Seth Rein first laid eyes upon the love of his life in the early months of 2011, Lily had everything Rein hoped to see in a potential lover or even friend, with an amazing personality and looks to match, he instantly fell head over heels for her. This wasn’t the case however in Lily’s situation, she found nothing in Seth and never would, but he didn’t know it, and for the time he didn’t, Seth tried to get Lily to love him.
[DIARY LOG: 9/01/2011 8:38 PM]
I have laid eyes upon the new love of my life, she has taken control over my eyes as I can’t seem to look anywhere except in her general direction. I still have yet to learn her name as my self-confidence is abysmal at the moment and do not see improvement any time soon. I shall try commencing in small talk with the mysterious beauty to-morrow as it is in my best interest to do so.
[DIARY LOG: 9/02/2011 6:24 PM]
I have successfully commenced in small talk with the beauty, her name is Lily and is accompanied by the young age of 21, the same age as I. Lily stated that she would attend college in the following year. This gives me an adequate amount of time to get her to love me so that I can have a partner and not be so lonely in this life anymore.
[DIARY LOG: 9/03/2011 9:40 PM]
I currently am building a relationship with Lily as she seems like one of the nicest people I have ever met so far in my life. We share common interests, however, she seems to hate me and generally denounces me, I play along and denounce her but I feel as if she isn’t joking and is trying to diminish my self-respect, which I already lack.
[DIARY LOG: 9/04/2011 5:15 PM]
Even though it has been less than a week, I already feel as if I am failing at trying to captivate Lily. She doesn’t seem to notice me and won’t even try to give me the time of day. She seems to be much more friendly to the other men in our vicinity on a daily basis. I am giving up hope and do not see light whatsoever at the end of the tunnel.
[DIARY LOG: 9/05/2011 6:07 PM]
I am spilling at the seams and brimming with happiness as I have caught Lily staring multiple times in my general direction, I must think rationally however, as “general direction” doesn’t always mean “your direction.” I commenced in conversation with her again today and we sat down together during lunch. I listened intently to everything she had to say and replied to everything but it seemed that she hardly cared about the situation at all because she only seemed to respond with one word to everything I had to say. My feelings for her are still strong however and I won’t let it waver any further than it already has, no matter how badly she treats me.
[DIARY LOG: 9/06/2011 1:49 AM]
Lily doesn’t seem interested me at all, today during our break we did the same thing as the previous day and I thought to myself about the quote from Albert Einstein “Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” Lily still only gave me one word answers without once even looking at me. I talked to friends about the situation and they said that I was being “too needy.” While yes, I may be needy, but at least I care about Lily.
[DIARY LOG: 9/07/2011 6:00 PM]
It’s always a bad sign when you want to kill yourself because another human is treating you like garbage. Actually, with the whole “recycle” movement, I have seen garbage that is being treated better than how Lily treats me. Today during our break, I asked Lily a multitude of extremely easy trick questions and each one she got wrong, her general response time to me was around the one to two second range, that is usually how long her responses lasted as well sadly. I shall now refrain from speaking to her alone during our break.
[DIARY LOG: 9/08/2011 11:20 AM]
I write this during my break, I feel as if I have become much more shallow. Seeing how terribly Lily treats me, I now see her only as object of beauty. Her personality is terrible. Lily seems to gravitate toward another man that I do not know the name of and do not plan on knowing the name of. He seems to be much more athletic and taller than me while at the same time also being smarter. It looks like Lily is into the smart athletic type. I am neither of those.
[DIARY LOG: 9/09/2011 3:28 AM]
I feel as if I have become an emotionless husk of meat and flesh. I don’t care about other people’s feelings and often hurt them without knowing. I don’t care that Lily has tried to talk to me more and more for some reason after the break yesterday. I don’t care that my friends constantly ask me what’s wrong and that I am an emo. I don’t care about anything at all anymore, and it is all due to Lily.
[DIARY LOG: 9/10/2011 2:42 PM]
Oh great, it looks like Lily has given me her phone number AND texted first. I didn’t respond until much later and I don’t ever recall asking her for it. Instead of writing in my Diary anymore, I shall simply put transcripts of my texts with Lily. Maybe with comments.
[DIARY LOG: 9/11/2011 6:34 PM]
Lily: So what are you doing at the moment?
