs patience. Patience from arrogant people, from the public view of you, from getting physically hurt from others, from stones you receive in your face, from humiliations, even from your own family, because most people are full of fears and they have no idea what love means, so sad. But if you are patient it’s not that bad, when you understand the power of love, you will be patient for it, being patient always lead to good things. I am not in a hurry.
So, patience is the only weapon which can destroy the fear inside us, don’t depend on therapy sessions, life is simple Anyway, you will be having the power of love, forget about money and cars that make you miserable all the time, love can save you, when you see your bills, be patient and optimistic, don’t worry. Also, our rights must be always there, if we can’t fight for them, it means we’re still afraid, and that’s negative, or in another word, fear. Do you see now how love is powerful, how love can wake you up, how love doesn’t lie, how love can make you a strong and a true person?
I used to be afraid from some people living in the same neighborhood I live, I tried all the ways to be not to, I hated it so much and I hated myself because I am just nobody and useless, I wanted to be a brave person who doesn’t even get scared from death. Then one day, I found out that life is not the way I’ve known, life is completely something else. I can’t explain that to you, the only way for you to understand this is when you know the true meaning of love. However, I’ve became a brave man who’s not afraid from death, and death is not that bad.
Today, Patience to me is something I practice it every day, and I enjoy it, because it makes me feel so real. People don’t want to be patient, they just want to live the easy way, but they don’t know they are living the hard way, I live a normal life just like you do and I don’t get paranoid when I am breaking, I am a very patient person and optimistic that everything is going to be alright then, it always works, it never disappointed me once, ever. This is my power, a power that I only control and can’t be stolen. Let’s be together, let’s share this power and use our hearts rather than only our minds.
Someone said’‘ other than money, fame, faith, knowledge, and trust, give me truth’‘ I don’t remember who said it, it doesn’t matter this now, what matter is what he said, and it’s very true. If you don’t know truth, then everything else is going to be meaningless, because truth is the answer of everything. The brain is about questions and answers, but if there’s a question with no an answer yet, the brain will have an error, then, self-issues.
For example, if you have a laptop, and there is a missing file, a window would pop up mentioning an error, and you can’t do anything about it until you get that missing file back. The same thing with the brain of yours, what if you have many questions that have no answers and you still don’t know the truth yet, which is supposedly related with every question your brain asks.
So, what is truth? Truth is simple, anything that your own mind can prove is truth, anything that makes a complete logic within your self is truth, anything you can touch is truth, at the end; truth is a wide matter. You make your own truth but it has to be with a complete logic, prove, and no question without an answer for it. For example, if someone keep dating and dating many women, because he thinks he still couldn’t find the one, and if he found her, they would get divorced after sometime, then he had wasted his all time and got disappointed doesn’t know what’s next. All that because he didn’t know the truth, which is men insanely love women, he has been dating many women and he got used to it, now when he finally got committed with only one, it turned out he’s not satisfied with it, the truth is, if someone wants to marry, he or she should not date anyone, or no one, if you think you find her, the one you which to marry, then ask her out, and when you ask her out, ask her from the front door, this is real, and real always combined with truth, only then your possibility of a successful marriage is so higher, don’t take women as a pleasure tool, they are more than you think. This is one example of a single truth, and this is how a single truth could ruin an entire life, but these days the truth always treaded as a sided and lifted subject, so petty I feel. Why we get afraid from truth? Why we only do what Hollywood does, Hollywood has never shown us the truth, look now, many people are having such a hard time because of Hollywood’s hat.
Walk your own path, your own path of logic and understanding, be a true person, or else you will be full of questions that have no answers, in another word, dumb person, it doesn’t mean if all are doing the same thing then it’s true, it always has been your choice and it will always be. And, truth is not a small matter, it’s a huge matter, without it, life has no meaning, not everything you hear from your parents is true, not anything you read it’s true, not anything your teacher said it’s true. Make your own beliefs, prove it and share it with others. Listen, then if you believe it learn, then if you know it see, then if you love it feel, then touch it.
Hell, you have no idea what hell is like, me either, but I can imagine how harsh it is. I mean, if once someone wash me with a boiling oil in this life, I would wish to die then. So what about hell? No one can runway from it, you can think in anything your mind can imagine of the torturing ways in hell, I think you already have. Of course, people are denying it, or they believe in it but they are not really afraid from or somehow ignoring the fact of it, and that simply means that they don’t believe in it. It’s real to me, it’s there waiting to swallow us, most humans since Adam was created are going to hell, let’s face it, very few who are working for heaven.
However, no one can ever describe heaven, it’s beyond our imaginations, because it’s beautiful and… I really don’t have words which can describe heaven, God told us that no one can even imagine the smallest thing in heaven, and this’s good news. People are talking about hill like it’s a funny subject to talk about, in movies, songs and comedy shows, they only mention it as a funny matter. Like, ‘‘go to hell your dumb, burn in hell, see you in hell’‘ or a TV show called’‘ hell’s kitchen’‘, as if, you can imagine hell is in that five stars’ kitchen. This affects us so much, we grow up with this kind of images and we don’t realize how it influence us.
Now, hell to us is something we just know how to spill, but we don’t know what it is, if we do, trust me, the world would be a batter place. But we don’t need to focus on the subject of hell, we don’t need to be so scared from it, because there is another option we can always talk about and never get bored from, which is heaven. It’s a place with good people only, they’re who deserve it; it’s so amazing and so great. Heaven has wine but not like the wine in this life, it has fruits but not like the fruits here, it has rivers of drinks, it has huge trees that cover all heaven, it has shopping malls but not like the malls here, it also has marijuana but not like the marijuana over here, it is heaven man! It has everything and everything you’d want but way better and better than this short life has.
Do you really think you were born to die after some years, do you really think there is nothing after this? This life is made for you just to believe there is another life, the true and the immortal life, this life is to work for heaven not life, it’s our rights to live forever. If you don’t want to believe in heaven and hell, then it’s up to you, but I am asking you to rethink again my friend, be smart and gain heaven. You can go to heaven or hell, no need to tell you how, it always has been your choice and it will always be, and the universe is so fair.
To be fully enjoying this life, country side is a matter you shouldn’t underestimate or be critical about. This life is full of different people, we can’t expect that we all the same, there are many various cultures out there, and it’s so nice to communicate with them and experience their lives. Many people have some views that they can’t even tell you why exactly, they just hate the country side because somehow they think they’re missing the good part of life, I don’t actually see what good part they’re missing, never simply say things that you have no idea about, and don’t say you saw it on TV, I hate this excuse.
However, we were born in different shapes, skin colors and different attitudes, because this is life, like marriage is part of life. It doesn’t mean there is something different, we all the same guys, their blood is not green, they are not Aliens or something, they are human just like you and me. Some see black people as gangster, blond woman as prostitutes, Latin as thieves, Asian as PC freaks and Arab as terrorists. Where did you came with this ideas? Who taught you to think like this? All what I can say, get a real life my friend, travel the world and see by yourself. Who knows, maybe you’re not coming back, like many others have. Many people share their opinions about something that they haven’t experienced it yet, if you want to say your opinion about something, be certain about it, or stay calm. Maybe you hate me, but I sure you when you see me you would love me, I am not trying to be so full of myself and I am not a country man, but I always come with a good intent and a big smile, I’ve never hated someone, I never fear someone, I only judge when I see the of someone’s work. Michael Jackson for example, all what he had done was for the people, he wanted to heal the world through his songs, not like most artists today, he donated most his money for poor children, he wanted to spread love because he knew we are controlled by fear, shame on you the public who turned against him, how could you possibly ever believed that he had abused a child, judge by the results, he loved his fans and he wanted to share his unique talents with them, I am his biggest fan, and by the way, the boy who accused Michael has admitted that he never been abused from him.
So, we misunderstand people, everything we see, everything we know is the opposite of reality, sometimes I think the world has become upside down in the last century. The world is beautiful, let’s be united, one hand, our shoulders are connecting to one another, this is how it should be. It’s Okay, you can dislike a black person if you see him not a good person, you can dislike an Arab if you see him disrespecting, you can dislike a white person if you see him robbing, you can dislike an Asian if you see him not thankful, you can dislike anyone, but as a person. At the same time, you can fully trust anyone, no matter where he’s from, and that’s where fun comes from.
I remember once, a wise man said’‘ there are three certain things in life: birth, death and change’‘. I am still trying to find other things but I couldn’t. What is life? I’m young to answer this, but I’m sure everyone is destined for something. It’s impossible if we think everything is going on simply randomly, or because it’s just a matter of coincidences. There must be something that organizes us, whether it’s God, code or whatever. Think about it, how many time you thought about it, even if you totally aren’t a believer. Of course, who cares? I don’t care actually but I consider it at least. Sometimes, we have to know what we should care and what we shouldn’t, life is not for fun, it’s more than you imagine. In this life, we have to know that there are angels, demons (devils), good jinn and us (humans) yeah, simple it is. If we don’t believe in those things, everything is going to be anonymous and confusing to us, like today’s life. If someone doesn’t believe in angels or devils, he will never get better even with Dr. Phil. Why people always see things more complicated, psychological issues to me are spiritual issues, those people who go to therapies once or twice a week are spiritually broken. Humans are meant to worship something, many worship science, or money, or sun, or anything, it is dangerous for our health if we don’t worship. Moreover, people who worship demons are much stable than the people who doesn’t worship anything, why do you think the ancient times were worshiping weird Gods, such as, trees and animals. Do you understand why sometimes there is something missing, even if you have everything in the world? However, be a wise person and stop thinking everything can be computerized. At least, worship a stone, use your worshiping tool or else you will be a close friend with your therapy doctors, it’s your choice.
You can always change; it is not hard at all; it is like you shifting to another house. Change from careless to caring, from disbeliever to believer, from sadness to happiness, from loneliness to social, from rudeness to thankful, don’t be afraid from change, it’s good mostly. Even if you have reached the highest levels of knowledge, it doesn’t mean you’re smarter than me, maybe you’re good in math, but if I ask you the easiest question about history, you wouldn’t answer me, in what exactly you’re smarter than me, or anyone, we all good in different objects, and that’s a life balance. So, there is nothing such as smarter, we all smarts, but in different directions, choose the right direction for you and don’t be afraid. I understand, sometimes you just want to satisfy your parents or the society you in, don’t worry, you can always find a way to do your own lovely skills behind them, it’s not a bad thing to do it, at the end you’re going to be an independent person, ‘till then, make things become easier for you. Remember, professors are rarely smarter than their students.
No worries, everything is going to be alright, if you want to be sad every day, then when are you going to be happy? You’re gorgeous just the way you are, you’re not nobody. Many live in this life thinking they are not worth a single thing on this planet, why exactly? Because you don’t have nice cars like your friends, you’re not beautiful, you’re fat, not good in class, don’t have a nice job, or you have everything but you still feel nobody. No my friend, thinking like this way is wrong and never helps, you must know who you really are, what you are as a person among your surroundings and how could you be useful.
So first step to be somebody, you have to stop believing anything that the TV tells you, this is to keep you save. Second step, know your skills and what you want, and don’t tell me you want to be like Kayne west, rich and famous, but rather, I want to believe in myself like he did. Third step, be brave to defend your values in the society, if people doesn’t accept you as the way you are, then be confident and face them, people always can be wrong, but don’t hate them back, hate only the things they do to you, it’s important to be always in love. Fourth step, when you become a complete person, spread your experience and knowledge to others who might have the same issues you had, people like stories. Final step, change the world.
After, I don’t need to tell you what to do, you already a complete strong person, but one more thing, keep the faith. Only then, you’ll discover the little beautiful things that you’ve missed, it’s like you woke up from a long bad sleep. But, it’s always been your choice, if you think it’s hard to do or impossible, you would fall into the wrong path again. Fight, for your beliefs and rights, fight, to rise the truth and destroy the lies you were in before, and don’t make death become your fear in this life, you simply can’t run away from death, because it has been ahead of you since the day you were born.
What a beautiful word it is, honesty, if there is a flower named after it, or a girl named after honesty, I would marry her, because she would always remind me of the word honesty every day. I used to lie a lot, I mean, sometimes you want from others to see you in the way you want, but I found out it’s impossible, I couldn’t, eventually they decide who I am, I can’t change it by anyhow, cause it’s out of my control. So, why bother, just be honest with people when they ask you a question you don’t like, you can always tell them in a way that doesn’t hurt you or them, and truthful at the same time, a lie is such a bad habit to do, even if you do it once or twice.
For instant, someone asked you if you do have a car license or not, you don’t have so you would answer him ‘‘actually I am thinking to get it someday soon’‘ which is true, I don’t have a car licenses but I always think when I would get it soon, even if I didn’t get it soon, I would still think of getting it sooner enough. Or, you don’t have to say it the same way that asker want you to, you just give him a small answer to close the subject, or go around the subject until he or she would understand that you don’t want to answer, and people always respect that.
Simple, I don’t know why some people today don’t know how to do it, especially men, women mostly know this kind of conversation, and they’re professionals. It’s good to be with woman sometimes, so you can learn from them how to talk with others, most man don’t know how to talk and they get someone hurt without realizing it, and I encourage marriage.
After all, being honest is like letting out, we all know how lying at people never makes us feel better and never make the problem become better, so imagine what honesty could make you feel, it feels simply amazing, people would like you for the person you are, not the person you made up, learn how to be honest and how to hate lying. Moreover, it removes the fear inside you, because lying makes us feel worried all the time, but honesty make us love to face problem, I never lied, so why would I be worried? The person who lies a lot is not a good company to be with, he or she could be against you anytime. The ones who usually lie, will never stay beside you in your worst times, but you can advise them not to lie, but if he or she still lying, why exactly you’re wasting your time with him or her?
I love history, where all the good stories and lessons come from, when I hear something about history, I get so excited; it’s a very useful way to learn from the mistakes that our people before us had done. Don’t underestimate the nations before us, they weren’t ignorant and stupid, maybe they didn’t have technology, but they were more aware than us today.
There was no materialistic media to wash their brains, jobs weren’t the main way to gain money, everyone can have his own way to feed himself and his family, they were truly free men, woman were more respected than today, the only commitment was to protect the city, or village; life before was much better than today’s life.
Today, there is technology but no values, there are jobs but half of our income goes to the government. Even the water, we have to go to the market to buy water. Woman are becoming a toy to men, I am a man and I know how men see women these days. We’re living the most developed age in the most ignorant society at the same time, there is something wrong. However, history shows what men and woman should become, of course there are some bad stories show how history was cruel, but it’s like today, where much violence happens. Anyway, it’s not a matter, what matter is how they were living, how they were thinking, what they stand for, what they fought for, what kind of values they had, this is what matters. I would never know the real meaning of freedom if I haven’t read about history, it taught me how to be brave, truthful, helpful, honest, smiley, fearless, careful, generous, loved, predictor and how to understand others.
So, reading is the best way to gain power, the power of knowledge is the mother of powers. Read about anything, not only about history, give half of your reading to your interests and the other half for your general knowledge, it’s entertaining. I don’t consider myself to be a committed reader but I read about whatever interests me. It is really fun, in fact, it is more enjoyable than watching a movie, sometimes. Reading is cool.
I am a vampire, I hate humans but I love their bloods, I am immortal and a very close friend to Satan, I am a devil somehow, my food is only humans blood, there is no such as a good vampire, we all evil, we fight well. This is their nature, why we see them in a good way? I am not trying to be a one sided person, but I don’t get it. We fall in love with them, we become friends with them; we even have sex with them. Alright, maybe there is something wrong, or there is a good vampire, maybe a vegetarian one? We also sacrifice for them, we wish to become like them, vampires. It’s so annoying, why wouldn’t they want to be like us, human beings. Anyway, vampires are cool, they’re usually handsome, and they’re immortal creatures.
Don’t act like you know them, because you don’t, they’re simply demons. Try to stop thinking they’re good sometimes. What if I ask you to come with me to a dangerous neighborhood at night, and you know there is some good people living there that won’t harm you, would you risk and come with me? The neighborhood is nothing compared to their world. I am not saying there are vampires living with us, but there are means and symbols, and they symbolize the darkness, am I right? Nothing is a joke, everything reflects everything in this world, aren’t they symbolizing demons? They’re almost the same and I don’t think it’s a good way to teach our kids to be humble with them.
You must believe there are demons who devote their times to destroy us emotionally and eventually to hill, life is more than you imagine my friend, it’s not only you who live on this planet, I guess you already know this. So, we should be together or we all going to lose, don’t full yourself that you’re going to make it among all of us, share your talents with others, give your best for others, beginning with your family. Anyhow, people are getting fooled by the vampires, that they are romantic and sexy, get real and have a better imagination of life, a wonderful one. Trust me, life is more fantastical than Hollywood’s movies, the only way to get that life is to leave every useless thing you hold onto and start to have a faith in yourself, stop loving your car so much, stop being a slave to money, if you still want to hang on with these kind of things, you will stay behind. Let’s teach our kids the best.
Life is about options and choices, you’re simply the architect of your own life, but at the same time so weak you are, higher people can scare you and control you, so we do according to their decisions. It’s normal, there must be a government who make decisions and a public to follow, as long as it’s fair for everyone and the public agree with it, it’s okay. At the same time, anyone has an absolute freedom as long as he or she didn’t across the line, you can choose to be whatever you want, if you feel for one second that your rights are been taken without you notice, stand up, it’s your right to do that anyway. What I am trying to reach is, you have many doors to go in, but don’t choose one door for yourself, this could cover the truth from your eyes, you have to go inside many doors, and leave many others. The new generation we see is one door generation, which is the party, fame, video games and the latest fashion, this is only what they know, if you ask them the simplest questions on earth, they would be like ‘‘aaaah!’‘, we have to see other doors and be curious of what inside them, life becomes very boring when we stick with one door only, be a various person, be unique, the door that you don’t like, close it, there are many other wonderful doors, it’s like leaving the darkness and having only light. Also, knowledge is power, how could you beat someone if you don’t have enough knowledge about anything, it’s not hard, you don’t have to do memorizing all day to gain knowledge, you just read about what you’re interested in, and general knowledge which don’t need books, such as newspaper, magazine, some documentary movies, and all this your mind will automatically memorize it, it’s like a movie you loved so much that you will never forget the ending. Moreover, door is not only getting knowledge, but also more values, and morals, which is more important than everything. Doors are options, options are choices, choices are many, many can be bad or good, you choose, between fear or love, generosity or over caring, bravery or scarcity, justice or injustice, it has been your choice, all what you have to do is to find the keys for these doors, and life will eventually become between your hands, not anymore at your heart.