Me: Nothing, what about you?
Lily: Texting you
Me: That wasn’t funny
Me: So, how is the man that you seem to orbit and don’t stop staring at?
Lily: He is alright I guess, he is so nice to me
Me: That must be amazing. To have a person to be extremely nice to you, and to hold you up on a pedestal
Lily: Yeah, I guess it is, well, I have to leave but will talk to you later
She is completely oblivious to my attempts at trying to get her to have feelings for me, she is so idiotic that it gives me a headache. I think I have lost brain cells today from that conversation. While I texted her, I wanted to throw my phone at the nearest person.
[DIARY LOG: 9/12/2011 9:01 PM]
Lily: Hey Seth
Me: Hello Lily
Lily: I have a question, do you possess feelings for anyone?
Me: Well, I have feelings for a new girl however I don’t even know her name
Me: Now then, I redirect the question back at you
Lily: Well, I have feelings for two people
Me: Let me guess, the athletic one, and I don’t know who else
Lily: Well yes
Me: No surprise, now then, who is the other one?
I will save myself time, note to self: I guessed every single male I knew
Lily: Stop acting dumb, you obviously know it’s you!
Me: Look. I never had feelings for that girl, I always had feelings for you Lily
[DIARY LOG: 9/13/2011 6:15 PM]
She still has not responded to my text message, I do not care any more about Lily, she has ruined me as a person and ruined my emotions. Like I said before, I don’t care about anything anymore. I have told my friends about the situation and I got two responses “I don’t care”, and “you’re lying”. It is incredible how much my friends trust my word (which is none at the moment)
[DIARY LOG: 9/14/2011 4:36 PM]
Lily is now incredibly mad at me, I ended up telling my friends about what had happened along with one of Lily’s close friends Dee. I told Dee about everything , about the new me, about how I told everyone, and about how I was going to reject Lily. She said that “I worked so hard and now I am letting it all go.” I kept trying to make the point that I was tired and didn’t want anything to do with Lily anymore. Dee ended up telling Lily that I told everyone and she didn’t exactly speak to me since yesterday
[DIARY LOG: 12/14/2011 9:10 PM]
Nothing notable has happened within the past few months, I will stop recording in my Diary here, after the whole incident with Lily, nothing really interesting happens anymore. Dee was the first one to find out I never liked the new girl, and Lily has become crazy. She has become deeply religious and a freak when it came to health. Being much more worried than the average person should be. If I hadn’t rejected Lily, then I would have severed all ties with her this month because of the changes she went through. I still have not regained my emotions, and have burned most of my bridges. I hate the world, and the world hates me.
…all thanks to Lily
Done By: Josh Buloushi
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Author notes: I consumed too much caffeine while making this. I need sleep
Emotions die quickly in the hands of right people, while mostly based on true stories of my past, it also involves a close friends stories that I have taken under my wing and have put in to the story as it is very interesting. Names have been changed for privacy reasons and the fact that the name Lily means "innocence, purity, and beauty". I love the name, so I gave it to someone I hate. This book contains (unreal) diary logs from Seth Rein and his experiences with the love of his life Lily. I hope you enjoy as I put my heart and soul into this novel I got the cover Image here: https://www.google.com.kw/url?sa=i&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=images&cd=&ved=0ahUKEwjC9crk89rQAhWKPRoKHZJUAjAQjRwIBw&url=%2Furl%3Fsa%3Di%26rct%3Dj%26q%3D%26esrc%3Ds%26source%3Dimages%26cd%3D%26cad%3Drja%26uact%3D8%26ved%3D0ahUKEwjC9crk89rQAhWKPRoKHZJUAjAQjRwIBw%26url%3Dhttps%253A%252F%252Fwww.pinterest.com%252Farbrador%252Flily-flower%252F%26bvm%3Dbv.139782543%2Cbs.1%2Cd.amc%26psig%3DAFQjCNHJuZEdN9IbqSDHKf6i5eB38QZB5w%26ust%3D1480953474939933&bvm=bv.139782543,bs.1,d.amc&psig=AFQjCNHJuZEdN9IbqSDHKf6i5eB38QZB5w&ust=1480953474939933 (Sorry it is quite long, but getting the actual image is better than finding it on pintrest)