One time, a very smart friend told me that there is no such as enemies in our world, we all one, we don’t have to be against each other, we don’t have the right to judge people by making them our enemy, is that right? I told him one sentence’‘ a successful man can’t be successful if he doesn’t have enemies’‘, enemy prove your side, an enemy makes you have the honor; an enemy can be the reason why you were born; an enemy is a way to wake you up. If there are no enemies, how all this massive of disasters against humanity is happening in our world, war is everywhere, children are dying, many women were raped, how come no such as enemies in our world?
If they see us as their enemy, we shall see them as our enemy as well. Your naughty neighbor is not your enemy, your bad brother is not your enemy, your ex-wife is not your enemy, and these are too little for a big word like enemy. Enemy can be your family murderer, your society destroyer, your civilization breaker, and of course the devil. Only then, you can have an enemy, if you’re living in justice and fairness, thank God for that, no need to create an enemy for you. In the other hand, the world has had enough from the wickedness and wickedness and wickedness, it’s burning me inside when I see children getting killed and I can’t do anything about it, it’s making me feel so sad when people are ignoring it, like it’s not their business or maybe they’re busy trying to stay in their offices as long as they can get by anyhow.
My enemy is who spread wickedness, my enemy is who always take and never give, my enemy is who steal our rights, my enemy is who love to see us fighting rather than uniting. No way, if there is a reason why I was born, I would devote it into bringing justice, for everyone. I live in a secured country, but the people are so lost, they are running after the luxury life, so they’re blind don’t know what is happening around them, even if they know, they are full of silly excuses. I can just continue my life and act like one of them, as if, nothing is happening, I have all what they have, I can simply be like them, but this is not me, this is not real, it is only fake, it is only fear, it’s so selfish I see, it’s so shameful I believe. I lived like that before, and I got nothing, no ambition and no purpose at all.
Now, I am following my dream, I am walking on it, I’ve never felt this way before, I’ve never felt as much as happy in my whole life, it’s really sad when I see the most are missing it. I gained love, I gained happiness, I gained trust, I gained true fans, I gained admires from many, I gained the best things in life, that can’t be touched and can’t be found in stores. But don’t worry, in this book, you will find truth and happiness, and I promise, if you’ll keep your mind and heart open.
Hope, what is hope exactly? Hope is really hard to gain, it’s a weapon, it’s positive, it can’t be negative, it comes after faith, and it can’t be with fear and hate, who ever have hope, he’s happy, but a real hope that is. I hope in this page, you will understand the real meaning of the word hope and then spread it to whom are hopeless. There are three levels of hopes.
First level, the lower hope, which is very simple and it doesn’t affect your regular life so much. For example, you’ve been working in a company for many years hoping that you will be the CEO one day, but it doesn’t affect your work, if someone else who has no experience like you have become a CEO, you will forget about it in days and continue your work but still hoping, at least. This kind of hope is unnoticeable, you can’t see it in others, and they would have this hope but never mention it clearly. Most people have this kind of hope, but they fall very quickly, then they become hopeless, and it’s very dangerous to be hopeless, it breaks us down to pieces.
Second one, the middle hope, which requires confidence and a little work from you heart to reach your goal. It’s noticeable, you can see it mostly in others, who work a lot to reach their goals, and no matter how badly it turned out for them eventually, they would study the mistakes they have done, then they will try again with a different way and different rules. It’s smart, because who failed and try again with the same way is naive. You’d never fail if you did it right, you only fail if there is something missing, and failing is a regular thing to happen, without failing we can’t be able to learn. If you draw your way very clearly without no mistakes, you would definitely reach your goal, no matter how huge it is, be smart and do it step by step.
Last one, the high hope, very few who have this kind of hope, you need to be very brave to have this hope. It’s hard to teach people to gain this hope, it usually comes by birth. But you can have this hope, as I said, it has been your choice and it will remain like that. This hope is for the ones who are ready to die for it, it’s a very giant hope. For example, someone have a hope about changing the world, he or she want to be the richest person on earth so he or she can change the world and be part of change, and money can do anything these days. Naturally, when you hear that from someone who is very poor, you wouldn’t believe him and then, start to ignore him, it’s impossible you would say. Whoever have this kind of hope and certainly believes in it, keep doing it and never care about what people say, I know you’re already don’t;).
Whatever kind you have, you must keep believing, what is life to you if you don’t have a hope and a belief? You can’t be living fully unless if you use your heart and your mind. At the same time, you can have a bad hope that might harm others, you can be selfish with your hope, but that’s not a real hope, that’s insisting to, even a dog can have its’ meal if it keeps on insisting. However, I hope after this, you would re-strengthen your real hope and start to draw a better life for you and for the planet.
I am a normal person, who care about others, I am full of love, who love others more than himself, I give my all, to whom in need, I can’t sleep, unless if I made someone smile, and I don’t fear anyone in this world. I am every tear he is, I am every tear she is, I risk for all, I risk for heaven, I don’t care about money, more than I care about a hungry dear, I am truth, I am free, not a slave to a proud person, but I am not totally free, a slave to poor people I am. I don’t give up, a strong faith I got, I don’t fight, a kind personality I got, so merciful with everyone, so harsh with enemies, so optimistic in the middle of disasters. I am so brave, and we all heroes, I am so intelligent, and we all smarts. I love peace and harmony, I seek to give, I hurry to help, I share my talents to please, I feel sorry for who suffered, I wait to believe more, exciting for more, appreciate who say thanks. You are my power, you are my strength, you are my inspiration, and you are my weakness. Without you, my gift worth nothing.
Give me your hand, teach me your moves, tell me your stories, make me laugh, play with me, win at me, show me your care, don’t let me go. I cry when I see you cry, I smile when I see you smiling, I give more when I see you give, I promise you back when you promise me, I hate your enemies if you hate them, I love your friends if you love them, I trust you when I see you trusting me.
Don’t fear, because I hate scared people, don’t be harmful, because I harm who harms others, don’t be shy, don’t be sad, because it is not worth it, don’t steal, I’d whip your hands if I catch you again. Don’t let your faith go, get up and stand up, don’t underestimate, we all human, don’t beat, not only you who have feelings.
This is representing me, this is show you me, it summarizes me, it’s giving you me, I hope you found me here, I hope by now we will start the journey from here. My friend, the truth is really nice, my friend, ignoring is so cold like ice. My advice, get a real ambition, work for your dream; get a real mission.
Let me tell you a secret, it shouldn’t be a secret, but maybe because it’s too valuable for those who don’t deserve it, it’s about this nature that we breath and eat from. This nature is so fair, even with Satan himself. If you do believe in luck, I recommend you to change that into nature’s order, if you do good, you will receive better, if you do bad you will receive the worst, and life is simple. It’s a fact, I don’t know how come many don’t know about this little secret, it’s so obvious, if you think you got a bad luck, think about how you treat others. Do you smile often, do you care, have you ignored someone who in need, do you simply care about others. And I am not talking about humans only, but even animals, trees, and food, you have to know how to deal with everything in your life. This life is not for shopping or for attending concerts. Anyway it’s your choice if you still want to be careless about it, but if you want the nature to love you, love nature back. Treat nature as your wife, or husband, and trust me, you will know what I am talking about, use your heart rather than only your dirty mind. Anyhow, seek to give, and you will receive, seek to care for someone, and someone will care about you more than you do, seek to smile, and everyone will smile at you every day, be thankful and the good things will come to you running, this is not an opinion, this is Nature’s order, it’s something you can’t break or cross over, it made up to be like this.
When I see poor people in the streets, I feel sorry for them, they can earn money in many different ways, but they’ve chosen to ask money on the streets. Do you know it’s impossible for a person to be homeless? Yeah, you can have finical problems, just like anyone else have, it’s a normal thing to happen, but those homeless people are different, they choose to be homeless, it’s their mistake. So don’t be afraid, you won’t be homeless one day, it’s not going to happen, unless if you made a huge mistake. Such as, stealing people’s rights and money, gambling, getting drunk every day, stop working, then it’s so normal to be homeless eventually. If you’re healthy and capable to work, why would you be homeless? You should remove the idea of being homeless, relax, life is fair. If you’re poor, it doesn’t mean you are in the same level with them, not at all, you still got your health, values, dignity, smile, love and I respect you more than a wealthy powerful man. You don’t have to have a nice car, you only need happiness, you can be happy with your simple bike, or with your poor lovely caring wife. I have no work, no car, no wife, no cash, I am simply living under my father for the moment, it doesn’t mean I am lazy, my parents think so anyway, it just I am a very positive person, they always trying to scare me by the homeless theory, it used to work, but not anymore, I know what I am capable of, and everyone will see. However, in order to remove the homeless theory from your desperate world, you got to be positive and optimistic, trust me, you’ll get the results, just have a little bit of patience my friend. Money doesn’t make people homeless, you make yourself to, and stop making money your first priority, because money get jealous when you put it as a second priority, make money jealous of you, and you would find it growing
on trees on your backyard to impress you and then to put it as a first priority again, but keep making money jealous and never put it as a first priority, then you will see it falling from the sky, because your goals have become bigger than just money, your goals have become more respected. Have a confidence.
Let’s talk about fame, I know that almost everyone who read this right now is desperately want to be famous. Some of you know that he or she is so creative or talented and deserve to be famous. Some others and I believe the most want to be famous because the toys that come with it. The sad thing is, the creative and talented people are not showing to the public. If we turn the TV on, we’d only see a face, we’ve never seen their real images, all what appear from them is a little bit of sugar talks and the rest is all make up and nice clothing, where is the most important thing, the heart? If someone doesn’t know the love of others, then he or she absolutely doesn’t deserve to be shown to the public, because they don’t know how to send the right message, or they don’t care, why would they if they only care about themselves, being a famous is all about sending a message. But look now, what kind of messages do you hear all the time, sex, money, party, many girls and love which refers to sex nowadays, when I hear this kind of songs, I immediately figure out the singer’s personality, which is careless about us, so why they’ve become famous and loved by the public, it’s so strange. There are many and many excellent talented people who know how to send the right message, and they don’t care about fame, because they know that fame is looking for them, not the opposite. But unfortunately, their reputations and images become corrupted all over the media, or charged by unmerciful chargers, Michael Jackson is a perfect example. If you look at it from another corner, you will find the really bad corrupted famous are getting nice meals from the media, and whatever they do, the media would cover their shameful stories and continue showing them in a very good image to the public, it’s unbelievable. But if you’re smart enough you will know which famous is bad and which one is not, it’s by the message they send. If you see them sending a bad message then they are so corrupted in heart in a way you can’t imagine, and if you see them sending a good message regardless their way of doing that, then they are good even in their practical normal days. Remember, let fame finds you, not you seeking for it. Being famous is a huge responsibility, it’s not about money and more parties. Well, at least to me.
Oh, only God knows how I adore children. They are the new generation my friends, they are a gift that can’t be ruined or be harmfully touched, we should respect them more than our bosses. Because they are going to continue what we were building and working for our entire lives. Besides that, they’re so innocence and so sweet, why would you despise them, don’t do that, please. No one can be caring and an aware person if he or she doesn’t value children, we only should value them by love and smile, they already adorable, it’s in your nature to adore them, but your dirty mind tells you not to, they’re lovely dude.
I feel human when I have a conversation with innocent children, let me tell you something, who’s going to talk about you if you don’t have a child, be a man, and don’t be so selfish. Woman, you already love children I know, and no one can beat you with that, but I don’t know, there are many women around the world today who dislike children, why? Is it because the birthing process? Maybe it hurts, but as soon as you hold your baby between your arms, immediately, you will find out that you can’t love anything else more than your just born child. Don’t focus in the exhausting job, look at the bride side. Why am I talking about this subject anyway? This world is becoming worse every day; I am afraid one day I would have to talk about not killing babies or something.
However, today aborting is becoming legal in many regions, do you know you’re committing a crime by doing this, because those babies are alive just like you are, their hearts are beating and they have feelings just like you and I have, the only difference between a recent born baby and a baby inside a whom is hours, there are many babies who were born sooner than they should be. So, how could your heart allow you to do that, I am not talking about women only, also men, especially men, you should be happy when you know that you’re going to have a child very soon, forget about the bills man, be optimistic. Also, woman get too weak when there is no one supporting them, act like a man for once and show how responsible you can be, be a man and don’t make a child look way much better than you. Raise your children and teach them how to be good people, how to help others and fight for their rights, teach them how to spread love around the world, how to be fearless front the lion and very weak front the poor, how not to repeat the same mistakes that you’ve done, and show them to the world and tell the world proudly ‘‘they are my children’‘.
Being modern is an important matter to consider, having the same way of living that our grandfathers used to live is not going to prove anything, we all should be ahead and modernize because the new stuff never ends. But, what is the true modern way?
What’s wrong and what’s right is usually understandable, such as our values, principles, honor, right and dignities, these shouldn’t be changed, but our ways of dealing, clothing, knowledge, beauty, transportation, institutions, creativity and ways of caring should continuously change to a better and more efficient way. Our traditions are little usually, the more we become very extremist with our traditions, the more our chances to develop is lower, but the more we become very flexible and logical with our traditions, the more our chances to develop is higher. I am not saying we should remove some principles of ours, I am simply saying what’s harm our values and principles is out of discussion. Developing is not something which takes our dignity away, like what’s happening today, but developing is a way of a better understanding, the more we respect, just, give, forgive and know how to deal with matters the more we’re becoming civilized people.
Unfortunately, the modernize we know is how to be good in lying, knowing the latest music and movies, having a beautiful girlfriend, no children forever, wearing suits and tie, spending more money on the latest fashion and technology, and the crazier we are the more civilized we become. What kind of civilization is that? Being modern comes and starts from the heart, not the opposite, which is from the outside into the heart, don’t be an outsider. I used to take things differently before, I memorized all the latest shows and make sure that I update my information about it every day, thinking this is the way to be modernize and racing the time, but I didn’t realize that all this was just an outside appearance, nothing from the ultimate tool, the heart. I’ve became blind from the truth because all what I got myself to see was appearance, and it was boring, I had never had happiness and joy. So I started to use my heart rather than only my mind.
So, when someone asked me for help, I helped him cause my heart said so, when someone treated me will, I smiled at him or her cause my heart said so, when a cat front the door was asking for food, I gave it a little to make it survive cause my heart said so, when I see my mom I kiss her cause that’s what my heart is saying to me. I found a true way to be civilized. Trust me on this because I had experienced your way of being modern and it’s like a dark room, so dark. Being modern is a beautiful thing, but only real modern that is. Be the person that the planet wants you to be, that your heart wants you to be, this world is phenomenal but only when you treat this world the same way you want the world to treat you, and this is modern.
I am not going to talk about a love between you and people, that’s also so important but I am not going talk about it, I will talk about a love between you and yourself, because that’s the first step to gain the most powerful weapon, the power of love. This power is the only way to find truth and happiness, the only way to be so brave and extremely intelligent, the only way to be free. To make it easier for you to understand, this power is a combination of three main things.
One, bravery. You must be not afraid of anything, no matter what, because fear is the opposite of love, which means if you’re afraid, the power of love is far away from you. Teach yourself how to be strong front the toughness, and how to be so weak front the poorness. Also important, you got to be merciful, with anyone, the more merciful you are the more respected you become, love needs respect from you, don’t think using violence is a way to prove your strength, that’s ignorance and reckless. Many people are full of fear and they’re not helping, because fear is hiding their strength, and their best, don’t tell me you have nothing you are good at, everyone has something special about him, you only have to find yours, and that is bravery itself.
Secondly, find your soul. Everyone has a soul inside him/her, it what keeps you breathing, it’s the energy inside you, your body is only a tool for your soul, your body will be dust when you die, but your soul won’t. Many people are soulless, they are alive but they’re not using their souls, somehow they believe in it, but they don’t really know what is it, and that’s the worst thing that could happen to someone, it happens to everyone in today’s life, very few who are using it, very few, very sad. However, I am not asking you to be soft, no, I am asking you to be tough, how can you be tough if you’re not using your soul, how? Those muscular men you see, many of them they only depend on their bodies, they don’t know a thing about their souls, they’re totally soulless people, that’s why you see them trying to show their strength through their bodies, my soul is stronger than their muscular bodies, let them train their bodies, and let me train my soul, or both. Be the real winner.
Last but not least, sacrifice. Maybe it’s hard to believe, but if you have nothing which worth dying for, you’re a minus. You see, the power of love needs you to sacrifice for something, whatever it is, but there must be something you’re latterly ready to die for. Such as, your family, your children, or for justice, truth, honor, your dream or goal, for anything your soul really into it. Trust me, when you’re ready to sacrifice for something, you will find your true essence of this life, why you brought to this world, why you were born in the first place, what is you real duty, and you will find it an incredible amazing discovery, you will never go back to what you were before. Don’t worry, you’re not going to die sooner or something, it’s your fear that illusion you that, so don’t worry my friend. This is the only way to be a complete free independent person, because you have nothing to lose then, you’re ready to sacrifice anyway, so nothing is going to stop you, nothing is going to stand on your way, your way to your goal becomes so clear. This is power, this is love.
If there is a power of love, there is also a rival power, which is the power of evil or hate, so don’t mix up things and be hateful by mistake. Be respectful, helpful, generous, caring, forgiving, kind, soulful and good hearted person, that’s showing me and others that you’re a peaceful nice person, and everyone like that, unlike evil. So, start working for it. Dude, you have absolutely no idea about the powerful love, you gonna be crazy about it.
Your life is based on what you believe in, if you believe in Aliens, then there would be Aliens in your life, if you believe that there is no God, so there is no God in your life, if you believe in your loneliness, you will be alone, anything you believe in, will turn to a reality eventually, regardless to what other people believe in, so what are your beliefs pal?
Be careful of your beliefs. You see, we all live our own worlds, you have your own world, I have mine, even if we live and eat together, we’re not living in the same world actually, we’re individually living in our own worlds, our own imaginations, and we all got different imaginations; for instant, my brother is the opposite of me, he take things more seriously, I prefer to take things easily, that’s me, and that’s him, different beliefs, different realities and different worlds, this is only a small example, it could be between two huge different worlds, sometimes it could be a matter of life and death, that’s why I said be careful about your beliefs. It’s so dangerous to believe anything you hear or see.
First, use your mind, if it’s not logical inside your brain, then ignore it, I am not saying don’t believe it, just ignore it, until you would decide whether you want to believe it or not, after a long time of real and honest thinking. But the problem is, most people won’t waste their time in thinking, they would rather to leave the thinking part for those who make cars, airplanes, TV, cellphones, books, news or magazines, and believe whatever they get to hear or see from them. No, don’t get fooled and be an easy target to score every single day, have your own way of thinking and live your own world which you’ve always wanted to live, those false beliefs you get to hear almost every hour could destroy your dreams or goal. Also, when you start believing, automatically you will change. People always want to believe, but the world they live in, teach them what to believe and what to disbelieve, and this simply makes them not free, because the true meaning of freedom is to be free in our beliefs and thoughts, and here comes an exciting part of life. To be honest, I hate the word ‘‘opinion’‘, it’s a small word, it shows that we just have opinions, and we can’t rely on them, it’s so bad. I respect you more when you turn your opinions to facts or beliefs, I admire you when I see you acting according to your beliefs, I learn from you when I see you living your own imagination, I tell people about you when I see you an independent happy person who accomplished his/her dream or goal. This is the true way of living, I don’t care if your beliefs are against mine, as long as we respect each other.
Having faith is not something hard to do, or impossible, it’s an extremely important foundation of a life, without it, you’d jump from the top roof. Go ahead and believe in something, life becomes much easier and funnier when you do what your heart wants you to do, and you can’t believe in something if it doesn’t come from the heart. Eventually, your life would have appeared to be so successful and complicated to others, but so joyful and simple to you.
The spirit, it’s inside me, it’s my precious, I take a really good care of my spirit more than anything in my life, my life is based on it. Since I was young, I knew life is not understandable, many we’ve discovered, but we still ignorant compared to what we know about this life, oh we have no idea. I knew this life is more than I could even imagine, I knew it’s not typical, it’s more than just eating and sleeping, there must be something else, something so big, something that give us the freedom of imagination, I knew in this world nothing is impossible. But, nothing proved any of this, it was only thoughts. Unfortunately, this life showed me only hatred and submission, it only taught me how to obey. I couldn’t take it anymore, my soul dislike this kind of life, thank God he taught me to follow my soul, and not let anyone play with it.
Years later, I started to understand that my soul determines my path, I understood that everyone have a soul inside him, I got to know that the people who used to laugh at my thoughts, are now asking me for help, I’ve become more aware, brave, fearless, lovable, funny and, the handsome among everyone. All this because I decided to follow my soul, which is my dream, which is my goal, which is where my true happiness settles. This is the spirit I love to see with others, I devote my time to let people begin to use it, and start to trust themselves.
It’s the time to wake up, you are sleeping if you still don’t understand what I am talking about. This life, this world, this planet we share, was made for you, it’s for you to control, you’re not asking life to live better, but life is begging you to, this is how you should be proud of yourself, as a human being, this is what my soul does to me, what about yours.
No one is clear from mistakes, everyone has experienced life, the more you grow up, the more you realize how much you were mistaken, sometimes you wish if you can go back and fix it, or sometimes you became regretful for not apologizing, but we learn from them, that’s human. Even our father Adam made a mistake by eating from the prohibited tree, it’s normal, that’s what make us humans, but it doesn’t mean we don’t care, we have to be careful and wise in our actions so we wouldn’t make a different mistake and fall to the whole again. Also, never let your mistakes judge your life in the future, continue walking to your dream, never let anyone, anything let you down, keep smiling. One of the main reasons why people are disparate and hopeless is because they have bad memories. Therefore, their present and future become victims to their past, and life goes on but backwards. I’ve had many mistakes, not simple mistakes, I was so sad about them, every time I remember them, I give up and do more mistakes, who cares, I’ve already done bigger mistakes, I got myself blind, till the sunshine come and I realized that it’s not the way to success, but to fail more and more. Then, I decided to change and start to forgive myself, it was hard from me to forget my past, but this is life, I can’t change what already happened, but I can learn from them, and I did. Moreover, some people when they found out they were mistaken for their whole lives, they would start to become more evil than before, it happens a lot, that’s because they don’t want to admit front of us that they were wrong and we were right, it’s called ego. You don’t need to care about us, we’re not going to lose anything if you still stubborn, but you are, we don’t care about anything more than seeing you becoming a better person. We also have prides and ego, we use them in a good fair way, we also have mistaken, we learn from them, we never give up, and we never stop smiling.
Don’t answer the question. Humans are meant to have many things in common, we got emotions to feel, minds to think, eyes to see, hearts to live. Also, we love money, forgive so many times, sleep to rest, like sex, enjoying the moments, make mistakes. These are our nature, you can’t be something other than your human nature, it’s like your physical body, you can’t change your body, and we were born with it. God have provided all this just to do our duty, which is our choice. Therefore, we should only care about what we able to do as humans, not what color we are, what region we’re from, what nationality or what we worship, it’s so down level to concentrate about this kind of things.
My nationality is Yemeni and I was born there, but I’ve been living in Saudi Arabia since I was a baby, I only visited Yemen few times. In Yemen, they treat me as a Saudi, and in Saudi they treat me as a Yemeni, I’ve never felt I belong somewhere. What is this? Now I became to understand why always the immigrants are more different and creative, it’s because they’ve seen people who stand for meaningless matters. Stop hating others, stop separating people, you’re not different from them. Do you like from people to treat you in hatred? What if you visit another country and you got abused from them, maybe you’d understand then? Wars are enraged, women got raped, children have died, homes are destroyed, and you still want to dislike that immigrant guy, who are you? I hate to talk about racism, I’ve never got abused from someone, maybe I feel it a bit sometimes but I’m sure there are others who have seen the worst from racism, I’m not a sided person, I don’t call myself Yemeni or Saudi, I can’t see what I am getting from this, but I prefer to call myself a human being with beliefs who make sure everyone is having a good time. Treat people the same way you want them to treat you, leave the separating job for the proud ignorant and get a real life. Yeah, love your country and fight for it but love your humanity more.
However, I was talking about the highest level of racism, there are levels in racism, and each one of them is from Satan. Second level, which is the middle level, it’s like something you got against some particular group. Such as, Russians, many people take them as the enemy of the world, they don’t even know what they’re talking about, or Africans, we treat them as criminals and killers, it’s wrong. There are many of them and we can’t judge all of them because some of them did something wrong, and they’re excused when we look at their condition. Third level, it’s the lowest level, this one is becoming normal these days, which is when someone take a higher position than you, you’d get sensitive about it because he’s father immigrated to your country long time ago, so you deserve that position more because your family somehow are more native, or a company owner prefer locals more than loyal intelligent international people. We’re living in one world, we’re receiving the same information, we also start to wear the exact same cloths, we’re becoming one society every day; the whole world is becoming one village now.
However, to be not racist, we have to understand one thing, we should stop seeing ourselves as each other’s enemy. If we work, play and help with each other, everyone will be happy, why we prefer to be more envier and prouder with each other thinking this is the better way to live or to be accepted in the society. I’ve met many people from many different regions, I only see their manners and their principles, not their religion, color, appearance, financial status or their positions. If they respect me, then I shell respect them to. In summary, it’s doesn’t matter where you came from, what matter is where are you going.
They’re asking themselves, how could someone be lovable, strong, sweet, smart, cute and happy at the same time? Most people think life is unfair, therefor, they hardly imagine a successful marriage, a bride future, helpful hands, a happy mother, a caring wealthy person, a lovable neighbor or a true love that lasts forever. They used to see negative kind of images all the time. Of course, I blame the media for showing only this kind of life images to the public, very rarely we see the good opposite. However, I have the solution for all, I have the key to that bride door, which is the ‘‘thankful’‘ door.
Being thankful opens many paths for you, it’s only a word that comes from the heart and shines with a smile. Saying it is not what I mean, I mean by actions. For example, if someone did a favor to you, you should be very thankful about it and start to treat that person better. Or, you’re a wife, you have children, but you miss the old single days, and start to regret about getting married, what about your beautiful family that many wish to have, what about the moments you share with your children and your caring husband who work hard for you and for your children, you should look at this side and be thankful about it. You see, when you start to be thankful about your life first, and then think about those who have enough problems. Don’t be selfish, you’re not alone, this world can get onto your head, but you don’t want that, be thankful for what you have got and continue dreaming. Also, thank people all the time, in the market, the malls, the streets, especially your mother who took care of you, and everyone; I don’t know how could someone treat his mother badly, you will never find someone who loves you more than your mother, she raised you, feed you and loved you and you’re not feeling thankful about it? When you start to be thankful, you’d automatically become a better person. Why you always think the rich man is a selfish proud person, the most beautiful woman loves only rich people, the wife or husband could stop loving you in the future, or Michael Jackson is not innocent from the rumors. Free your mind from these negative images and images and start to see the world in a better way. There are many good people around the world, you just be one of them.
Moreover, thank God for giving you a protection and a path to your dreams. God created this world for you to lead, you’re the one who’s going to get whatever you want during your life time; it has been your choice all the time. But, when you start to get or become what you wanted, be thankful about it and you will be greeted with even more and more. Be careful, many people become proud of themselves by the end, as they’re the one who made it happen with no one’s help, they’re not thankful, and they’re not lovable, poor them. Anyone can have what he or she wants. So, you can be lovable stronger and sweeter and smarter and cuter and happier at the same time, by being thankful.
Poor societies are there, or poor groups are also there, many countries have problems to supply opportunities and chances to work, and many countries aren’t doing their duty right. Therefore, you see people living in the streets, families that can’t afford to feed their children, robbery incidents, abused other’s rights, drugged youths, wickedness and of course all the beautiful souls and mind fly away with the wends, it’s so sad. I don’t blame the society if the government are stealing from them, but I blame the society if their government are so rich and there are many poor families but the society as whole are careless towards them, don’t you want to make change. We can change it, by supplying them food and cloths, institution and creativity lessons, caring and love, happiness and smile. We can do all that for them, this’s at least what we can do, we have the ability to make no one is poor, and everyone knows how, and I don’t need to tell you how. When you become the reason of someone’s joy, this nature will take its course and the joy would come back to you, but more joyed. Your life will become full of joy and laughter, full of relieve and comfort, full of good and angels surrounding you. Don’t you want that? Reduce you spending on useless and meaningless things, I know you can spend some for the poor, and only here you can buy happiness, by making another family feels much better.
I’m studying business, and I will make the best business ever, which will make me very happy while I’m sitting on my chair, it’s the easiest marketing and the best income, which is my happiness. My capital is the best helpful company, my land’s rent would be in people’s heart, my labors are you and me, my profit is justice, my highest point is heaven, my factory is in every house, my service is for free, my recourses are from you, you’re the one who’s going to see the change then, and begin to understand the world better. So help me, your salary would be the highest, your interest is a happy family you going to have, your work time is for you to devote, your profit is this world and the world after, your insurance is God and what more can you ask. Don’t worry, money is not going to be an issue, because we all going to earn more than enough, it’s the most guarantee business, it never cost a lost. We’re going to have the best technology to make our service better and easier, we also going to rent the highest floor on earth to make our business serious and compete with all the businesses beneath us, all branches will be spreading in every corner like KFC branches. Also, we’ll use all the talents of the world to support us, such as, musicians, sport players or athletes, actors and the creative minds to impress the world. Moreover, we’ll invade the Media, we’ll show them a true music and a true stories (movies), we’ll remove all the illusions they’ve been into, and show them a better meaning of life through our tube by using the latest ways in order to be always ahead three steps, then who can stop us.
All this is not impossible at all, if we do it right and step by step, we can achieve it in several years. There would be no children dying in hunger, no separated families and societies, no more wars, no more diseases and everyone will be happy. This is how easy it is, this is how to make the sky rains, and this is how someone could be ignorant by ignoring all this. It’s not my business, it’s ours. Our symbol is the opposite of oppression; our logo is justice. And that is only the beginning.
I promised myself to be the best person, but not in the top, I promised myself to be a good example, but not a bad one. For all my life, I couldn’t find a real reason why should I work hard, I got a dream but it’s too far from me, why would I work hard while I’m not practicing my dream, and I can’t let the world’s judgment tell me what should I do and what shouldn’t, they don’t know who I am. If you’re a successful Doctor, you can’t tell me that I should be a Doctor, and even if you’re a writer, you can’t tell me to be a writer. No one can tell me what should I become, no one have lift me a choice, except to be alone. I’m a victim to my own self, my family is not, my future wife is not, all what I know is that I’m a victim to myself, I take my responsibilities of my own actions, how fair it is. But, I’m a loser, although there’s no such thing as looser, however, he became a Doctor, she became a successful writer, and I’m still lost, not knowing how to reach mine. Of course, who support a loser guy, everyone is disliking me, no one wants to be around me, why would they waste their time, even if I show them love and care, they’re not seeing me accomplishing a small thing, while they all are. How sad when you know you have a bigger dream but you can’t reach it, how sad to see them all accomplishing their dreams while your dream is hard to reach, how sad to be useless, how sad to be lost. I got all the abilities to be a very successful man, but I only live this life once, and this life is about giving, I want to give thoughts to the world, to teach them my gifts, to change them, not by being a Doctor or a writer, I have another imagination to see myself into, but it’s nearly impossible. Although, nothing is impossible, I know this very well, but they’re doing a great job and they’re practicing it, and mine is too far, I can’t be more patient, especially when I see them getting more success every day. I just want that spark, which will make me move and give me the energy. Then, I can show the world a better meaning of life, a world that nothing is impossible and a world with no boundaries. I promised myself, I can’t change my dream, it’s digging inside me, here I become a real loser if I change my dream. I’m a person of my word, I practice my promises, sorry but I can’t change my goal, too much strong words ha? Well, human I remain, my life has a value. I know you don’t see this kind of people in TV anymore, they vanished, how sad when no one can truly help us nowadays, all what we see right now is punch of people who have the obsession of power and control, how would they care about us, how would they help us, other than providing us food and entertainment. We’ve become tools, we’re not humans anymore, because there are no real reasons for
Where did I go wrong? I know already. There is no other chance, it’s too late. I will accept it and deal with it. I’ve never thought it would across me, because of it, I failed. No more pretending, it is the reason. I didn’t know what was it, I got myself blind. All my problems because of it, all my tears because of it. My way was so clear for me, nothing was on my way. Now, Can’t walk sometimes. It caused me desperation, although I’ve never been one. So optimistic with everything, except that. I hate thinking of it but it’s digging into my mind. Not anymore, because am going to leave this place very soon, I don’t want anything that remind me of it. Maybe I’m not lucky, I had energy and ideas that will admire everyone. Nothing was on my way. So, I moved away from it, I thought I had forgotten it. But, everyone wanted to destroy my image front of it, because they all fell in it. It follows me wherever I go! I trusted it, I cared about it, but it turned its back on me. How could it be so heartless? I hate it, I can’t stand to see it, it ruined me, it wasted me, it stood up on my way. It’s Batty, I call her Batty.
To be continued.
It’s easy to listen, it’s easy to smile, to laugh, to cry, to act, to love, to dare, but it never been easy to feel. You can fool people, and you can even fool your mind, but you can never fool your heart. A heart is not a red piece of blood and flesh, which is responsible for your circulatory system. A heart is where all the feelings gather and meet, I guess that’s obvious and known to many people, and thank God for that. But what was not obvious to people is that a heart can actually think, behave and act, you might agree on this but at the same time you can’t remember the last time you thought from your heart, you just know it but you actually don’t really consider it or maybe you believe that the brain is safer for you, I can understand that. But you should understand as well, that the heart could be the reason why your brain can become with so much brilliant ideas. If you’re a doctor, what makes you want to save every patient? Is it the fear of failing, if that’s your case, can that fear come from your brain? You’re a lawyer, what makes you want to put the criminal in prison? Is it your brain who tells you that the criminal should be in prison for life, or is it the feeling of righteousness that tells you so?
So, you’re nothing without your heart, it’s like your refrigerator without an electricity. You see all this civilizations, all this high sky buildings, all these beautiful cities at night, all this technology, they all worth absolutely nothing without an electricity. The same thing with yourself. So far, it’s easy for you to understand all this, but it’s so hard for you to use your heart. Your heart always think that you should be a doctor so people will respect you, your heart always think that you should be a lawyer so people will think you’re smart and very needed in particular times. But your heart has never thought that you should be a lawyer for defending justice, not defending for who does pay you more. Your heart never thought that you should be a doctor to help every poor one who have no health insurance to guarantee his or her life, not only for those who have insurance or the very important personalities in the city. So it’s hard, it’s hard to fool your feelings, I know that your heart thinks about it at least for a second, but your smart brain keeps ignoring it, it’s hard to leave all the so called education institutions and start to believe in something with no, math for it. But it’s even harder to live in falsehood, it’s even harder for not becoming someone that your generous side of your heart knows it’s the best for you.
Life is cruel, and life is in your heart, don’t let your heart cruel, don’t let your heart like what the world is today. Harsh, judgmental and violent. To me, this is the hardest way of life that a human being can ever live, I can understand why people want to live a negative lifestyle, it’s safer. But what’s safer really means to you? To me, as long as I live the lifestyle that my honest heart knows it’s the pure best, this is the safest way to me, even if the whole world is against me, at least I’ll dye smiling.
Why am I dying to live if I’m only living to dye? Sometimes I don’t think about death, it’s like there’s no such thing, or it’s too far, maybe ‘till then, there would be a new machine that will make us live forever, or at least for longer. Anyway, I ignore death, I don’t think about death, it’s good actually, but in what way exactly? Is it because I’m afraid of death, and the idea of it scares me? Or is it because I think that death is a necessarily ending for me, for all of us? I had a problem before, I used to stay calm when students beat me and push me, I used to shut my mouth up when the baker give the bread to another buyer who came after me, I used to prefer to stay out of problems because I might end up in a hospital. Then, I’ve grew up, I’ve changed, I’ve realized that the fear inside me couldn’t let me feel free, happy and safe. I had become to know that I’m part of this life, part of this disease. So I should deal with it, I should fight, I should educate myself, arm myself, and be prepared all the time. If I don’t do this, who will educate me? Who will protect me? Who will be there ready to help me? I won’t let some government tells me how to think or how to act, it’s my life, not theirs. I was tired from people telling me what to drink, what to eat, what to do, where to go, what to buy. Or, it’s too much for me, leave it to professionals, scientists know better, don’t get married, live normal, get a life, don’t bother yourself. And I hate this one the most ‘’why do you care man?’’.
However, I lived an illusion life, a negative lifestyle, because I was afraid, but was I living? I rather to live one day like a man than to live an entire life like a coward. But I didn’t know this, I was a kid, I was listening to older people, watch them and observe them. Now, I’m 21 years old, and they were lost, thank God I’m not going to be like them, disturbed and worried all the time. They think that values are subjective, something that should be left beside. Therefore, they can’t tell what’s really true and what’s not, they only know how to fight in order to live, they work hard and harder but only few reach up around many, so they believe in luck, so confusing. I look at the great figures through our history who had given their lives to send a true message, they have suffered but never stopped, and some of them died at a very young age, they were threatened to dye but they were never afraid of death. This kind of people are still out there trying to tell us something, their lives are in jeopardy but no one cares as long as it’s not him who’s dying, or maybe the media don’t want us to listen to them.
So I don’t care if I die tomorrow, as long as I did what pleases my heart today. Why am I living and living for no good reason? To get a job in a company is not good enough, I want to make my own path, my own destiny. I’ll keep living to fight ‘till there’s nothing to fight for, I’ll keep making better values. And be honest with myself if I’m living to please people or to please myself by making people pleased from the truth.
Let them shoot me, stab me, blow me. Death is death, I was born to dye, and I dye to live again, but I’ll never dye again. It doesn’t matter how long can I live, what matter is what have I done in my life, what reflects have I left. Because life it’s too short, but my accomplishments could stay for thousands of years. I admit that death is a misfortune, yeah death is a great misfortune, but only for those who have done nothing in their lives except competing others. I also compete, but I compete to give more, to be a trustworthy, to speak the truth, to be loved even more by dying for their rights. Not competing to have the fastest car, the nicest job, or to be a famous, to be the funniest by telling lies.
To conclude, death will always wait for me on the finished line in a race competition, whether I was running fast or slow, the road has no other direction. So I’d rather to be ready than to fool myself by being slower. And mark this, if you have nothing to die for, then you have nothing to live for.
Oh education, I’ll try to make it as short as I can, because it needs a whole book to explain how the so called education is not actually educating our children. However, we all have experienced the school life, we had fun with our friends, we share many good memories, we honestly had unforgettable moments when we were at school. I mean, we were spending more time at our schools than at our homes, we comeback home tired, we stay for hours doing homework, the doors are close when exams are in the corner. When I think about it, what was that? Wasn’t it too much? Anyway, let’s look at the other side, let’s look at the facts now. Don’t worry, I won’t give you statistics and numbers to make you realize the disasters that’s happening inside our schools today, because you got used to hear big numbers every day and it won’t change your heart. So let’s fresh your memories, it works every time.
First, when we were at school, we got used to see boys labeling other boys, such as, where you come from, or how your appearance looks funny or when you bring sandwiches from you lovely mother. Maybe these kind of bad attitudes is normal and accepted from many, but when you realize how could it affect our children in his present and his future, you’d stop sending them to school and try to figure out another way to educate them. I’ve always believed that our children must first learn the manners before they even get to know one plus one equals two, cause if we do this we wouldn’t be needing security alarms in our cars or in our homes, even the police officers would be in their offices all the time, bored, doing nothing but eating more donuts. No one will steal, no one will beat, no one will kill, no one will cheat, and no one will be disrespecting others, because they’ve learned manners.
Next, do you know that in Japan they have only one-week vacation among the entire year? No this is too much; no wonder they have a high rate of suicidal teenagers. They might be one of the most advanced countries around the world, but they’re definitely one of the most desperate countries around the world. It’s like we’re training them rather than teaching them. The poor little kid, he can’t even have a time to tie his shoes, and they’re so empty from inside, the only thing they know is math and physics, and they know nothing form out of the book, even if it’s a very simple information. When I have children, I’ll prefer to pick certain books for them and exempt them from school, then I’ll dare all my neighbors that my 12 years old son is smarter than their college sons.
Also, why aren’t we teaching them how to arm themselves? Why is it not acceptable for kids to learn how to use a gun? I know, it may sound awkward or dangerous, but a kid must know how to fight for himself, or else, people will use his rights against him. They have to know how to be fearless, they have to realize that they’re the ones who will protect themselves, their families, their city, and their neighbors, not the police or the security guards. Therefore, you wouldn’t be seeing criminals in the streets, because everyone is armed, good people and bad ones. Don’t worry, it’s not going to be a chaos, it’s not going to be like what Hollywood tells you anyway, that only gangsters and farmers uses guns; why would farmers need a gun, who would steal their farms, you simply won’t steal a farm, especially when it’s outside the city, but you know
Hollywood, they always trying to make us feel that we’re not safe, that there are crazy people ready to kill for chicken and tomatoes, and you can’t live without their security.
To conclude, we need to teach our children the manners first, and then we’ll figure out what to do next. We should let them feel the life, rather than commit to it, we should teach them meaningful information, not information about the cockroach’s body parts, but like our true history. Let’s make them respect others, let’s make them smile more often, let them be crazy but just, let’s raise them right, let’s teach them about life, about love, about bravery, about fairness, about honor, dignity, harmony, forgiveness, about faith, and then we’ll teach them about math and biology. But, at the end, if we really want them to be educated, we should only tell them to read books, we don’t need to send them to school so we can go to work.
I believe that one thousand men without a certain goal and a certain faith can do nothing front of one hundred men who got a faith and a goal. It’s easy to give someone a certain goal, but it’s so hard to give a faith to anyone, and a goal is so weak when there’s no a strong faith in it. If you take a really good look at this world, you’ll find out that it needs a faith, among many other needs. We trapped inside this system, this secular world who always trying to prove us that we’re weak and insecure without their powerful hands. A child grows up in this kind of life can’t sleep at night too tariffed from tomorrow, he doesn’t have the hardiness to express himself, sometimes it’s hard to grow while living in fear. Therefore, life have become about who’s high and who’s low, filled with so much hatreds and greed, only few blessed people will find a way out from this misery. But if we have been raised to live freely and independently, we’ll be able to face the ugly truth, it’s not ugly but that’s what weak people call it. So, we lie every day, hiding, and we’re not lying at people, we’re lying at ourselves, we tell ourselves that we’re someone but actually we’re not, we say we’re good people but when we see children dying harshly at war we’ll forget about it in the other day like nothing happened, excusing ourselves that we can’t do anything, or maybe we’re too busy solving our own problems, and we’re unfortunately right, because this system of life don’t even give us the chance to think about our own problems, so sad.
But you have to realize just like I did, that we’re going to be in the garbage of history. When this world change and it’ll, they will tell their kids that we were so ignorant just like what our teachers tell us about the dark ages. Life is fair, if you stay like this unable to practice your true deep desires, don’t blame anyone but yourself, because you’re the architect of your own life, and when there’s a well there’s a way, but please don’t say you have the well while you’re not planning anything at least. If you just realize what you’re capable to do, what your brain, your heart and your precious soul are capable to do, you’ll be a totally different person the next day, you’ll become a man. It’s the time to think about bigger matters, not your love story, everyone will find his love of life eventually, however, you can take care of tens of people, you can be a king of your own life, do you prefer to be so important to your boss or too important to nine people, and nine people can do anything if they work as brothers. You’re the one who can take hundreds steps in life, and life can’t help you if you’re unable to take one single step.
I know, you have so many ideas going on inside your head already, but you’re too afraid from losing it all, trust me, you already had lost it all. So, you may have two choices, one is to find a lovely wife and live far away from this ordered society, or become smart and take advantage of what you are in this lost society. And life is fair, if you already feel comfortable the way you are now, then you must understand that after every choice comes an absolute responsibility.
It’s okay if you have some fears, only few blessed ones live with no fear inside them, the rest must have some fear towards some certain issues. When I say that everyone should live with no fear I don’t expect anyone to follow that, everyone got some fear at least, fears that won’t affect somebody’s direction. Such as, fear from disappointing the parent’s expectations, fear from not being at the top five in class, fear from not being able to pay the house rental, or fear from rats or a fly, whatever. At the end, everyone got his way of fearing. I got my own fears, I fear sometimes that maybe my book won’t be the best book ever, for an example. Fear is a normal feeling inside a human being, like love. But what’s not normal is when you over fearing, like a cat.
However, fear is what made nations stop producing if it come unreasonable, it corrupts the human well, and it closes many doors on someone’s maximum ambitions. Also, in time it could easily blind our eyes from the truth, by not letting us see our results of our true abilities. It also could block our ears by hearing but not listening. And it could shrink or limit our feelings to below normal or sometimes to zero, by not practicing what we should.
Fear is a spirit poison, it’s nothing but an excuse for us for not keep moving forward. For example, someone wants to be a great leader, he has the mental ability, the courage, and he even has the plan already, but he hasn’t applied his plan to be a great leader, because his fear from failure made him stop his productions, or his fear from the oppressor has made his plans appear to be impossible. This’s what fear could do to a human motions and brain, it’s simply make you worthless, as in you’re not going to offer something interesting, just below normal like most people are, unfortunately. I remember when I was younger, I had watched many horror movies, I wanted to prove to myself that I’m not afraid, funny, it wasn’t about the movie as in an entertainment that I should care about, but it was about the symbols inside the movie. Such as, a very honest loving and caring husband who take a really good care of his wife’s children, but suddenly he killed them all. So, while I’m watching it, it didn’t matter how it happened, all what matter was when is he going to die at the movie so I can feel better. The problem is actually after the movie, after many familiar stereotypes you’ll believe that everyone who look happy and loving is very evil and dark from inside. That’s what movies are doing to us, it confuses our brains by making us in the middle of thirteen ways not knowing which way to go. But, it there’s no fear inside you, you’ll know that whoever smile and love and give, he or she can never be something else from the inside; you’ll know which way to go.
However, it’s only the misplaced information that we have received from someone’s baseless talk or a liar hypocrite or a propaganda media, which forced our minds to believe that there are sick minded people in the world who hate us, so we should hate them and fear them too. They only tell you what’s ugly in our beautiful world. Why anyone would want to blow a train station? I mean why, where’s the benefits from that other than more security and more control on us? Why a protester would want to smash down the shopping malls and the cars if he only wants peace and justice? Why do we need police officers to protect us if they always come after the crime had already been committed? Don’t let them fool you by implanting so many fears inside you, because it’s the fear itself that made you stay behind. To conclude, educate yourself, arm yourself, and then be prepare.
Imagine, just open your mind widely. You’re in your large living room in your large house, chatting with your seven kids, and they all listening to your stories and to you in deep emotions, ignoring their cellphones and the TV cable, because they believe that they’re not meant to be for them, but rather against them. But you’re not, you’re their father and you’ve raised them to be honest and caring. Everything you do, they do it after you. The whole house goes upside down if you got slightly sick. They love you so much that they kiss you every day after you come from work. They blindly trust you, because they know that you’ve been beside them every time they needed you, they know how hard you work for them. When the boys have grown they’ll be beside you until you dye and it’ll be the same for their kids. And when the girls have grown they’ll get married and raised their kids in honesty and care, the same way you did. But, look at yourself right now, do you think you have accomplished that, and if you did, you’ll be one in thousands, and that’s not fair. We simply can’t, because our kids are being taken away from us, they’re not for us anymore, they’re for the companies.
Now imagine again, just open your mind widely. You’re a mother, you have two beautiful girls, one named Sara, and one named Tara. And your husband is a very caring man, he loves to help people, he’s filled with kindness and fairness. You love him, and he loves you deeply too, you say sorry if you were mistaken, and he also apologize whenever he feels that he slightly hurt you. And Sara, she tells you every day that you’re the best mom ever, because she knows how much a mother could love her children, she can even dye for them. And Tara. She always tells you to sit down and rest, because she knows you’ve done more than enough. You also pregnant, and the doctors told you that he’s a big boy, the house went happy because there’s a new member in the family, and you named him Zack. The boy has grown up and he became what he had dreamed of. But, look at yourself right now, you’re divorced because your ex-husband wanted another life. Sara has never listened to you and you always feel that she doesn’t like you. Tara, she has become a doctor, but she never cared about you, she believes in false interdependency, she rarely comes once a year with her kids and their step-father. So sad, this’s almost the condition of many mothers. Today, many single men don’t want to get married, because they believe that marriage is a waste of time and money, like Zack.
Imagine one more time, open your heart widely. You live in the next door, between the hopeless father, and the lonely mother, witnessing all their problems and issues, you feel sad for them but you can’t do anything about it. You try to know the reason of their problems but you can’t, you try to understand life through them but you can’t. So, you went to ask your friends but they told you that it’s something normal happens to looser people and they talked about their own parents as an example for you, so you should not worry and forget about it. You open the TV and then you hear more horrible stories, you listen to music and all what they talk about is misery too. Then you went crazy because you’ve never thought that life could be that cruel, why wouldn’t you? Your mother was devoting her all time for you, teaching you lessons about life, and your father was a wise man, he knew that this world is becoming a miss, and he knew what was for you and what was actually against you. Unlike others who were just trying to get the best pleasures out of this life, believing that life has no limits. So they’ll never be cured unless if they’ve changed to a new way as long as the old way has never been working
Okay, maybe she wasn’t meant to be for me, or maybe I misunderstood the situation, or maybe both. She said many times that I’m only her classmate, nothing more, nothing less. She also told me that she’s not the kind that want to make relationships. She made it very clear for me, but I was an idiot. That’s what love does to you when it’s baseless. Anyway, it took me only two weeks to completely forget about her, I didn’t do it purposely, but because the pain she had left inside me I had decided to forget about her, it was magical, I had never thought that my brain could really erased her like that, I was amazed when I found out that later, but I guess a brain can do anything if the heart commit to it. After, I saw her, she was trying to come nearby me to contact me but I showed her that I don’t want to talk to her anymore, of course she didn’t even bother herself for an explanation, she’s Batty. So, for six months, my life was going as normal as it should be, going to college, comeback from college, going out with friends, living, sleeping, having fun, and she was really out of my mind, like I haven’t met her before. However, I had some problems, my marks were so low, I had failed in all subjects, although I had not failed in even one subject in my life, I didn’t care, I thought it was something normal in first year of college, but I also had failed in the second year, then I knew there was something wrong but I didn’t know what was it. Also, I was unhappy, my life was perfect but I was still unhappy. So, one day I prayed to God to help me with this problem. Then, the next day I woke up very early even though I slept very late, I tried to sleep again but I couldn’t, so I stayed lying on my bed thinking about my life. Suddenly, everything became so clear to me, flashes and explanations incredibly came into my brain. After that I cried, I’ve realized that it was her, it was because of her, I can’t believe it was her who made my life so miserable. Plus, she loved me! She loved me even more than I ever did. Ah what I’m going to do, shell I go and talk to her? In the same morning and after several hours, there was an important exam that I had to go and attend and then I’ll think about what to do next. So next I was on my seat waiting to take the exam quickly and then tell my best friend about it. Shockingly, she passed by and she smiled at me, she never did that, but I didn’t bother she was just smiling at someone behind me. Also, there was a girl sitting behind her, she was waving at me telling me that Batty is saying Hi to me, I also didn’t bother myself she just waved at someone behind me, because I couldn’t believe that all this could happened to me in several hours. Then I saw her alone after the exam crying, she looked at me and then she grabbed her purse harshly, like she was telling me ‘‘you don’t deserve me Saleh’‘ with all the love that I felt inside her for the first time.
Oh I wish if I have wings, just small wings will be enough to carry me all over the world. From the east to the west, and from south to north, and also in the middle of the world. I want to go inside the woods, or the jungles, I want to see the biggest waterfall, I want to see all kinds of birds, if I have the wings I’d never stop flying, because it’d make me realize how God is beautiful and how he loves beauty. I also want to fly to see the poor people around the world who are dying because of hunger, war, or diseases, who have no homes to go, but only rocks to lie their heads onto and sleep. Yeah, I can see all that on TV, but I won’t be able to smell it and feel it, and touch it. Anyhow, I want to see the world in all different corners, I want to understand it by myself with no one in between. Not in black and white, but in all the possible colors that I can get.
Why we always see the world in dark colors? Why we can’t see the world with a good heart? Even when you see a dead rat, you can still see something good about it. The world is not that dark, yeah it’s so dark but so white at the same time. Of course, if you’re living in the ghetto, you hardly can see a happy family, and I blame the leaders who are responsible for such a disaster, it’s also hard to see colors when you’ve raised in a harsh way, with no sympathy and no love involved. But, it doesn’t mean that we can’t be colors, it’s always been our choice, and if you want to insist on satisfying your strict family or your ghetto by being harsh and stony from the inside you’ll never be able to see the other colorful option.
Life is yours, I know we have our own traditions, and I always respect that. But we need to know that life has nothing to do with our traditions, you should make your traditions as simple as you can, because sometimes it blocks you from the real rules of life. The real rules of life tell you to love your family no matter how hard they were on you; it also tells you not to be like them if you don’t have to. The real rules of life tell you to be so harsh when you meet your enemy in the battlefield, but it also tells you to be fair with them.
At the same time, even if your society is so in the wrong way, you can still see and learn good things from them. I remember one time, I was watching a clip on ‘‘YouTube’‘, it was about drugs and how bad drugs are, I didn’t like it, and he was talking about the people who use drugs in a way that we should remove them from the society, what is this? Aren’t they our brothers and sisters? We should help them rather than talk against them, we should see them as someone who failed in his semester, because no matter what mistake they’ve done, they’re still humans who need to be considered and feel cared. I hate it when we judge people, yeah we can say our opinions but we may never make it appear as a judgment, who are you to judge?
We need to know how to balance our lives, this life is full of colors. Don’t you see it when the sky is raining? Don’t you feel it when you hear the birds singing in the morning? It’s all around us, but we didn’t get used to it, or maybe we so self-interest ‘till we become blinds. At the same time, you have to know this particular rule of life, and I don’t know all the rules but, you have to know that this life will miser you, hurt you, shock you, and shake you, just like the people who lived before us, poor or rich, but you can always colorize the faith, just like what the people before us did.
There are certain rules in this world that no one can touch, some of them are sad, some of them are so beautiful, but they all are fair. Like, after a hard working there will be a satisfied result. Or, when you love someone easily, your heart will break into pieces easily too. And many other rules that this life have in hands, but they all surrounded with one truth, which is, wish for others what you wish for yourself, or justice. All the problems come from one simple move, oppression. If you have oppressed your neighbor, then your neighbor will do the same for other neighbors. Or, if you have murdered someone, you’d be the reason of disappearing thousands of generations in the future, because if you didn’t kill him, the person would have children and grandchildren and so on with an entire generation after him, I’m sure no one would want to have this kind of responsibility in his grave.
But there is another rule which is even worse than murdering, that is implanting temptation between two individuals or groups, creating a spark that could last forever. Open your TV cable, what are you seeing? Wars, murderers, drugs, street gangs, theft, hanger, we can see that our world have made the sparks become thunders. And so everyone is fearing everyone and anything, nobody trusts nobody, two different groups from the same purpose fighting against each other, and all that because of one move from a hypocrite selfish human being. Look at our world now, you so can’t deny the temptation that is happening to our world, until we start to hear the word ‘‘security’‘ very often, no one can protect himself anymore, everyone is depending on his friend more than his own brother, although if he depends on his brother he will be safer, but a false information creates a great temptation.
In the other hand, I know, sometimes is hard to forget the person or the group who were responsible for the death of your wise father, you’d want a revenge or your right, it’s a human thing, and it’s so just and even. I know it’s hard for you to forget the country who destroyed your small house, I know you pray every day to meet the pilot who did it. I know that everyone has an absolute right to get his even. And if we live under this way of life, trust me, we wouldn’t be needing security guards, because everyone will think that they will come after him and they will never be merciful. So we all should know that a revenge is a necessary matter. However, we can’t just climb up the stage and talk about who’s wrong and who’s not and anyone else should be treated in a very less way of a right treatment, we can’t just tell the people the mistakes of others and remind them the embarrassments they did, we can’t teach our kids that long time ago we got a treachery from a certain group like we’re teaching them to dislike them in present. That will create a spark and eventually, a devastator thunder. Some individuals or groups realize this, and they use it as a method when they want to win. Oh Satan love this method.
Sorry, it’s a warrior thinking, you may understand what I just said but you won’t apply it for yourself unless if you have a warrior attitude, a hero potential. I’m not saying I’m a hero, but I’m saying that we all can be warriors, that’s what we all should be, and that’s what I’m trying to explain in this chapter. When you start to think like a warrior, your life will turn to be more logical to you, from the inside and the outside. Unlike now, your life doesn’t make sense to you, lost behind the desk. But if you think like a warrior, you’ll know how to manage and balance your life behind and front the desk.
To be loved is a wonderful thing, it makes you feel good when there’s someone who cares about you, especially when you never met that person at all. It feels good when you have a wife or a husband who loves you. It also feels good when you know that you have someone who’d wish to be in your place if you had an airplane accident, and no one can replace her, your mother. Tell me, do you ever feel like you are hanged in the air not knowing which way to go? Every time we try different ways but we still feel the same, we’ve been trying and experiencing many ways of life but we still feel the same, we tried to find a religion, or a life system if you want to call it so, anyway, we still haven’t found the perfect system of life, or most people haven’t.
To be hated is a very sad thing, but to love to be hated is the worst. Some people want to be hated, and they hate to be loved, because they don’t understand what love means, they believe that only poor or disabled person who’d need to be loved. And they believe that you can’t be hated unless if you have something that others don’t have, something that others wish to have, or wish to be in your place, or wish to see you losing it, I don’t know why someone would want to be hated, or envied. But it shows that they also do the same, they envy everyone thinking that anyone must have the hatred and the prides inside him, what a waste of life and afterlife. Tell me, do you ever feel like you’re the happiest person, because you’ve found your way. Your way of self-confidence, having a faith, being content, knowing your primitives and values, giving harmony, becoming courageous, working on your giving gifts, knowing who you really are, and what you were born to do.
To have all the attentions is a very blessing thing, it means that you have a leadership personality, and that’s a giving gift by itself. Leaders today are not the ones who speak through the microphone, they’re just representing the big club behind them. The real leaders today are the companies; they have more power than that temporary president. Tell me, do you ever feel like you’ve been giving your rights in every possible way, that justice is all around you? You have the leader who will dye for you, a leader who worships God by smiling at you, a leader who believes that he was giving a chance to be a good leader? Not someone who only wants to be richer and more respected among the higher class.
To conclude, sometimes if we just speak out what is inside us, we’ll feel good. Rather than living our whole life pretending that we’re satisfied of what we are at the moment. I see sad people all the time trying their best to smile just to show me that they’re still lucky. It’s okay to feel sad sometimes, but it’s not okay to feel sad most of the time, that means that you’re having a problem, whether you know the problem or not. Tell me, do you ever feel good? Have you ever played your true personality? Have you ever been what you are or have you just become an engineer? Have you faced someone who’s taller and bigger than you? Have you ever forgiven someone because your beliefs told you so? If we want to feel good, then we need to know what we want to be. Everyone has something special about him, they say it’s a mercy from God to us to give each one of us a different skill so the balance will be fulfilled. Even if you’re a taxi driver, that’s a gift. Don’t let your pride blinds you, but first, let your simplicity leads you, if you wanna feel good.
We’ll human, yeah there are jinn who live among us too, but I want to talk about us, human race. We humans are so different, we’re so special, oh there is so much to talk about already, I don’t even know where to begin. Anyway, let’s skip the first level of our race, which is Adam and Eve who were created by God and earned the God’s soul, but then they had committed a sin, so God punished them with sending them to earth. Anyhow, humans are not different after all, we’re from separate regions but if we think about it then we all are the same, we just follow our own traditions, that’s why when we all meet we look a bit different, like from another planet. Sometimes it’s funny, really, I mean we all have the same feelings, we get sad, happy, proud, we laugh, love, cry, hate, we get angry, jealous, competitive, disparate, so it’s funny when I see two countries killing each other for selfish reasons.
At the same time, we’re actually can be different, we separate when we start to have different beliefs. For instant, Islam, Christianity and Judaism, or, politics, patriotism and also traditions. So, some group of people will not be easy on those who believe what against their beliefs, and it’s a nature of life, at the end, there must be an end for all the controversial issues, or else, God will send someone to re-aware the public again, and history are filled with them, and they still keep coming, but it’s our choice to listen to them or not. Therefore, we all have the freedom of choice, no matter what, we still going to have different choices, even if we’re inside the same group of the same beliefs, we still going to differ sometimes. I mean, it’s going to be boring if everyone has the exact same opinion, it’ll be a disaster, and I discourage severity.
But more importantly, is that we should know what our human nature is, we must know this, or else, we’d be making foolish decisions over huge matters, and you don’t want this. You should know what you want, who you are, what are you capable of, are you a fighter or a scientist, you need to know what you want to accomplish before you die. You also have to know that dating many people won’t satisfy you, but true love in a true marriage will certainly help you. Moreover, you need to know that a person without a God is lost, because it’s a human nature, I think you have already figured that out but you keep ignoring. You also must know that a life without the love of a family is going to affect you very roughly, that’s why you should care about those who have lost their mother’s tenderness and the father’s wisdom. Also, you need to be attached with people, social, with your neighbors, family, related ones, teachers, the waiters, and don’t say social network websites are doing fine for you. The more social you are, the more aware you become, you start to see other people experiences and apply it for yourself if they’re positive, and ignore their experiences if they’re negative for you or for anyone else, you’ll actually begin to learn so many stuff, such as, becoming a man. I’m only giving several examples of how to be your nature rather than to follow the anonymous.
The whole picture is, there are so many pictures in our nature, but there is always only one big picture that will always be above all the other small pictures. You really need to figure out what is the big picture, if you are satisfied with a big amount of small pictures you gathered, then you’re following the anonymous, because there will be a bug, and the nature of life has no bug. I have chosen the big picture, and thank God for making me see the big picture. And oh the big picture, it’s something when you see it, you can’t go back to what you were before; your life will completely change.
We’re free human beings, yeah there was slavery long time ago, and even ‘till this day, however, if you think about it, no one can force us to do anything. We always have another option, but we use the current easy way to survive, humans are weak. But at the end, it’s always been our choice, no one will restrict or tie you up every night, and if there is such a thing, you’d still have the freedom to think, you’d still have the other way, and don’t tell me you’re weak to take it. Slavery isn’t what we think it was, it was about a person who gives a total obedience to his or her master, we have something similar today, which is giving a total obedience to your boss, of course you have the freedom to quit, but only few strong honored people will take the risk to look for another job regardless whether it’s going to be a better job or a worse one. It’s slavery but with a suit and tie. Even I don’t feel more free than you, I’m stuck inside this system and I’ve decided to leave it but with some people so I won’t be feeling alone.
Even God himself is not forcing you to obey him, he gave us the freedom to choose. So, if you think about it, it’s not about what appears from me, it’s what I believe in, it’s what appears to God from the inner me, of course after that comes the actions. Therefore, there is good and bad, and don’t tell me you’re mixed with both bad and good, because they’re completely the opposite of each other if you really understand them.
For instant, what is marriage? Surely is not about sex, either love if we want to talk in a general matter. Marriage is for something that is more important than love, it’s for keeping humanity to survive, it’s to raise a better generation for a better future, it’s extremely highly important for us to keep producing on earth, or else we all going to lose, big time. Of course we can have children without marriage, but they will not glorify marriage because they’ve seen their parent suffering to feed them, so marriage is kind of a scary movie for them, especially from someone who only thinks for himself, someone who doesn’t want to take the responsibility of raising and spending, someone who raised to believe that it’s not worth it. However, therefor, it’s bad to abandon marriage while it’s good to glorify it. Honestly, it’s too late now, families are breaking up in each society, youth are spending their times for their own pleasures, men still can’t afford to get married and honestly why bother? Women are giving up on their men, it’s becoming a miss.
So, we can do whatever we want, we have the freedom of choice, but at the same time we have to know that nothing lasts forever, there will be consequences, there are going to be results for our choices, and this is what we have to understand more than the idea of being free and limitless. But, we can be free when we start to follow our human nature, such as marriage, and we really need to understand marriage. Because if we understand marriage, eventually we’ll understand family as well, then neighborhood, and then the city, and so the whole country. Thus, we wouldn’t be needing police officers to protects us because we stick together and we’re capable now, then no one can raise the prices on us because no one will be buying and it’ll be a big lost for the company, then no sorrows and grieves except in funerals, then everyone will realize what life is, and no one will steal because if someone else knew then he’ll live in a great miser for the rest of his life. And oh my friend, it’s so gorgeous this life is, love, harmony and piece, giving hands, faithful beautiful girls, faithful handsome men, cute brave kids, interesting positions, interesting stories and more but let me save them for the rest of the book.
You obsessively constantly aggressively pathetically want to feel normal, like others who around you, even if who around you do such disgusting things, and even if you don’t like it, you’ll do as they pleased, because you want to feel normal and you don’t want to be left alone, you see how pure you are? You need to know what are you doing before you do it, don’t just do things because that’s what people do, even if your mother told you to do something, think before you do it, or at least do it and see if she was right. In short, don’t do things blindly, because feeling normal is not what pleases who around you, it’s what pleases you, and you have to know my friend that in this world nothing is normal. Yeah there are certain rules in this world or universe that no one can touch, but when we talk about our choices, everyone can choose or be whatever he or she wants to be.
However, I’ve been in two kinds of universities, one was an expensive kind of university, and the other wasn’t that expensive. There are some differences, but both of these universities are almost the same. Both students have the same priorities, have their own images, they both want to be respected, they both want to have fun, they both want a better future, I think it’s the same condition with rest of all colleges. But the problem is us, because deep inside we believe these factors but we try to break them on most students, if it’s not all of them. because we believe in hate more than love. We dislike supporting each other, because we believe in the wrong meaning of challenge. We wish the worst for the others rather than to wish them better, because of the false information and the false manners and the false priorities we receive. We’ve become lost and not aware of the consequences of this kind of action, and life is fair.
For whole my life, I wanted to live normal, behave and act like the world today, I tried almost everything just to put myself in the normal level, but what I didn’t understand is that I was in the lowest level. I’ve become to understand that, not if everyone agree on something means true, if everyone agreed to jump into the whole I’d rather to stay alone on the roof top.
So I was falling down and down, just like others, trying to find a way to be normal, but the more I grow up the more I realize that everyone is falling down too, everyone was like me trying anything to be normal, because there was no alternative, or no one support the other way, and if someone offered the other way we’d start to call him with names. There’s only one way that’s supported this days, which is falling down. And if you disagree with me, it’s because you’ve never used your eyes, your internal eyes, very rare people use their eyes these days.
We’ve become awkward and strange people, some call themselves suicidal, some call themselves gangsters, women acting like men and men acting like women, and some call themselves hostlers. But at the end, we all become the same from inside, being disparate or miserable itself become normal nowadays.
It hurts me, it makes me feel alone, I don’t know but sometimes I can’t take it anymore, sometimes I give up. It makes the big words look small, it makes righteousness look silly, it makes beauty look ugly, it just impossible to change all this. But it’ll change, because I believe in God, and God will do something about it like he always used to, all what I can do is to pray to God to make everything right.
You’re a reader, you’re reading my book, particularly this page. There are smart readers and normal readers, if you’re the smart one, you’d probably trying to figure out how I look like in real life, and if you’re a normal one, then you’re just enjoying my book.
Let’s see if you’re smart, I know it’s easy to analyze an author by his book, but you’re different, believe me, because you see how I move from one subject to another, you also see how I get mad and then happy, then proud, then romantic, then humble, then acting old, and then I get mad again. By now, you must know me except you haven’t seen me face to face. But, I don’t think you’re convinced yet, because you think you’re a smart person and you’re tightly held by your own opinions, it’s actually going to be so hard for me to make you fully convinced.
But let’s see if you’re a normal reader, if you’re a boy you’ll be a fan, if you’re a girl you’ll be falling in love with me, but after I finish the story of Batty. You’d probably read my book because of all the vibe that it’s going to make, or by a coincidence. You find it hard to really follow me, you see me a bit complicated, and you also see me too perfect, or too sensitive. But, you’re liking my book and almost agree on everything I wrote so far, you’re just going to complete reading this book and see how it goes with Batty, or how the point ends.
But you all see me trying to be creative, you all see me a bit much of a dreamer, you’ll want to support me somehow, you see me honest, funny, visionary, lovable, too sweet, and you all just want to bite my cheek off. You also see me angry, sad, alone, poor fellow, and you may have thought many times that I could be a fool. But it’s okay, at the end, it’s all about the feelings I send, and the ideas I offer.
Still, I’m almost 22, I still have a long journey, or maybe not, but I still can be wrong about many thoughts I’ve written, I may realize that later, and I’ve found many mistakes so far, sometimes I edit ideas more than I write ideas. So I still can be wrong, I’m not the all-knowing, I’m just a guy who believe too much sometimes, and I believe that at least some of the readers will be fans. Moreover, I’m not asking you to see me perfect and all wised up, I’m not telling you to follow me, I write too much about choices and you must be over with it by now. All what I’m asking you is to reform your own opinions again, not to be me.
So, smart or a normal reader, I’m writing this for everything on this planet, it doesn’t matter how I look like, or how tall I am, it’s about the message, it’s about the message I’m trying to send. It’s all about the message, it never been something else. That’s me, that’s all me, trying to send a message with an honest heart, I even dreamed to be a movie director, because I’d be able to send a message through my blockbusters. That’s what all I wanted, it’s filled inside me and sometimes I feel overloaded, that’s me loving Michael Jackson and Bob Marley and many other artists because they had devoted their lives to send a simple message. I love writing, my mother language is not English, I’ve never had a book or enough writing experience, but I’ve begun to know that my English teachers and my friends are loving my journals, so I just became with the idea of sending a message through writing so many journals and essays. That’s all me, I’m tired from those who argue at me and never get the simple message I send, so let’s stop fighting each other ‘over different messages. Anyway, it’s your right to reject a message but it’s not your right to ruin it or block it from others. Did you get the message?
This universe is based on images, everything around us is an image; everything we think is about images inside our brains. You think about your love life, here is an image for you, when you think about your future life, here is an image, when you think about Africa, and here is an image. But we all have our different images, to make it simple, your opinions, attitude, and your beliefs are actually images inside your brain that drown by your feelings. That’s where desperation comes from, it’s when your feelings are not comfortable with the images that inside your brain, it’s when you start to give up on your feelings ‘till your heart become a strong rock. Because you haven’t searched for alternative images that fits your nature, and because you’re just lazy trying.
Imagine, you can control people by sending them particular messages, you can really institutionalize the world, you can really control them by telling them what and how to think, all what you need is a TV cable and well known news sources, and the message will be sent, messages are also images just like anything else. Don’t you notice that when you think about something, there’s an image from a movie just crossed your mind but you can’t remember that movie at the same time. Like, when you think about marriage, there’s an image you’ve seen from some channel, that image could be negative or not, mostly is negative. Or, when you think about Iraq, you’ll see dirty cloths and angry men images flooding inside your brain, where did you get those images from, it’s not formed by itself. Or, when you think about Jesus, do you see that skinny person with the brown long hear and with the long nose, or do you see someone else. So, in short, we’re living in a time that names like ‘global world’ can exist, all that from the images we receive in a daily basis, we’ve become one track thinking world because of the same images we all receive.
It’s complicated, it’ll always be more complicated, but only for those who don’t sit down and think, and for those who have closed their doors on anything different than they believe, for those who block their ears when they sense something different, and for those who are filled with prides, and of course for those who are too lazy to care because of the careless images they’re receiving. However, it’s always hard to explain to the world what they’re not familiar with, I excuse you if you don’t agree with me. At the same time, we still different, some of us are scientists, some of us are athletes, some are artist, don’t get me wrong but yeah we all have different goals and talents and habits, it’s more complicated than you think it is, but it doesn’t mean you can’t think from out of the box.
However, we all know that we have to go to school for education, we all know that we need to get a job when we grow up or else no one will help us, we all know that we should close our doors before we sleep because there are thieves out there, we all share many beliefs together. What we don’t know is, we don’t need our children to be in school because they’re not getting real education from these schools but there is no image about that, we don’t need to get jobs to survive, there are many ways to survive but no images about that, we don’t need to feed only ourselves but no images about that, and we don’t need to have only two kids but no images about that either. But we’ll think about ripping people off, we’ll think to shut our doors on anyone, we all think to hurt females, or males, and leave them alone, because there are images of that. Think, it’s not illegal yet, because the only way to be in the right track is to leave all this system behind for a moment and think again.
(coughing), there’s something wrong about the air, (coughing again), why am I coughing, I need to get me some new air, this dirty air will infect me, I think there’s something bad about this place. Excuse me, where’s the nearest exit? It’s right there, sir; thanks (smile), you welcome sir (also a smile). Oh finally, some fresh air (breathing deeply), woo, that place was a miss (thinking), (breathing deeply again). Someone came by and say Hi (no smile), I said Hi(smile), can I ask you a favor sir; yeah of course; can I have that apple you’re eating; sorry I don’t have a new one; it’s okay I can have this one; you don’t mind having an eaten apple(?); it’s okay it’s more than I ask; (!) sure you can have it but are you sure you don’t want a new one(?!), no (and then he left). After, I went back inside that place (taking my last fresh air), my friend came to me(angry), where were you man, you missed the best part; it’s okay, my luck is always like that; dude stay here, you might be going to lose another best part (talking loudly).
Next, I couldn’t handle all this noise and this dirty air (coughing), I went out again to get me some new fresh air. (Everything is quite), I look at the stars, looking at the cars (car crashes), I went to the driver; are you okay? Yes, I’m okay don’t worry; are you sure, I can call an ambulance for you; (loudly talking) no (fear inside her), no need to call anyone (got out of the car); what about your car; it’s not my car anyway, leave it here; what (!); would you please leave me alone (angry); okay sorry, I just want to help; I’m fine you can go. Then, I went back to that place, my friend was already outside (looking for me); where the hell you were man (mad at me); did you see that woman, she just got an accident; (silly asking me) do you really want to miss this important night or what, come inside before I miss more than I already did.
(that noise again), (crowd are screaming heavily), (women are crazy), (wasn’t comfortable), I was about to leave again but my friend caught my hand; you’re not going anywhere; leave me I’m not enjoying it anyway; what(!); ah just let me go, I’ll meet you outside. So, (it’s quite), (breathing fresh air), (TV nearby) I went there to see what else is happening to the world today. Some new war is about to come, economy crises, higher poverty rate, some celebrity got exposed, (smiley presidents). What’s happening? What way are we living? (Furious emotions), (inner crying), (desperate feelings), (fast shaking legs). Some kid came to me; why are you sad( innocent face); no I’m not sad( laughing); I’m also sad; why; because this is not my real mother, she loves her son more than me( sad face); what about your dad; he’s never around, I only see him once a week; it’s okay, I’m sure he loves you but he’s busy all the time to feed you and your brother right there; o don’t feel sad about me, I’m used to it, my friend has no father, and his mother always get pain from other men to feed my friend, I feel sad for him every day(disappointed face); it’s okay, you’re young to understand all this, I’m sure you wouldn’t be like that, right(smile?); when I grow up, I’ll be a president, ( his step mother calling him), oh I gotta go, here, take this (candy).
Where’s the stage? I want to speak out all what I’m hiding, spread all my positive ideas, tell the truth, I really have so much to say. I can write millions of words and I’d still not be finished, and not comfortable until I see the smile from my brothers and sisters. I love everyone so much, I want to make everything on this planet happy and satisfied, to see everyone treating anybody as equal, with smile and love coming out from their hearts, even if the other side was so angry and rude, everyone should keep the faith inside and never give up in this cruel world, what kind of a person he or she would be if he or she doesn’t have something to believe in, something worth fighting for?
Where’s the stage? I want to tell the people that they’re actually good people, it’s just that they’re confused between appearance and reality. Delusion after another confusion after another miss conclusion, fearing from the alternative and everyone is so active with this busy life avoiding to be supportive. Me and I and myself this world is; everybody is careless thinking they’re playing at the moon not knowing that it’ll eventually reach them. Living long shouldn’t be a goal, no, how do you know? You might day after five minutes, or tomorrow or after ninety years, the point is you going to dye eventually, don’t you people get the prudence from this?
Where’s the stage? I really want to change this world, yeah, whatever, you can laugh at me, maybe sometimes dreams will not come true, but at least I tried, and my dream will come true. Dreams can be true. But look at the other side that’s been hidden and miscalculated, the poor side, how would they accomplish their dreams while no one has the heart to consider them, neither our governments or us. We call ourselves one nation, we wage wars in the name of justice, and many people fall into that, but I don’t know why justice doesn’t include the poverty around the world. Delusion after another confusion after another miss conclusion, fearing from the alternative and everyone is so active with this busy life avoiding to be supportive. Me and I and myself this world is; everybody is careless thinking they’re playing at the moon not knowing that it’ll eventually reach them. Dreams can be true but what can I do if there’s someone higher than me uses his power to crash my dream down, and life is fair.
Where’s the stage? Changed ideas and habits, leaving our history behind, not to a better history but to worse. We so into this system, this system which have some toys and a little bit of fun for everybody, it offers the world heaven, and make the people believe that without this system they’re going to be in hell of life. Who’d leave this beautiful system, it has lights and cars and airplanes and movie theaters, naa, I’d rather to stay here than the mountains. We’re not actually living life, we only receive orders from the day we born ‘till the day we dye, we have never taste the real life, we don’t even know what a freewill means, we just keep doing what this system is telling us to do. Delusion after another confusion after another miss conclusion, fearing from the alternative and everyone is so active with this busy life avoiding to be supportive. Me and I and myself this world is; everybody is careless thinking they’re playing at the moon not knowing that it’ll eventually reach them.
So, Batty was a very nice girl, she was filled with love and passion, she got a pure and an amazing heart, and she got some principles and too much manners, she’s a strong woman. Anyway, after what happened on that day, I went back to the apartment and I found my house mate but I didn’t tell him because he’d have called me crazy, so my friend came and I told him quickly, he told me that I should reconsider again before I go and tell her ‘‘I love you’‘ for the first time. The next day, I got her number because I deleted it, and I went and called her from outside her house, she told me that she wasn’t there and after that she sent me a message telling me that I shouldn’t dare and go near her house again. So I met her at the college, but I couldn’t say anything, how would I explain what happened to me and don’t make her mad at the same time? But I couldn’t, my mouth started to speak out pointless words, she told me that she forgives me as a friend if I’m asking her for forgiveness, and of course she left with an angry face. The funny thing is, we never met again, I tried once to say Hi to her but she avoided me because I told her that I love her via text message the day before, stupid me. I started to dream about her, and imagining her as my wife, I even told her that I want to marry her, via a text message, still stupid me. But I loved her, I don’t know but usually my personality doesn’t fall apart, but I’ve never experienced this before, it was a strange feeling and it makes you go crazy. In the other hand, she was still ignoring my messages, ignoring me at the college, I’m still not able to fully understand Batty. I don’t know if I have done wrong to her, if I treated her badly, or if I didn’t know what or how to say to her, but I was very sure that she loves me. Then, I have made a poem for her of four parts, and I sent each one of them, one by one every several weeks. Except the fourth part, because I couldn’t finish it and because she hasn’t responded to any of my previous parts, and because I wanted to make the fourth part worth it, or simply because I still didn’t know how to finish it. I think my problem was that I was afraid, I didn’t know how to approach her, how to tell her that I love her, or how to ask her to be my wife, maybe I was still fool to her, that I’m no different from before, still vain, still lost, still trying to find his way, he still haven’t learned. But she loves me, and that’s all what was mattered, yeah she picked the foolish arrogant man, yeah she was stuck with her feelings toward me. I said: It’s just a matter of time before she comeback and say yes, she’s only trying to teach her man a lesson. So I waited, and I was waiting for her for a long and long time.
No one have bothered to search for the truth, no one can live without the truth but everyone is pretending, most of us are actually following the poppycock if you think about it, depending on alcohols and parties to avoid all the gorgeous feelings that’s trying to fit in somewhere but we don’t let it because it’s not what we used to. Sorry if I use too much negative writing about you, but I have no other way to explain better, don’t you want to learn, well sometimes in order to learn something you must be shameful first, that’s a knowing fact but humans hate this fact.
However, look at our situation, look what our subjects are mostly about, we talk about women, relationships, our love story, clothes, celebrity’s scandal, games, and sometimes we talk about the African children who are surrounded with flies, but then we quickly move back to our last private night. We’re pathetically talking about our private stories most of the time, and desperately asking for help about it, like we have no other issues to talk about, or no other information to share and discuss about. Yeah I know that sometimes there must be some fun moments in between, who said otherwise? I love having fun, I’m always the funniest guy, you’re not going to believe when you see me, I still got it bro. But, when will we start to talk about serious matters? Are you scared, or does MTV channel still cooler than BBC, and both channels are waste of time. When will we start to talk about what’s really happening to our lives, why we feel that we have so many choices but we do less at the same time, why we don’t talk about our mothers in a positive way and stop complaining about how strict and hard they were for once. Everyone got his part of the story and stopped there, every group are frolicking for what they got and mocking on others.
That's when heroes start to come out, and a hero is not a hero until he or she have changed the people among them to be more positive and more reasonable, and now there are many heroes trying to wake you up, knowing that they might be murdered but they don't care if they dye as heroes. It's heroic, you might not have heard of it but I can assure you it's not like Spider- Man, or Batman or Iron man, because they do not exist in our real lives and they'll not either. I can give you many examples of our heroes in today's system, but it wouldn't be fair if you haven't done any research about them, because you may have a bad image of some particular one of them or all of them, and I don't want to add more confusions to the readers more than I already did my friend.
Anyway, a hero is a person who stand against the oppressors for you, in order to save you and help you from them. So he loves you, cares about you, wants you to be a better person, wants to see you happy. A hero doesn’t care about him or herself, if he does then he would rather to save only himself from the oppressor’s judgment, and that’s not heroic at all. Also, a hero is usually so brave and so sharp, a hero has the leadership qualities but not necessarily, because a hero doesn’t have to be a leader the same way a leader doesn’t have to be a hero, that’s why I don’t care if I have one bad leader as long as there’s so many heroes. Do you have the qualifications to be a hero? If you have then you’re one of the changers, even if you’re not noticing it, but you’ll realize it soon enough. Just study the life and then be true and fully honest about yourself, and that’s heroic itself.
They say heaven and earth meet in Jerusalem, maybe, who knows such things, but when I see three divine religions have been and still fighting over it, it could be true, at least to them. There’s something suspicious about that land, I mean most of the prophets were from there, maybe it was a habit over there, but could it be a huge misunderstanding over a stupid land? Thousands if not millions had died because of this land, why? Because in each of these three religions were told that Jerusalem is a holy place, it raises many questions; if already these three religions do not agree with each other, why do they have this common information?
Not only that, they almost believe on each other’s messengers, they share the same stories most of the time, they even share the same figures, it’s odd. If I’m not mistaken, they got to be from the same God, what else could it be, no one had stolen someone’s religion and claimed himself to be the messenger, many people could be fooled, but I don’t think it’s possible to fool everybody every day, especially then, they were much smarter but much stubborn, so miracles appeared as a prove to them.
The problem is that we blindly follow our parents’ religion, because we’ve raised to believe in their religion and to their beautiful stories, imagine if you found out that your religion was a huge misunderstanding, you already can’t accept the idea of it. But we need to think again, and this time let’s think carefully, and please be free with your thoughts, forget about sins for a minute and think absolutely freely. Do not believe blindly, there are three divine religions here.
However, if you’re not a believer then that’s your freedom of choice, but you have to know even if you have had chosen a religion, after every choice comes an absolute responsibility. If you don’t believe in God, no one will harm you except the extremist headed people from each of these three religions. I always believe that the extremist are the ones who have wronged their own religion, because an extremist can’t be fair and can’t be thinking for others but for his own pleasure and satisfaction. So leave those superior extremists and don’t you ever listen a word from them.
You don’t need to know what I believe in, simply because it’s not going to benefit you at any way, except curiosity. But I do believe in God, it’s very hard to think that all this surviving ways of life came up from nowhere, we eat from trees and animals, we use the rain and the rivers to drink, and then we get energy, the world it’s too perfect, they can’t be made for us from some blankness intelligence. I mean, imagine the world without the night, you may survive but is it a way of life? Or imagine the world without electricity, we may have made them but we can’t use them without natural sources.
We simply can’t say who is God, because he’s not a human or like any other creature we’ve seen, we don’t know how angels look like, so what about God. He’s like no other, he’s the creator, you can’t compare God or even imagine God, it’s like you comparing the car with its inventor, the car doesn’t cry, the car can’t make children, the care can’t smile. If you asking, if earth must be created then who created God? It’s impossible that nothing had created everything, something must have been always existed, and something was the start and then created everything that is after it. So what is that something?
You know, this world is full of symbolisms, we live in a symbolism way of life since Adam, and we’re not actually noticing it, but we’re doing it. Like, the idea of us, made by dirt, live above the dirt and then buried under the dirt, or, when the sun rise to wake everyone up to work in life and when the night come telling everyone to go back home to take some rest. Anyway, enough with the symbols. But what I’m trying to reach is that nothing just happened, nothing is just like that, and it’s all connected together. Everything happens for a reason, whether that reason is a test or a result, or a message, but anything means something, that red flower means love, or that tall building means modern age. So, according to that rule of life, we can analyze anything, but gradually.
For instant, why God have sent so many prophets? Why there’s three divine religions? What happened, and what happened to the people? Plus, why every religion has core differences from the other? Did God want us to fight? Did God know that we’re going to fight anyway so he made three religions to make us all fight in his name? There’s something missing here. I tell you what is it, it’s the devil, he’s the one who’s doing his best to create hatred and false information. Can’t you see it? Can’t you smell it? Can’t you understand that? Can’t you take that as an answer? Look around, we have reached what non before us had, but we still don’t want God to be involved, why?
Or let’s see the Egyptian times, God sent them Josef, Moses and Aaron, but very few did believe them. Or let’s see the Israelis, God sent Jesus to them but only some of them did believe him. Or let’s see Mohamed, God sent him but still the Jews and the Christen don’t believe in him. And still, we may be almost one world now but we hide so many hatreds on every different group. I mean don’t you see what’s going on? If you think about it, it’ll be so obvious, but your religion and mine told us not to think from out of the box, why? We people are so funny sometimes. All what you care about is who the messenger is; and you leave the message he had sent and focus on how more blessed you’re by having that messenger and we don’t, that’s a symbol itself.
At the end, it’s our fault, we have brain, body and soul, and we also have choice, it’s just that the devil comes from the choices we made, and life is fair. Nevertheless, evilness has had won so many times and he’s still winning, but small winnings only, because goodness still exists, one good person is more than enough, look at the prophets, they were only one person. But still, the same story again, as soon as one good guy died, the whole nation go back hundreds steps behind, the devil is still operating, and God is still testing.
I’m the savior, yes it is me, I’m the one, the world has been waiting me for a very long time, I think it’s time to tell the world to stop waiting. I’m here, I’m so alive, and I’m breathing your air and walking beside you. I’m born, oh they wait me to get load of me. I’m a kid, oh my dreams are kicking. I’m a young man, my actions have begun.
The books had talked about me, the Angels love me, and I hope I satisfied God. The world is talking about me at this very moment, waiting me to make a single mistake, and I have done so many mistakes so far, but I admit it and am trying to be perfect. In heaven I’m one of the kings, heaven is talking to me in my dreams, telling me that I should hurry more, I tell heaven no, my job here is not finished yet, and I want to meet God proudly. I can change the world, the world has no power over me, but I have the power to beat all this, I’ll lose so many battles but it’s okay, losing is winning when am on the right side.
Loving is my name and heaven is my flag, God is my creator and my protector, Satan is created and my enemy. Yeas, I’ve hurt many and unjust many too, but I finally understand what I was trying to understand, that I’m only human, I’d be an Alien if I made no mistakes, and there’s no such as Aliens. Now, I’m free, I can keep learning by making mistakes, I can risk by knowing the end, I can dye by working for heaven, I have nothing to fear but only hell, I have nothing to hate but the devil. The devil is there, I feel him, I fell down so many times because of him, and I’m still falling, but I’ll never despair, I know he almost got me but he’ll loose and I’ll win. I got my seat belt tight over me, and my flight has already been on the sky, I’m only waiting for the landing part.
Yeas all that had been set for me because am special, because I’m trying to be unique by giving, and because Angels love me. I love my family, I love my neighbors, I love my classmates, I love my teachers, I love the cleaners, I love the seller, I love my future wife, and I love me. I know the world will leave me when I’m weak, I know the world will hate me while I love them, I know the world will hurt me so badly, I know the world don’t care about me while I care about them. But my beliefs are worth fighting for, my beliefs cannot be broken unless if God wanted to test me, so I don’t care if you hate me, I really don’t.
So that’s why you’re the savior, yes it is you, you’re the one, the world has been waiting you for a very long time, I think it’s time to tell the world to stop waiting. You’re here, you’re so alive, and you’re breathing my air and walking beside me. You’re born, oh they waiting you to get load of you. You’re a kid, oh your dreams are kicking. You’re a young man, your actions have begun. You’re the savior, I’m the savior, we all can be
What if your entire life is a lie? There are so many people who think that the methods of delusion are actually very common in this civilized age, which is true but the truth is that the illusion issue was in every human being since the day of Adam. Look at Adam for example, he had deluded by Satan himself that he should eat from the forbidden tree to remain immortal and king forever, although he was immortal and a king already, but still he got deluded. And so on with history which is filled with delusions and baseless facts, it’s normal if you see so many cocky mouths at this time, so don’t believe whatever you hear even if it was from someone you really love and admire, but believe in what your mind and your honest heart question. Or else, you’ll be deluded just like them, then welcome to the common history my dear friend.
We live in such an interesting time, it’s the most advanced age but in the most ignorant or deluded society. This society believe in education but only for the future job, plus, they never taught us anything in schools, they just feed us with so many information for so many and long years, they were like training us, not teaching us, but we all got deluded by this so called education because it has math and physics, oh shiny, but deluded. Moreover, why do they give us tests, like they’d determine whether we deserve to live or to be garbage, there are so many students who are not qualified to learn chemistry for example, why we teach them that, they are not going to be chemists anyway. Eventually, nobody likes school as it’s a normal feeling because that’s what their parents went through too, then everyone complaining why their children are failing, not knowing that their kids don’t want these judging schools, and everyone is asking why their sons use drugs to finally find comfort. And yet, they are forced to go to school every single day because they’d thrown to the garbage bin otherwise. At the end, if you think about it, we only learn how to follow orders, everyone passes after all.
Or, when this society believe in jobs, after all these years of unmerciful and judging years of harsh education, now they must apply for a job that will keep them alive for the next decades, and follow orders the same way they had been taught in schools. I believe this is another form of extreme servitude, but no one believes this because we were raised to believe that we’re free and independent people, but the truth is we only have our weak voices, and who’d listen to us, and if any of us have a strong voice among people, he’d either be killed or ruined by false accusation. You don’t have the freedom, just because you can protest and shout against them it doesn’t mean we live in a time where freedom is our symbol, the only thing you’re going to prove to the public by shouting against the system is that we still have this false freedom, at the end nothing changed, everything is still the same. It’s obvious but everybody is much occupied to think. Okay maybe we’re not serving people but we are to money, and who owns the money? Let me make it so clear for you, they see you the same way you see your gardener who you pay him, and that’s if you have a gardener.
There are so many other examples, but I wanted to give you the most two important examples, you can attach them to any other volunteered examples from you, I’m sure you have one little example you have noticed. Anyway, this is the reality we’re living, it’s nothing new, it’s an old habit, some people like to play God and many people like to play angels to them.
What if your entire life is a lie? There are so many people who think that the methods of delusion are actually very common in this civilized age, which is true but the truth is that the illusion issue was in every human being since the day of Adam. Look at Adam for example, he had deluded by Satan himself that he should eat from the forbidden tree to remain immortal and king forever, although he was immortal and a king already, but still he got deluded. And so on with history which is filled with delusions and baseless facts, it’s normal if you see so many poppycock mouths at this time, so don’t believe whatever you hear even if it was from someone you really love and admire, but believe anything your mind and your honest heart ask. Or else, you’ll be deluded just like them, then welcome to the common history my dear friend.
However, we live in such an interesting time, it’s the most advanced age but in the most ignorant or deluded society. This society believe in education but only for the future money, plus, they never taught us anything in schools, they just feed us with so many information for so many and long years, they were like training us not teaching us, but we all deluded by this so called education because it has math and physics, oh shiny, but deluded. Moreover, why do they give us tests, like they’d determine whether we deserve to live or to be garbage, there are so many students who are not qualified to learn chemistry for example, why we teach them that, they are not going to be chemists anyway, and because I hate chemistry. Eventually, nobody likes school as it’s a normal feeling because that’s what their parents went through too, then everyone complaining why their children are failing, not knowing that their kids don’t want these judging schools, and everyone is asking why their kids use drugs to finally find comfort. And yet, they are forced to go to school every single day because they will be thrown to the garbage bin otherwise, and no parent wants that. At the end, if you think about it, we only learn how to follow orders, everyone passes after all.
Or, when this society believe in jobs, after all these years of unmerciful and judging years of harsh education, now they must apply for a job that will keep them alive for the next decades, and follow orders the same way they had been taught in schools. I believe this is another form of extreme servitude, but no one believes this because we were raised to believe that we’re free and independent people, but the truth is we only have our weak voices, and who’d listen to us, and if any of us have a strong voice among people, he’d either be killed or be ruined by false accusations. You don’t have the freedom, just because you can go out and shout against them it doesn’t mean you have the freedom, at the end nothing changed, everything is still the same. It’s obvious but everybody is much occupied to think. Okay maybe we’re not serving people but we are to money, and who owns the money? Let me make it so clear for you, they see you the same way you see your gardener whom you pay him, and that’s if you have a gardener.
There are so many other examples, but I wanted to give you the most two important examples, you can attach them to any other volunteered examples from you, I’m sure you have one little example you have noticed. Anyway, this is the reality we’re living, it’s nothing new, it’s an old habit, some people like to play God and many people like to play angels to them.
I might have mentioned this before, but because it’s too important I have to repeat it again but with a whole a page. One heart are two words but they’re held with so much powerful meanings, it might be the first time you heard it, but I won’t blame you because no one have taught you this, not your parents, your school, your boss, no one, because the system of this world don’t want that, they don’t want you to know, because as soon you understand it, it’ll be a threat to them. But let’s just not rush things here.
One heart should be everyone’s logo, especially in this globalized world. In short, the meaning of one heart is that anyone should care for anyone, so simple but it’s very hard already ha? I’m not giving you an opinion here, I’m giving you a proven theory. Imagine if everyone really cares for everybody, many of you here got his own problems, but this is because you’re not helping each other, simple. But you’re so by your own, who will do your bills beside you? Who will pay your hospital fees if you have a dangerous disease? Although there are so many people you know who could but they can’t do it because they have been taught everything except caring and loving.
Where are you parents, cousins, your brothers and sisters, why you are so much apart? Your friends are good people but you need to know they’re the last people to love and care for. But it’s okay, one heart’s meaning is even bigger than that, one heart means that you should see the whole world as your own family and reject any harm to them, and defend them, and wish them the best, and love them, and care about them. When you see the whole world as your family you’ll start to feel it, to feel the excitement and the energy from within you, you’ll feel the courage and the welling to do and be anything, you’ll feel human, not ruined anymore.
But enough with the big words, because many of you don’t like that. Let’s think about it logically then, who would raise you if your parents didn’t, that’s love and care from your own family. Who would help you to get through problems and issues if your friends didn’t? That’s love and care also. Who would try hard to teach you about life if no one didn’t? That’s love and care as well. So why don’t we expand the love to anything around us? Why don’t we deal with love and caring if it always works? Instead of being hateful and judgmental and envious and careless and greedy and scarred and locked up inside our houses. We should love and care for everyone ‘till we don’t need to lock our doors anymore.
You see now why the founders of this greedy system don’t want you to know and to understand this proven theory, it’s because it’s against their interest, because it’s going to be hard to fool and manipulate the public. That’s why they’ve murdered everyone who suggested peace and love and care. Anyhow, this is what my book is all about, I worked hard to write this book to send such simple message, but it’s surely worth it. Maybe very few will read this book or even fewer to understand, but it’s still worth every single second I put in this book
I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this previously, however, since I was a kid, I felt, I mean, I knew there was something wrong, I don’t know why, but I felt it. I felt that we do what we shouldn’t, I mean, our habits, our beliefs, our perspectives, ah, our goals, our ideas, even our genders, our style of life, our interests, our subjects, our nature, I felt that we’re changing all these and more to another direction, of course, I didn’t think of it as the same way now, but I still feel it, I exactly felt that we’re moving to another direction, I’m not saying to a bad direction but I didn’t like that feeling.
Like, when I see the idea of marriage have changed, and when I see how people consider hundreds of times before they want to get married, it pisses me off. We meant for marriage to keep the values and the importance of making families, it symbolizes unity and love and caring and rights. But when we have this so called relationship, it symbolizes self-interest and wasted love and sex obsession and silly rights. We have changed, this is never happened before in history, when making a family becomes a misunderstood concept and heavily taken, of course, there are so many family lovers, but I always talk about the general common thoughts among the public.
Or when the gold used to be the currency, not wallpapers, which is constantly ripping the public off, and every day. Gold is the real money, it has its value in it, not in the hands of international monetary system. Today, everything is becoming more expensive to buy, when gold was the trading money, the prices will never go higher unless if there’s a shortage problem from the supply, or if the seller himself wants to, which never worked because the other sellers will make the prices lower. Now if you buy a bread with one dollar it won’t be the same price after five years, and it wouldn’t be a problem if the wages wouldn’t be the same as well. Furthermore, money is not gold only, it could be rice or chicken, or with goods, or even salt, the idea of money is what makes you survive and live, money is actually supposed to be a welfare, something you benefit from, so, you can trade with sugar if you can sell it or use it to survive, it’s called business. But now the system of currency has made everything tighten on the public, you can’t make one step without giving wallpapers, and we can’t do anything about it because this is the way it goes. So in short, the monetary system and the banks are controlling your business and they decide how miserably beautiful your life should be, not you, anymore.
Moreover, since when music has become other than purity and emotions? When I listen to some music these days, I find them all full of hate words, negative attitudes, and darkish. But it’s okay, this is a normal change, let us be less worrier and look up for anything new.
Not everything has changed, and not everything has turned badly. We still have our creativity, our different greed, our prides, our hate, our love, our obsessions, our sense of humor, our changed ideas and sometimes our habits, our new methods, our music, our subjects, our directions, our dreams, our love story, our moments, the world is still beautiful and bride. But sometimes the world is boring, you know. And sometimes the world is exciting, but it doesn’t mean we can’t make it even more exciting, because it’s so boring not doing anything different or better.
So, after almost a year, of trying and trying and trying, she still not doing anything about it. I cared about her, I wrote beautiful amazing poems for her, I even had sent her the first part of the poem with red flower, through her teacher of course, I really loved her. Yet, she couldn’t respond in any better way, rather, she told me again that she never liked me and to her I was just a classmate, she also said that I shell never try and waste my time. But I didn’t give up, because I heard that no one should give up on his love ones, and I went with it. So I kept sending her emails because I lost her number again, however, I kept sending messages about how did I end up leaving her, by the way, I’m the one who left, and twice, anyway, I also sent her messages about the magic moments which led me to her, and I sent my honest expressions to her. No replies yet, I said it’s okay: maybe it means she’s thinking about it, maybe not, but it worth the shot. At the same time, I kept feeling that maybe she means that she doesn’t care, and I kept feeling the same every time I go back to my senses, but still, it worth the shot. Therefore, I reduced my emails, at least let me keep some prides ha? So after a pretty long time, I sent her a message, giving her greets about another occasion. I don’t know what happened but I believe she got load of my emails, anyway, she finally sent a message telling me that she changed her email and that’s why she didn’t reply, she also told me she’s engaged, and she said that she’s hopping the best for me and I shell never send her any more messages. Yeah, she told me that, how did it feel? Well I actually went cool with it, because I believe in God and he has something better and he has a reason for it. Naturally, I felt so sad, that sadness which comes with a big fake smile face, my brother was around when I was reading this message, I couldn’t listen to any word he was saying at that time, I felt that all the dreams and the magic moments that I had, went and gone with the winds and it was so hard to see that and live with it.
Beautiful names ha? Is there such thing? If nowadays freedom means to kill sick children for it, or when sex means love, or when play means to sit down, or when fighting always related to an angry face, or when family means a husband, a wife, one daughter, and or one son. There’s no such as beautiful names, the word by itself doesn’t have any value because it could change very easily in time, but the feelings toward the word is very hard to change. We wouldn’t be fighting if everyone shares the same meaning of the same word, but because we differentiate between our different definitions and our different history books we keep fighting and fighting and fighting, at the end, the history is us, and nowadays history simply means long time ago.
One of the examples of our beautiful names is ‘‘boyfriend’‘ or ‘‘girlfriend’‘, maybe you don’t agree with me, I can understand but I want this book to be unique and positive. However, it’s true, why would I want to love a girl without marrying her? What about men who are very shy to approach to women because women want someone who’s cooler as a boyfriend? What about men who don’t have the taste of clothing? I believe this is the theory of boyfriend/girlfriend, it’s a love game, we all know this but we keep ignoring it, plus, it’s too much fun and easier sometimes.
They say that one of Satan’s methods it’s to change names, like making the word dark as if it’s the opposite of light, while it’s actually the absence of light. Or when he makes the word freedom means drink, play and have fun all day all night without limits, and have no beliefs but in this freedom. The big picture is, freedom is a great belief, but if we know what freedom really means. Or when Satan try to make the word ‘‘bad’‘ to a cool word to describe our past, which is cool sometimes ha-ha.
Honestly, we need to review our beautiful names to make it even better names, it might be a slight problem to give it a page, but it’s very important to keep it in mind, so you won’t get fooled when politicians speak. You know, when they use the word child as a way to touch you, or when they repeat the word terrorist to make you keep on paying for social security, or when they use God to make you believe they’re in the good side. Therefore, you need to try to take the whole meaning of the sentence, don’t let one beautiful name delude you from the truth; the old kings, or the historical kings used to apply this method on their people, actually, it’s not a negative method sometimes.
When you’re capable of differentiating between the unreal and the real beautiful names, you’d be able to recognize the truth from a lie. One of the meaning of freedom is to release all the repeated beliefs and the repeated names, and be free from them, and become untouchable. In the other hand, there are many beautiful names that have the same beautiful meaning, but we have forgotten them, honor for example. Or the word flexibility, it means to be like a water, flexible and unbeatable. It’s the flexibility of handling matters or problems, or opinions. So don’t try to blame history, politicians, or figures for your misunderstood meanings, just be cool and flexible about it and always begin from yourself when it comes to blame. And blame, is a very awesome word.
What does make us apart? This question shouldn’t have been asked, but it has been a fact for a long time, unfortunately. Many of you believe that we’re a result of a combination of billions of years of development across countless specious, and also many of you believe in the merciful, the ruler, the creator, God. Each of these ways affect your attitudes, actions, goals, and of course your standers, but it won’t change the fact that we’re all human beings, we share the same feelings, the same egos, the same diseases, the same obsessions, the same smile, and the same different problems. I don’t understand when I see one of you despises some certain group of your same kind.
I don’t want to blame the media, because I already did more than enough, however, look at our concerns, all what we see about ourselves is what different from others, we never see how blessed we are when we breath, when we taste, when we feel love, when we laugh, but unfortunately all what we see in ourselves is what we don’t have. We never get satisfied, we still want more and more, it’s normal but sometimes it could become an illness, but in a materialistic world what you’d you expect? Even our children, if education won’t affect their future at anyhow, would they care to continue waking up in the morning to go to school? Therefore, we’re now under the shallowness level of thinking, we’re unable to define beauty, we can’t tell the differences between reality and appearance, so, eventually, we distinguish ourselves by silly and untruthful means of life. Like, clothes, iPhones, cars, houses, jobs, even wives, or in our hairs, our faces, our tallness, things that make an innocent child laugh.
But wider than that, why do we always talk about our core differences? Our religions, colors, nationalities, races, gender, life classes, and our football teams. I understand, it’s your right to spread your beliefs and to hold on to it, anyway, I’m targeting those who always remind the public in our differences in a manipulative and dehumanizing way, cause it’s much easier to control the public when they’re apart from each other, and I’m also targeting those who bought these differences. By a way or another, we all have our differences and no one can’t change this fact, this is why it’s ignorance and shameful to even mention our differences, it’s a very sensitive subject to talk about, especially from the media.
We must realize that we’re not living alone on this planet, there are so many others who have different beliefs and different cultures, no matter how much you tried you can’t make everyone to carbon copies of yourself, it’s a fact and we must understand it. So rather to differ with them and never win, you shell be a dear friend with them, at least by doing this you’ll make them form a good reputation about your beliefs and about your culture.
We should love everyone anywhere, yeah there is some hypocrites and wicked people, but they never been only from different or certain groups, they can be from your own blood and flesh. The world is beautiful, why are we filling it with different kinds of hate. You’ll only feel the life when you start to see yourself as a part of the world, not as a part of your group.
Forgive my crazy ambition
I’m so sorry, sometimes I do mistakes, and sometimes I do them on purpose. No, I’m not sick or I need help, I’m only human like you, but I’m different from you. I never regretted to any of my actions, because it won’t change anything. People say don’t do mistakes, I say, do mistakes, have an experience and learn. Still, it’s not an excuse for me to not apologies for those who I wronged, I’ve wronged so many people in my life, I’ve wronged my friends, and my family too.
For those who I wronged them, you may have forgotten me, but I want the world to know that I’m so sorry, I know that I’ve done it in purpose and that’s even worse, you have all the right to ignore me and never talk to me again, I don’t care cause at the end it’s about me not you, I’m the one who’s going to be punished later on in life. It’s not about me being with you again, it’s about what I’ve done when I wronged you. It’s not about me having done the mistake, it’s about me learning from my mistakes. But I want you to know this, I’ve never wanted to fool you, I only wanted you to learn life. I’ve never wanted to control you, I only wanted you to see the light at any cost. I’ve never wanted to ignore you, I only wanted you to be alone and figure out what I was trying to do. I’m sorry, I’m so sorry for those who have never understood me and never got the message and still hate me ‘till this very day, sorry I only meant bigger than you thought.
Sorry my loyal friends, sorry for making you believe in meaningless matters, sorry for leaving you so early before telling you my secrets, before telling you my goals and my purpose, I’m sorry, I left before I could explain myself better, sorry for not showing my world because I preferred my privacy, sorry If I hurt your feelings because I thought it could awake you, sorry for being mean, sorry if I broke my promises, sorry if I let you down, I didn’t want this but life is not always smiling.
Sorry my family, my blood and flesh, sorry if you saw me smoking but I have enough stress trying to make you proud of me. I wanted you to see me having higher grades at school, but you have a child who never believed in today’s education system. Sorry if my opinions do not agree with yours, I’m trying my best to make it so, or at least I’m flexible with it now. Sorry my sister if I said hurtful words to you, sorry my brother if my beliefs are not exactly like yours. Forgive me my father if I cried front of you, forgive me my mother if you still see me playing with kids, I’m so sorry if I’m not the kind of man you thought I’d be.
But I had already forgiven you all, I’ve forgiven those who wronged me, I’ve forgiven those who robed me. My friends, I know you had talked so many times behind my back, I know some of you have the habit of jealousy, but I already had forgiven you all and you guys are still my friends. I love you my sweet family, how can I not forgive you, and how could I stop forgiving you. Anyone, all of you, please, forgive, my crazy ambition.
Many of you will believe that I’m exaggerating when I offer my opinions and my thoughts to the world; like, when I said that ‘‘job’‘ is another form of extreme servitude, or when I criticized the education’s system and we should teach our kids how to use weapons, and many examples of my thoughts which was kind of weird ideas to some of you. However, it did not mean that I’m fully not convinced and not satisfied about everything in this world, no, I’m always positive and I’m very optimistic, and you should know this by now. I was only trying to show you the big picture, but it’s completely up to you to decide what to do next. The only thing that I would like you to do is to dream big and achieve bigger, but you can’t do it if you can’t see the truthful picture.
Anyway, it does not hold any kind of shame or embarrassment to be a full mother, you don’t have to work day and night to prove to the world that you’re still capable and smart. Raising a house is an honorable job, it doesn’t mean that you’re not participating or contributing to the world, no, you’re doing more than that, you’re more respected and feared. Stop saying what other people say, you’re great as a woman and greater as a mother, you don’t need to wear a tuxedo to achieve anything. Only the low IQ people will disagree with me. But, as I said, I’m not against a working mother, I just want the world to be purer and better, and the world can’t be better and purer if a mother is spending more time her children. It’s a huge achievement to be a caring mother, but I don’t know, the modern world finds it hard to understand.
More so, there’s something that schools unknowingly fighting against, which is creativity. How can you be creative if you share the same information with other students, you think like them, and you even wear like them. And if you get out of the line that they gave you, they’ll call you a looser. There’s no such thing as looser my friend. You’re a smart person, but you only believe in something else, and that does not make you in the wrong line. Yeah, do you know if you’re not a neat person it means that you’re a creative person? Do you know if people see you have weird ideas and kind of weird personality means you’re creative? Even more than that, if you keep forgetting so many times, don’t worry, it means that you’re a creative person, because creative people don’t know how to memorize, names or places for example, cause all what they do is creating something new, they have their own weird and strange kind of memory, and a messy routine. Also, creative people are so ambitious, sometime they go too far. And they also don’t like to stick on schedules, they’re forced to do it but you can’t imagine how much they hate any kind of typical routine. Therefore, if you want to be more successful than The Beatles, it doesn’t mean you’re going wildly too far, it only means that you have new creative ideas and you believe in them, regardless the results. You can achieve what many others didn’t, you have the creativity, and of course it’s a gift, anyway, don’t believe anyone who tells you otherwise, cause they all going on a routine and their rooms are so neat. You’re unique, you have more chances to achieve like what other creative or noncreative people did achieve. Now get up, you’re not alone.
People achieve so many times and every day, and you don’t need to be smart or creative to have huge achievements, it only takes passion and commitments. There are so many wicked people who have made greedy and unwanted achievements, and they keep achieving more, and we’re sitting aside helping them to achieve their dreams, and some of us are just not producing anything. And it’s sad, but what it’s sadder is when we’re not helping or supporting anyone to achieve their dreams, rather we’re helping those who don’t deserve it. If you want to have a true achievement, you simply can’t do it alone.
The end of time is coming; I have no doubt about it at all. I’m not a monkey, or a result of mysterious combinations. No, I prefer to believe that I’m a special creature, which was created and honored by the creator of all things. Just because we see sick and crazy people, doesn’t mean that God don’t create this. God is a lover, but he’s also a punisher, a tester, and a ruler. Anyway, we’re too special to live only once, there’s an immortality for us, but this life is a test for us to determine our next immortal life. Imagine if we’re immortals in this life, all the bad guys would be still alive. Great oppressors would still be oppressing humanity, let’s say Hitler for example. It’ll be truly a disaster! This is why there’s a judgment day. Where all the human race will be given what they gave in this life.
For instant, the money lender on interest. Some of them do it to be greatly and permanently rich, and some of them want more power, because when you lend a mass of people money on interest, you’re actually imprison them. Think about it, don’t these credit cards make you keep on paying them, you just ending up paying them for the rest of your life, and the more you’re late for paying, the more you pay even more because the living status becomes more expensive every day, so the more the days goes by, the more you find it harder to pay your debts, and this is not fair. Also, when you lend people money on interest, you’ll keep on getting richer and the people will keep on getting poor and poorer. You’re taking and taking and give nothing in return. At the end of day, they’ll have nothing, and you’ll have everything. You’ll win, and they’ll lose, and this is not business. Business is totally different. In business, you take the risk of losing. It’s like you plant, then the crumbs might come out, or sometimes the crumbs don’t come out at all, so you’re taking a chance, a risk. This’s business, you can have a profit, or you can suffer a lost. But if you’re a money lender on interest, you don’t have to plant, they’ll plant and you’ll rip of their plant, tell me is that fair? In fair business, wealth will circulate through the economy. One day for you, one day for me. And no one has an advantage over anyone else in the market. The market should treat everyone the same, it should be a free and a fair market. When the rich are permanently rich and the poor are permanently poor, that’s an oppression. So, imagine how God is going to judge all the money lenders on interest, and the ones who support them by borrowing.
Another example, charity. You give people and ask nothing in return. No matter how much, or what you give, you only want to help. Which is a pure and an honest way to spend your money on. Most of the time, people need money for themselves, in order to have a good life in return, or to survive at least. It’s something unusual for people when they give money and have nothing in return, it’s like they’re risking their only tool to survive in order to help those who in need. So, imagine how God is going to award them, and the ones who support them by smiling.
To conclude, if there’s no a judgment day, or an afterlife, then everyone will do whatever he or she wants and give it a beautiful name, as long as it’s legal. I’m not saying that you should obey God, no, I’m only saying that you have a brain to think and a heart to recognize the wrong from the right. At the end of the day, people should have the freedom to choose, and no one shell despise anyone over different choices. If you really believe in what you’re doing, then keep doing it. But you have to be so confident about it that you can confront God later on, even if you don’t believe in God.
Peace, mm, it’s a beautiful word, what else? Mm, it’s a powerful way to live upon. And, we shall never give up on living in peace, I mean, without peace we would’ve been uncivilized people. Without peace we wouldn’t have the time to create, to think, to love, to forgive. But we’d have all the time to hate, to oppress, to kill, to steal people’s right, to live in fear and feel constantly insecure, if we have left peace. It’s a wise way for me and for you when peace is among us. Peace is one of the wonderful meanings of life, I live in peace, I work hard for peace, and I dye with peace.
But, the problem with peace is that people find it hard to be actually seen, which is true, I get this feeling too. Especially when we see all these wars, all the criminals, all the dirty business men. Or when we see the third world countries, Africa for example. One of the benefits of achieving peace is also justice. We can make everyone live happily if we made a peaceful way of life among everyone. All the hungry children in all the poor countries is caused by a lack of peace, they’re not working peacefully together, but instead, they’re killing and robbing each other. Thus, many innocent poor families have to become victims of such actions. And all this because some of them didn’t believe in peace.
Trust, if we’re lacking something else, it’d be the trust. Because it’s the main essence for peace. The world is shouting about how peace is important, which is good, but how could we have peace if we still can’t trust each other, we can’t even trust ourselves. I know, the news can’t stop telling us about how the world is a dangerous place. I know that the movies are telling us so too, and I know that we can’t trust each other because we’re aware of the real situation of our world today, and it’s truly not worth trusting. We may need a new generation to replace all the doubts that we have on each other, or perhaps, a divine act would be enough for us.
But who are we kidding? Peace has never surrounded humanity, not now and surely not in history. We may have had some few times now and then, but the general idea says otherwise. We never had peace, if we had, we wouldn’t be having three divine religions from the same God.
We don’t need to look for peace. Honestly, peace is for the weak. So we need to protect our family, our country, and never depend on such things as peace. Why would we believe in peace? The human race is destined to fight against each other, we’re destined to differ when we were sent to earth. We were supposed to have good and evil, or let’s say, right and wrong. It’s in our nature. Can’t you see it, wars are everywhere, all kinds of war; you name it. It never stopped, and it’ll never stop!
Peace is a wishful way of living, but it takes a blind dreamy dumb person to believe in it. Let’s be realistic, I really love to see the world living in peace but I can’t believe in something that has never been existed on earth. Perhaps, we’ll see peace when Jesus has returned. But for now, I don’t think so. I’m being fair. Therefore, choose your goals, your beliefs, your family, your friends, your standers and be prepared to fight for them.
People will be completely savages if the electricity got eliminated, more savages than they already are sometimes. When I imagine it and really think about the consequences of such disaster, I can see what people truly are. There will be no lights, no phones, no water because waters can’t run without electricity, no TV, I guess that’s easy to handle, no food cause everything you buy from your nearest supermarket can’t be made without electricity, so you will have to hunt dears, no more toilets, so you’ll have to go and do it under the tree but then you’ll stop doing it under the tree because it will be your chilling place afterwards.
Things will be different then, and stranger, you’ll see the real world for the first time, you’ll find out that you’re on your own to survive, no police will help you, no neighbors will unless if they’re good people. You’ll have to run, jump, focus and search for days and maybe weeks just to get you some food. Of course, bad human beings will have to steal you at least so they can survive, perhaps they’ll rape you if you’re an ugly or a beautiful girl. Many people will commit suicide, many will get killed, and very few smart human beings will have the decency to help.
Therefore, you’ll realize that you’ll have to make many unwilling methods for you to survive. You’ll need weapons, so many weapons to make sure. You’ll have to kill many people to protect yourself or your family if you have one. You’ll want to make as much children as you can, because more human beings will be on your side, you’ll get old soon and there’s no one will take your place if you don’t have young men. If you’re a girl, you’ll have to find a man, a father, a brother, or a husband, whatever, someone who cares for you, because we both know that you can’t survive alone in such environment for too long. You’ll also have to raise your children to be strong men and tough women.
The beautiful modern world will be long gone. Now, a new world will be born, regardless if it’s a better world or a worse one. Generations will come, but soon or later there will be a chosen leader, because the human race can’t live without an inspiration, a hero; a capable leader who can promise them a better life. And then there will be order one more time, everyone will have to figure out his or her part, but everyone will have the responsibility to protect his town, village, whatever, everyone will have to be a soldier, a survivor, a warrior, a contributor, a supporter, a team active, in short more responsible.
But you’ll laugh one day, about how your old way of life was silly, and how the world is showing you more freedom than before. You were only a person who have no consideration but to himself, your beliefs were actually made by someone other than you. You’ll also laugh about how you used to buy things you didn’t need, and how you wasted your time trying to be someone else. But you’ll also going to miss it, because it was much easier and with less responsibility, and it was more luxuriant, at the end of the day, you’ll learn something about yourself, about life, and about this world.
The problem about this so called modern world is that you can’t live freely, you can think freely differently but it’s almost impossible to do anything different from the usual. People will be calling you freak and psycho if they saw you hunting dears and eat them at dinner, or if they saw you having more than three children, or if they saw you with weapons or if they saw your genius at math, or smiling most of the time, or too much good, or if you love children too much, or love to play with your mother. If you want to know who you really are, imagine yourself if the electricity got completely eliminated and there’d be no police or CIA, or FBI or any kind of force is coming after you.
The truth is, I screwed up. I was full of myself, I thought I could find a much cooler girl than Batty, many popular girls wanted to be in Batty’s place, I was an arrogant. I made Batty feel like Batty was nobody, Batty was the last option to me. But I didn’t know that a heart can choose without a permission from its holder, I was so lost, I was avoiding my feelings toward Batty because there were much hotter girls than Batty, I didn’t know who to love or how to love. I kept on telling myself that I have no feelings toward Batty, as if I’m better than Batty. Perhaps, I was young to be ready for serious commitment, or perhaps I was selfishly trying to find me a wild fun. I did what an asshole would do, excuse my language. It was all about me, and Batty was out of the equation. Did Batty love me? Well, I’m in no right to answer this question, I rather the question ‘’did Batty pity me?’’. Now, I deserve what is happening to me, I wouldn’t blame anyone but I, Batty had all the right not to love me, how could Batty love a jerk? To Batty, I was only a wasted page, and to me, Batty was the worst thing that ever happened to me, maybe I learned something here, I don’t know if Batty ever liked me, I don’t know if Batty ever cared about me, if Batty was only my classmate or if Batty was only saying this because I was treating Batty as a classmate too, all what I know is that I’ll never love someone the same way I loved Batty. I don’t think I can forget Batty, Batty will stay in my memory in this life and in the life after, I guess love is something real after all. People told me to move on, and I did move on, I have to move on anyway, I’m not waiting for any miracles. I guess, nothing like the movies ha? This is a real-life ending, sometimes it lasts, sometimes not, and I’m sure you all agree with me on this. Who knows? Maybe Batty wouldn’t have loved me either ways, maybe I made a big scene out of it, I honestly don’t care anymore, it was only something very interesting which had happened to me, and I wanted to share it with the rest of the world. It’s okay, I know it’s an unusual and a weird love story, but I hope for her a good life, I really do. She was sensational. She was my first real love. She changed my life. And I’m just grateful for whatever it was between us.
I don’t want to finish this book, I really don’t, there’s more to write, and there’s more love to show. It’s okay, I’d love to write more books, upload more books, and one person is enough for me, one person would make me happy. I hope that person is you, and I love you, not because God told me so, but because I believe in something that worth fighting for, no, I mean worth dying for.
Now, everybody, you can add more subjects into this book, you’re so welcome to. Write about yourself, write about your love story, go write about life. Open the front door of your house and begin from yourself. Don’t wait me or anyone to start your dreams, no, I’m waiting for you, show me what do you got.
Now, you almost know the truth, and I hope I showed you the truth. The rest is from you now, there are things that I can’t change about you, there are some things in life that over our power. I’ve written over fifty important subjects (I think?), but still, I may have missed so many other matters of life. But who knows maybe I’ll write a second part of this book, actually, now I’m thinking of it. I may name it ‘’Life IS STILL Fair’’
Now, everybody, go and create your present, I’m trying to create mine too. Everyone is still got a long time ahead of him. Don’t waste your time roaming around earth like goats. You have ears, use them, you have eyes, use them. And you have a heart, please use it.
Now, stop making fake smiles and please make them real ones. Stop using your talents for only money, and please use them for better meanings. Make the weakness that you have to something delightful, and make the strength you have to something purposeful and shareable.
Now, starting over is not what I’m asking, no one needs to start over, but everyone needs to find his passion, his purpose of life. And don’t think that you have no reason of your being, come on, you’re more than you can imagine, anything you do affects the entire human race, and anything.
Now, remove your fears, and replace them with confidence and honor. Remove your hate and replace them with care and passion. Remove yourself from other’s equation and make a new better equation of yourself. Stop saying what other people say, stop doing what other people do. And most importantly, stop following the anonymous and make the anonymous follows you.
Now, I’m not trying to be the so full of wisdom. For sure, many of you will have a higher wisdom than me. So, this is not my way of writing, I only write what’s in my heart leaving the consequences behind. I’m only 21 years old, I still have so much ahead of me to face, and I’m ready for them. Anyway, I want you to take this book as humble and amazing little book.
Surely, to be continued.
Simplicity, one of my favorite values, because truth and realness are always very simple. I live for the simple things, the greatest ideas are the simplest, not to brag but, I’m a simple guy. Like this book, it’s not deep, it’s not superficial, it’s greatly simple. It starts with general thoughts, to gorgeous robots and ends with the third chapter which simply named “chapter three’’. Building journals after journals until I was able to create a body of a story with a helpful message. I’m twenty years old, born in the capital of Yemen, I live in Saudi ever since I was a baby. And I have a voice just like anybody else around the world; so this is from, me to planet.